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pieartsystuff

Rejection sensitive dysphoria is a bitch my dudes

gold-from-straw

Is that an ADHD thing?!? This is literally one of my worst everyday triggers, I’m terrified of mild disapproval!

stardustloki

I’m pretty sure it’s not. It’s probs just an overlapping symptoms thing

adhighdefinition

and that’s where you’re wrong because it absolutely is:

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captoring

every time you ridicule a nasty person’s appearance there is chance it’s going to reach a vulnerable person who sees themselves in their features

cripplechronicles

This. It really frustrates me when someone is being problematic and then people start attacking their looks. Like go ahead and call out the person for bad behavior all you want but when you start making it about their appearance you become part of the problem.

la-laborista-republiko

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Being a butch loved by a butch

This is all stream of thought so fuckin… take it for what it is, one trans butch lesbian’s feelings about her own experience & love. I am genuinely uninterested in Discourse tm, this is literally just me being upon my ramble pedestal to get my feels out and perhaps someone somewhere will find them relatable.

Recently another butch dyke & I admitted our feelings to each other. We had both been dancing that complex dance for a while that butches, especially trans butches, have to perform; for you see, both of us being mentally ill trans butch dykes, we’re told we are predators on three different axes.

And jesus fuck, gals.

I have never felt more beautiful.

There’s this… reaffirmation, every time her lips touch mine, every time she takes my hand, every time she looks at me, of all the reasons butchness IS, for me. All the reasons it’s a thing I am, a badge I wear, a commitment to embodying a facet of lesbianism as a philosophy and way of living.

There’s a beauty and power in this that I don’t think words can capture, but my heart insists I try to, and the gushy thing won’t shut the fucking shit up until I do.

To me, being loved by another butch, being loved by THIS butch, is a microcosm of what it means to be a lesbian to begin with. To be a lesbian is to love a mirror; to learn, through your love of other women, to love yourself. To love the kind of womanhood lesbians experience. To love lesbians is to love lesbianism itself, which I believe is why so much of lesbian culture these days is self-referencing and screaming “I’M GAY PALS” into the void.

It follows from there in this heart’s spool of twine marking the labyrinth of human experience that being loved by another butch is analogous to being loved by another woman to begin with; a reflection that teaches, through loving another like ourselves, to love ourselves.

Her muscles are beautiful, and that means mine are too.

Her scars are beautiful, and that means mine are too.

Her cocky grin and the swagger in her step when she sees me blush are beautiful, and that means mine must be, too.

Her strength, and her pain, and her love, are beautiful, and that means mine must be, too.

bannock-and-biopolitics-deactiv

A lot of adulthood is shouting “AUGH MY LAUNDRY” hours after you put it in the washer/dryer and running to go fetch it

curlicuecal

oh shit my laundry

mishafletcher

reblog to save someone’s laundry

#saved my laundry #would've been nice to see this a few hours ago though

soggywarmpockets

I just found a back stitch alphabet where tiny cats in various poses make up the letters and I don’t think I’m ever going to use another font for the rest of my life.

orionlovescats

Tell me more

soggywarmpockets

gaywrites

LCD Soundsystem's synth player and technician Gavin Russom has come out as a transgender woman.

Gavin Russom, synth player and technician for the band LCD Soundsystem, came out as a transgender woman in a new interview with Pitchfork.

She says she took some time for self-care after the band’s 2016 tour and had the opportunity to spend time with other transgender women. She’s keeping her same name, but will go by she/her pronouns and begin presenting in a way that feels truer to herself.

A few excerpts from her interview, of which a portion is written in first person:

I’m 43 and I can identify that once a decade, I made a concerted effort to make my trans identity known. That includes a period of time when I was a child in the ’70s, when I was going through puberty in the ’80s, and then several periods throughout my twenties, thirties, and forties. What makes this time different is that I’m in a stable moment in my life. Working with LCD Soundsystem all last year and then having a solid block of time off to focus on self-care was really important for me. This is what came out of that. I don’t like coming out so much as a term, but sometimes it’s the only way to say it. […]

Up until this point, I felt comfortable working with my own gender fluidity, my own identification within the feminine end of the spectrum, and the politics that arise from those things through my music. Retroactively, this is a thread that goes through my entire body of work. It’s an interesting way to listen to it if you weren’t already getting that.

I feel very blessed because the world that I operate in is relatively open-minded. I mean, the electronic music world can be extremely bro-y and also close-minded and sometimes even worse than maybe a more traditional office job. However, at least where I’ve found myself, the people who are around me have been very supportive. I still had fears that I might experience consequences, mostly because I know so many trans women who have lost their jobs when they’ve come out. It’s a very unfortunate reality. There was a fear and awareness that my ability to do this really is a privilege—and it shouldn’t be, but it is. […]

It has been a process of paying really deep attention to what’s going on with me. I had a very significant moment very early on when I called my bank and the teller said, “Oh sir, thank you so much for calling us.” It’s so hurtful, and of course they don’t know—they’re just looking at a document that has a gender identifier. But it was so powerful to just be enough in my own body to say, “Whoa, that didn’t feel good.”

There was legitimately something unmanageable for me about living as a cis man. I was working so hard just to present this image of myself that ran very deeply counter to who I really am. There’s nothing theoretical or intellectual about that. It’s the physical thing in my body. It felt like there was almost another person constantly walking next to me being like, “Hey, hey, hey, pay attention to me, hey, hey, hey.” To some degree I wish I had been able to work through it sooner, but I’m also very glad that I worked it the way I did. Having gone through 42 and a half years of being in denial and trying to work through this stuff has given me a lot of experience.

Congratulations, Gavin. Thank you for sharing your music and your story.

uune

margotmeanie

Prickly pears sporting their flower crowns for festival season 🌸🌼🌺🌼🌸

#same

dragonairstims

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me as pirate jus fucking DESTROYING some wood

#this is the best thing

maydei

the bubblegum pop fuckin bop that summer 2k17 needed but did not deserve

glowdetails

details @ georges hobeika fall 2017

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Jewish women are the number one authorities on how Jewish men wield misogyny. It is not an issue of our religion being regressive or misogynist, it is an issue of men using whatever culture / ideology etc they can get their hands on as a lens for their misogyny. The day I let a goyische feminist come trampling into my culture and my religion, spew their unnuanced interpretations that are devoid of context and understanding, tell me how oppressed I am, spread antisemitic hate speech, and talk over me on my own experiences, is the day I die. Jewish women must and will be the foundation of our revolutionary liberation from misogyny. Jewish women will be the voices speaking up about how men do us wrong within our own religion and cultures. Not you. Us. If you really want to help us, listen to us. You are not our mouthpieces or better interpreters of our lives than we are.

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re: ppl tagging this goyim don’t touch, I get if you personally don’t want this reblogged from your blog by non jewish ppl it’s a personal boundaries thing, however I just wanna reiterate that this post was meant for goyim to read, understand, and take note of. it needs to be read by goyische feminists because they are the ones perpetuating antisemitism by acting as though they wanna “liberate” jewish women and speaking over us.

so if goyim (especially women) reblog it respectfully I am not just okay with it, but encouraging of it. because I need you all to read. it. and understand it 100% with no fucking room for uncertainty - Jewish women are not oppressed by Judaism, we are oppressed by men who use Judaism as a lens for their misogyny and we, jewish women, are the primary catalysts for our own liberation. not goyische feminists throwing around antisemitic slander.

sootonthecarpet

lets. lets not call donald trump ‘fuhrer trump’. im not saying this bc of the “is comparing donald trump to hitler minimizing the holocaust” discussion that we were having in early 2016 because i don’t think that rhetoric is relevant any more, at this point historical context is very important, but holy shit, please don’t call him führer trump!

i’m jewish and thats the most triggering antisemitism-related thing ive heard in ages, like fuck don’t do that? don’t tell me i’m living under a second nazi germany in such a casual, flippant, ironic way? he is the president, he is doing terrible things, and this isn’t time for your cute little jokes about how we’re all going to be as fucked as the germans were. don’t do that. DON’T call him hitler for cheap emphasis when i’m already trying so hard to feel anything but paralyzing terror

(edit: please if you tend to put SJ stuff on your blog reblog this post instead of just liking it, i really want it to get visibility)