A new dimension of disappointment
Like waiting for oil and water to unite through turbulence
harmonious, briefly
but the physics behind the rule of inevitability is unfailing
Edges collide but were never destined to deliquesce
Held sacred my viscosity throughout the shades of adolescence
Seldom find the ability to appreciate the milliseconds within hours anymore
Or the importance of present being
We take measurements in years
Searched for a shortcut to happiness and found rhythm in greed
Paid my condolences to bliss in ignorance
with hundreds of thousands in fucking student loans
Watched your mouth promise me gold
A brief, crisp metallic climax of olfaction
On landing, I saw the overpriced caviar on the thick, marble table and
envied your skewed perspective of "pocket change"
I made myself collapsible to fit into a life
contrived to be predictable
though her course is capricious by nature
And I am halfway to a hollowed-out Nirvana