In no particular order:
@rhapso-kei
Kei, you are an amazing writer and your snapchats never fail to put a smile on my face. You’re ambitious, confident and super fucking funny. And congratulations on your Cambridge interview!!!! I’m so proud of you and I love you even though you’re a Scouser xxx
@royally-rogers
((Oh look it’s my best bitch))
JQ, you’re too pure for this world. You are one of the kindest, most giving people I’ve interacted with on this site and I’m so so lucky to have you as a friend. Your support and kindness never goes unappreciated. You’re a source of positivity even when you’re going through dark times. You distill your struggles into writing, into something that can be shared and enjoyed by others. You’re such a remarkable, talented and genuinely sweet person that you only deserve the best in life. I hope you have an amazing 2020 (and I’m keeping that card forever xxx) 💓💓
@likethewingsof-butterflies
You are one of the purest beans I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. You’re such a source of light and you never fail to make my day and put a smile on my face. Your comments are the reason that I continued to write on days when I felt disheartened or inadequate. 2019 has been a mixed year for you but your courage and kindness has helped you to get through the hard times and I’ve no doubt that 2020 will be amazing for you. You should be so proud of yourself and I hope you realise the impact that your positivity has on those around you. Love you! xxx 😘
@dummythiccisheretowrite
B, thank you for making me literally double over with laughter more times than I can count. Despite having maintained your mystique you’re fucking iconic and hilarious. You’ve also been an amazing source of support, a wonderfully talented creator and a great friend. I’m in awe of your strength and perseverance during difficult times and I hope you and you giant Ice Age poster are living your best life in 2020 xxx 🤧🤧
@rogermeddowstaylorr
Nina, you were my first friend on my platform and I’ve never forgotten that. You reached out to me during a dark time in my life and I owe you so much for that. Your achievements are extraordinary; despite English not being your first language, you’ve written breathtaking prose and have undertaken the difficult task of rigorous editing to make sure it’s the best that it can be. Your passion, kindness and diligence will get you so far in life and I’m so lucky to be your friend. Have a great 2020 my love! xxx 💖💖
@liliththestripper
Lily, I don’t know what I’d do without you. Your stories make my day and nothing makes me happy like mutually thirsting over celebrities with you. I’m also in TOTAL AWE at your artistic ability. If anyone hasn’t checked out Lily’s main @lilyspiteri then you’re missing out. She’s genuinely so bloody talented and immensely creative. Thank you so so much for being there for me, you make my world so much brighter! Love you xxx ✨✨
A big fat thank you to these wonderful mutuals too!:
@hellakells @imsusx @pwficrecs @brianprobablywill @littlemisscaptainfandom @twigleektribute23 @roger-bang-the-drum @rottenvicious @gwilyoubemine
Before I wished you a happy 2020 I wanted to open up about the personal reasons surrounding the creation of this blog. This time last year I was in a bad place. I was unmoored, lonely, and unsure quite how I felt about anything. At work I’d run in circles, serving pale toast, nodding as customers complained about their lunch. As soon as I got home, I’d slope upstairs, close the curtains, take my apron off and stare at a blank Word document. The cursor would wink. I wouldn’t write anything. What a fucking waste.
Sometime in late November I’d gone to see Bohemian Rhapsody with a friend. Since then, my evening routine changed: I’d get the bus home, crawl into bed, (I kept my apron, cap and sometimes my flour-stained pumps on,) and watch videos of Queen. Although I was still depressed, the process of retreating into a fandom felt healthy. I revisited old filmed interviews, listened to the same albums over and over, and read fanfiction obsessively. The meaning was there when I couldn’t verbalise anything. I thought to myself: any time you need to come back here, you can.
But as much as my obsession kept me afloat, I hated it. I hated myself for consuming rather than creating. I hated myself for my authentic, unjaded love of something. I hated myself for indulging in a fandom to an extent that, at the age of eighteen, I really should have outgrown. I thought it was a crutch, a sign of inadequacy or awkwardness. In reality, it was a safe space for me to deposit all my heightened emotions.
So often we are overly critical of where we invest ourselves. With so much emphasis placed on our creations and achievements, it can seem somewhat reductive to focus on consuming pop culture so obsessively—it can feel perverse or impudent to enjoy something for its own sake. It’s common to say something like “fanfiction holds a special place in my heart,” but that somewhat devalues the function of fanfiction. Fanfiction is a healthy mode of expressing all the feelings that scream inside you when you’re a teenager. It’s a safe, empowering way to explore your sexuality on your own terms. It’s a place where people connect and encourage one another. Is it stupid and cringey? Maybe, but it was the first step out of my depression, and for that I can’t thank it enough.
This has been super dramatic, but I want to end in all sincerity by saying that I wouldn’t be here without you. This wonderful community has let me know that I’m not alone and has helped me grow into a happy, confident, well-adjusted person with self-worth. So whether you’re a mutual I talk to daily or a stranger who’s just here to reblog gifs of Roger Taylor, thank you. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for building one another up. Thank you for making this community a great one. You’re amazing and I love you all ✨💓
Happy New Year lovies!!
🥺🥺 my friend is too sweet to me