NOT PRO A Fat Anorexic

Reblog shit for myself, just block SW:85kg CW:74.7kg GW:70kg UGW:55kg

[lilquackhere]

Stats - Active 7/22

I DO NOT ENCOURAGE STARVING, PURGING, PROANA OR ANYTHING THIS IS A COPING TOOL

17 - 75kg/150lbs - 164cm/5’3 - BMI 27

Goals & rewards

GW1 ~ 80kg/176lbs -🔓New shirt

78kg/171lbs -🔓

74kg/163lbs -🔓

GW2 ~70kg/154lbs - 🔓Waist beads

68kg/150lbs - 🔓

GW3 ~ 65kg/143lbs - 🔒Brandname pants

62kg/136lbs - 🔒

58kg/127lbs - 🔒

UGW~ 55kg/120lbs - 🔒Dunno yet

A little about me

Ive had an Ed since I was 8 unfortunately and it went from BED to ANA with b/p subtype since then

I fast as long as I can as eating nothing is easier than eating a little, the longest being 127 hours (6 days). Whenever I eat something I purge it regardless of it being a binge or not, I’ve been trying not to but it’s really hard to sit with the feeling.

Feel free to bully me with meanspo, sweetspo and whatever

[thegaybitch15-deactivated202303]

I mean-

[lilquackhere]

Back on board

After 2 months of binging I’ve gained 7kg and I’m back on board to start working it all off mainly because I desperately want to kill myself and I’ve seen a few recent photos of me and I’m pretty sure that if I continue I’m never going to stop

I’m back at the starting weight of 75kg

I know I’ve gained a lot in two months an you probably think it will be easier to just kill myself but I am willing to try and actually not be such a fuxking fat ass

[love-letters-i-never-sent]

[depressed-ravioli]

Dying really sounds like an option.

[lilquackhere]

I’m going to kill myself

I’ve got the pills and this time it will kill me

I am so sick of this fucking pain, being at the weight, the voices, the thoughts. I’m fucking over it all

I’m sick of uni, sick of people and relationships and sick of never getting the help I need

Bye everyone and I apologise for every being in your life

[lilquackhere]

Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)

Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)

So I’m total I had 550 cals

Not a good day today not a good day at all!

And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean

[lilquackhere]

I’m not usually scared of liquid calories but today I had 2 McDonald’s coffee frappe (no whipped cream and no chocolate drizzle) but I’m still fuxking scared of how many calories I had today even tho I only ate 200 calories.

I’m not usually this scared of liquid cals, I avoid them where I can but I’ve got my safe drinks which is caramel latte (120 cals wit milk) and McDonald’s coffee frappe (no cream or chocolate) (400 cals) which usually make me happy and not give me a panic attack like they did today. I’ve had so many calories today it’s not funny and I’m positive I’m gonna gain weight!

I just want to throw myself of a bridge for letting myself have this many calories, it’s like I want to stay fat at this point.

I’m so over myself and I just want this to end

[lilquackhere]

Ed meme dump

[halfaperson]

[lilquackhere]

how many calories do you eat a day?

I fast most of the time but when I eat it’s always under 500 cals + 100 cals for my morning coffee. 🤗

I don’t recommend this as I keep losing my sight and hearing due to malnourishment which is scary but I just can’t eat.

Stay safe x

[lilquackhere]

HELLO EVERYONE, I HIT MY NEXT GOAL WEIGHT OF 68kg WEIGHING IN AT 67.90kg

In 12 weeks I’ve managed to lose 9.10kg (20lbs) and 17.10kg (37.6lbs) since my high weight.

Current BMI 25.2

Next gw

65kg/143lbs

[pychoticveniceb1tch]

I want to look as sick as my thoughts

[lilquackhere]

So.. I tried to off myself last week and ended up in the icu.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[missbeingthin]

"My child is completely fine" your child would do anything to lose 30lbs in a week

[matchmannn-deactivated20221216]

POV: You lost 10lbs but look 10x fatter

[lilquackhere]

33*