Just Another Recovery Blog

Lindsay, 23, UK Distance Learning Student with a shitty immune system. Not exactly sane.

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I'm 99% sure that every time I come back to these, I make a different batch entirely. I need to start writing my patterns down... At least you know each set is truly one of a kind 😁

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I'm 99% sure that every time I come back to these, I make a different batch entirely. I need to start writing my patterns down... At least you know each set is truly one of a kind 😁

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I have no real friends so I’m going to see Ed Sheeran by myself... I refuse to miss out on stuff I want to do just because I don’t want to do it by myself.

You’d think I’d be used to being alone by now.

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lol

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We went to a cake club! (I made a Zumba cake) 😂

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Why u doing gcses at 23

I get this question a lot!I had to drop out of school in the year I was due to take my exams due to ill health. I had pretty poor health throughout my entire school years, and missed a LOT, so I didn’t really have much chance at being able to make a decent attempt at achieving any of my GCSEs. After that, I turned my focus onto the little business I had created, and didn’t return to school / college.

I do enjoy studying though, and I didn’t want to find myself without any qualifications or grades later in life, and so I ended up enrolling on a Distance Learning Course (college level course completed online) last year. Soon after, I discovered a local adult education GCSE course in Maths and English, signed myself up, and here I am now! So thhat’s how I ended up doing my GCSEs at 23. :-)

I hope to move on to taking my A-Levels as my next step, as I would like to open up the door to applying for University should I wish to apply for a degree in the future.

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I just can’t seem to find any information and nobody seems to know anything? :(

It would just be an occasional thing I would like to try out sometimes for fun / a little extra (much needed) cash.

I live in The Lake District, UK if the rules are different depending on area?

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I have this awful feeling of everyone hating me / being sick of me lately and it's making me feel awkward as f*uck anywhere I go... Like I'm genuinely sorry my presence is bothering you. Not sure what I can do about it, but I really am sorry. 😐😞

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I completely failed my maths GCSE... After achieving 8-9's all year, I feel like the biggest f****** disappointment ever. Why? 🙁😞

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What I do instead of any actual revision...

[zodiacfrickfracks]

What Do the Zodiac Signs Find Annoying?

Bawling babies: Leo, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces

High-pitched giggling: Aries, Cancer, Capricorn, Aquarius

Constant complaining: Taurus, Gemini, Libra, Sagittarius

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Are all of these not annoying?

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I made skittles cupcakes 👍

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I think I need a second job...

But there is nothing where I live… 

And anything that does pop up is usually a weekend or night job serving in a bar or something. I already work Saturdays and do a few nights of night classes through the week. And I have to be available on weekdays in case someone is off and I’m needed to cover for them

I’m really stressed out. :/

I absolutely love my part time job but two days a week just isn’t enough… I’m a bit stuck. Help? :(

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I feel a bit better I think...

Not that anyone was interested but yeah...

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Baking high is over...

Now I’m just feeling incredibly empty, lonely, and a bit guilty for really stupid stuff...

Apologies but I think I need to talk (write) it off so I can feel better about it and get over it or something.

I missed a maths lesson last week for the first time ever because I was just mentally exhausted and one week on I still can’t sleep because I feel insanely bad about bit. How ridiculous right? We had a mock exam that week and I just feel like I let myself down a bit, instead of just sucking it up and getting on with it for a few hours.

I feel really shitty for being around people this week (hence all the not doing anything but baking). I just feel like nobody wants to be around me and I feel bad for just being somewhere... I’m sure someone gets me?

I skipped some fitness classes last week and couldn’t face going for coffee like we do every week, because I feel like people are just sick of me but too nice to say it?

There’s an awful awkward tension following me and I feel like an elephant in the room everywhere I go lately...

I got a part time job recently, which I absolutely love. But it’s one of those situations where everyone knows each other and are already a group of good friends, and me being the socially awkward person that I am, I feel like a bit of an outsider because I really suck at “clicking” and befriending with other people...

I dunno. I know I don’t make sense sometimes, I overthink things, and blow things up inside my head to be way more of an issue than they actually are.

I’ll be fine again soon. And then maybe I wont for a while again... and then I will. And it continues.... And life goes on.

Anyway rant over - I’m done.

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More cupcakes!

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Busy Sunday morning ☺👌