so not only do i get to see my boy live, but my ears also get to be blessed by your jaw-dropping vocals? love that for me. and as the chick in the “my body isn't ready” music video, witnessing his unflinching dedication and insane talent in person was so, so special. he's effortlessly cool and the soft gothic sweetheart energy he radiates is to die for. oh my god, the paper mache mannequin was literally the coolest thing ever and i took so many selfies with it after the crew yelled cut that my camera roll might look like a “sombre mannequin shrine.” amazing question.. to somebody who has musical talent and doesn't literally sound like a screaming cat when they sing. however if my shower concert performances somehow became opening act ‘good’ for an artist, it would either have to be paramore or nickelback; the supreme openers of my dreams.
i love that music video so much; like his brain is already operating on a different frequency entirely, but then you add you into the mix, and it becomes something else completely, cannot get enough of it. and he just got on stage with 5sos which angered every single callum girlie for the verse theft, but personally made me so happy because it's just two gothic children finding each other and becoming friends, very much wednesday-has-a-guitar-and-bass-solo energy, and i am fully here for it. i'm so jealous about the mannequin selfies, honestly. i would have been throwing up peace signs in every single one and completely unashamed about it. but the symbolism of it though — wanting to hide behind the stories and perceptions people build of you because the idea of someone actually seeing you is terrifying, that's not just a cool prop, that's a whole thesis. and god bless nickelback but they do an extraordinary amount of wailing, so honestly you'd probably blend right in, and that's not an insult, that's a compliment to your shower performances. they're such an iconic choice, though; I used to listen to 'far away' on loop, fully convinced it was going to manifest the perfect love affair into existence. spoiler: it did not work immediately, but i remained hopeful.

















