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[lilxmcrtes]

Hiya!

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[lilxmcrtes]

Hello? >.>

[lilxmcrtes]

[ ☆ ] ~ I'm likely talking into a void but I'm thinking about how Eira cries when she's angry, usually because she's hurt. The same with Tripp except it pisses him off so much and he shakes with how much he tries to hold it in. The way his face looks because he's clenching his jaw.

I'm also thinking about Tripp in particular. Didn't realize how he was also a part of me. In some previous post, I thought that for him to really get better, he needed someone to stay no matter what. Not take his shit, but just stay. Which I've learned is something something about corrective relationships(?). In the sense that you don't magically get better. Especially alone. But you run into the same situation and learn to act differently, get past your previous bad reaction because you're not getting abandoned. (Add in a less cohesive thought about relating to T.he G.ood P.lace and reiterating getting better thru interaction with others)

It's nice (and a little scary) to trust that I won't be abandoned. Most of all its nice to feel like I can handle more than I used to

I hope Tripp gets that. I hope all my old muses friends(?) are doing better

I'd love to revisit but I'd definitely start over again after living and learning more since the last time I wrote

Idk. I wanted to say this to someone. But there's no one to say it to rn. So just posting it here

[cosmonautroger]

[mudwerks]

comedic timing

[degenderates]

— Tony Kushner, Angels in America

[quotemadness]

How far can you go down the wrong path before you can’t get back on the right one?

Carolee Dean

[goldfyshie927]

A conversation I don’t think yall are ready for yet is that you can love a character sooooo much and relate to them and see yourself in them but at the end of the day they’re still fake and that’s why someone else’s take on them or headcanon about them isn’t a direct message about you or insult to your identity. If your identity is so wrapped up in a character that you can’t distinguish between reality and fiction, then you are the problem. Not some random person online who interprets the character differently than you.

[sjdsjkdlskdas-deactivated202012]

part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

[mysteryteacup]

If they had done things differently they could have been happy, but to do things differently would require them to be someone else.

[intactics-deactivated20211231]

and i don't necessarily believe any of this i'm just saying words recreationally

[dailyironwing]

#pure

[feral-ballad]

Silas Denver Melvin, from Grit: Poems; “Twenty”

[Text ID: “you’re so polite with your sadness. you don’t want to ruin this for anyone. you’re good at that.”]

[sidecouple]

BETTER DAYS  少年的你 (2019) dir. Derek Tsang

[chateauofmymind]

im really into romantic friendships, but specifically ones where the lines are already so blurred & yet the concept of romance hangs like a guillotine over both heads

[disgustinggf]

[vexheart]

[stay-close]

“When you lose a person, a whole universe goes along with them.”

— Lang Leav, The Universe of Us, from “A Whole Universe”

[whumppromptoftheday]

"you've always been there for me," whumpee says, curling up next to whumper, "i'm sorry i tried to leave you"

whumper slings an arm over them possessively, "i'm glad you decided to come back to me"