LENA'S DUNGEON

tw drugs & ed • rant blog • don't report, just block !¡

[lilla-wings]

WARNING: THIS BLOG CONTAINS  ED CONTENT ! READ BYF !

please don't report, this blog is my safe space and reporting won't solve this issue it'll only isolate me and make it worse. pls just block me instead, i don't want to loose the only place where i can vent. I don't encourage ED's, this blog is for ME to cope.

DNI IF: racist, sexist, fatphobic, anti LGBTQ+, NSFW blog, ableist, a non ed related blog, pro-ana/mia, pro-capitalism and minor(-15)

THIS IS A SAFE PLACE FOR: poc, the LGBTQ+ community, all genders, all social classes, people with ED's that aren't stereotypical, overweight and underweight ED sufferers.

no matter how pretty one makes the post look, EATING DISORDERS ARE NOT AND WILL NEVER BE CUTE. you DO NOT want this lifestyle, i'm talking to you new ana's/mia's etc. eating disorders will control your entire life and do not disappear as soon as you have your desired thin body. THIS IS NOT A DIET, THIS IS A DISORDER!!! leave while you still can I AM BEGGIN YOU.

STAY SAFE, I WISH RECOVERY ON ALL OF US ♡

~ my stats

⭒  my alt tumblr in case this one get terminated again: @khaldorian-daughter

lena • 20-something • she/her

hight: 153 cm / 5′1 ft

sw: 61 kg / 134 lbs

cw: 54 kg / 119 lbs

gw: 50 kg / 110 lbs

gw2: 45 kg / 99 lbs

ugw: 40 kg / 88 lbs

[screeching-painter-witch]

"killing must feel good to god, too. he does it all the time. and are we not created in his image?" dr lecter you are a HORRIBLE therapist but that line FUCKS

[smallstarsthin-blog]

🍴low calorie strawberry muffins!🍴

hey guys! sorry for being absent for a little bit, but my mum took my phone recently, so I might not be able to post as frequently for a bit. however, I’ve whipped up an awesome muffin recipe, so give it a try!

-Ingredients-  

½  lemon zest (2 cal)

2 tbsp sugar free syrup (15 cal)

½ cup greek yoghurt (69 cal)

¼ banana (mashed) (26 cal)

1 large egg (72 cal)

½ tsp vanilla extract (0 cal)

½ cup flour (228 cal)

¼ tsp baking powder (0 cal)

½ cup chopped strawberries (27 cal)

-Directions-

preheat your oven to 180 degrees celsius, or 350 degrees fahrenheit. then, prepare a muffin or cupcake tray with eight muffin liners, and spray them with some nonstick spray. in a medium bowl, mix together all of your ingredients, except the strawberries, until they are all well combined. then, add the strawberries before pouring the batter into the muffin/cupcake tray. stick the muffins in the oven to bake for about 25 minutes, or until you can stick a toothpick in it and have it come out clean. cool for a couple minutes after they have baked, and enjoy!

-nutritional facts-

servings: 8 muffins serving size: 1 muffin calories per serving: 55 

stay strong, stay safe,

~katie

[odumb-deactivated20220303]

till deactivation do us part

[flightyfinch]

im so sad this is from a deactivated blog i feel like i just found a heartfelt message in an old locket at a garage sale

[lilla-wings]

starving while living with others is so fucking hard fml

[sku11-9x-deactivated20231007]

[lilla-wings]

it just ain't my day.. my parents saw me crying af because of my fucking thesis my psychiatrist can't see me today couldn't smoke my ed is hitting hard and my cuttings almost got wrong I mean fml

[lilla-wings]

Pretending 24/7 is exhausting

[lilla-wings]

being the owner of my expiration date is somewhat comforting and and scary at the same time. this sense of power is a dangerous thing to carry

[lilla-wings]

it must be so fucking tiring to be my friend.. while I'm here feeling angry with them insisting and almost demanding my presence while I wish they'd hate me everytime I get an 'i miss you' or an 'im so lucky for meeting you' while I wish I could just be forgotten as soon as possible they try and try and try

I don't deserve them, they don't deserve to have someone like me in their lives and they won't deserve the way I'll departure from it but honestly? I'm too tired to even care by now

The apathy is surrounding every single feeling I had even guilt and I just can have a glimpse of the hate I feel for myself for being that selfish but that's exactly the humans problem right??

idk I just want to disappear as soon as I can

[sadandsmilling]

One of the worst parts of self harm and suicidal ideation is when you’re sitting next to someone you love so much and all you can think about is how badly you want things to end.

[lilla-wings]

worthless & useless

[sadheartdarkmind]

“And there was nothing poetic about wanting to kill myself and writing so many suicide notes in my head explaining how sorry I was for the things I did not become. There was nothing poetic and beautiful about crying myself to sleep every night for the past 5 years hoping someone would care enough to save me. No one saved me. No one was going to save me because there is nothing poetic about thinking you can’t be saved. There is nothing poetic about staring at a blank wall for an entire day or smiling and laughing the next and having people think “oh she’s fine.” There was nothing poetic and beautiful about trying to take my own life. There is nothing poetic and beautiful about my mother having a panic attack every time I have a bad day and lock my door. There is nothing poetic and beautiful about me not taking my pills because I don’t know who I am without this sadness. There is nothing poetic and beautiful about having depression and wishing you were dead. There was nothing poetic and beautiful about my depression or anyone else’s depression nor will there ever be anything beautiful and poetic about it.”

— Fuck anyone that says it’s beautiful//Deeply Feeling Series (via promisesofamazing)

[lilla-wings]

I became so drowned in this spiral with a expiration date that everytime I see some band or writer of director I like announcing something new my instant thought is "wow so cool man, unfortunately won't be able to see it tho"

dude it all became an event

[lilla-wings]

okay I really need to kms before the end of my term and I'm not even saying hypothetically this is a need cuz I'm UNABLE to finish this on time fml

[elpatron-delmal]

Shit sucks when you can’t talk to anyone about what’s going through your head

[gothicprep]

i came into this world covered in someone else blood and screaming and lemme tell you i’m not afraid to leave it the same way