little b

bailey. 26. ohio livin. future clinical counselor. pilot. lover of all dogs, coffee, and moving my feet.

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“Two things inspire me to awe: the starry heavens above and the moral universe within.”

— Immanuel Kant

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I’m currently hobbled up at work trying to get my ducks in a row for practicum tonight and I popped into tumblr to look. I haven’t been on here for so long, but this was truly a site that I found such happiness. 

Little life update:

-I’m finishing up my last few weeks of practicum at the drug & alcohol addictions center. I love it. I love the people I work with. However, I received an email saying my supervisor may be leaving and so I will be in need of a new site to do my internship. 

-I started the stronglifts 5x5 program and have been doing A and B workouts. You are only supposed to do one, hence the hobble. 

-Christmas is in 7 days, my birthday in 8! Hopefully, I don’t get sick like last year. 

-Life is really good. 

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tiny idea from today

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Frustration

Is working out solidly from 3+ months and not losing any weight (but my body has changed so I have to be happy with that), eating a caloric deficit, and being “good”... Only to find that your thyroid is hitting like 2 or 3 times under what its supposed to. 

I understand this isn’t horrible or tragic, its just hard to put so much effort in and not see that visual result you want. 

On the other hand my deadlift, clean and jerk, overhead press, bench, mile, pushups have all increased so much and I’m lucky to do what I do. 

Tomorrow I have a breakfast meeting with a woman who works at my dream counseling center. 

Trying to keep that positive in my daily grind. 

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Needing this Snapchat filter in real life today. 1st of the month is always rough and we did rope pulls and deadlifts today.

I cannot stop watching Buffy the vampire slayer. It’s the classic childhood staple.

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So ready to be done with these classes, but I still have school all through the summer.

I have no practicum placement. 

I’ve only gone to the gym 2x this week. 

Its all ok, though. Just gotta chug through finals and get back to my regularly scheduled programing.  

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I generally try to keep this positive to remind myself of the good, but today I am struggling. I am struggling so hard and people at work are so mean. There is nothing I can do about it because I have no control over whats going on, I’m just in the middle passing information and my anxiety is just thrumming against my skin. 

BUT

Today is just a day. I have been through many days like this and they have made me a stronger person. Im ok.  

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They are being so loud and so cute. Impossible to study. Also that's not trash it's bags of clothes to donate 👍

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It blows my mind that I got through most of this (not RX). A month ago I couldn't do 10 air squats. 💪💪💪

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This stuff though.

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I've been absent from this space dealing with wrapping my diagnosing class and traveling for work but I plan to be more present here My friend Angie and I did this workout this morning and I went into it totally overconfident. I didn't read the part about it being 8 rounds of total suffering shitshow. The last set of burpee box jumps were torture and I had our coach standing next to me telling me to pick up the barbell the whole time for the thrusters. Working out is no joke these days but honestly I laughed through the whole thing. If it's not fun it's not worth it. Now curled up with a cup of coffee watching a movie.

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Gym update

Every single day I go is a new learning experience. We did strict shoulder presses (press? whatevs) today and I overloaded my bar and almost died 2x. Thank you guy on my right for saving me. 

But here: I feel so good, my jeans slid on today without any jump/wiggle movements, and i’m being accepted into the arms of a terrifyingly sweaty community. 

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So I joined a gym and a crossfit class.

I have literally never touched a barbell in my life before this week and today I did hang cleans and power cleans and pendlay rows. I feel good, I like getting up in the morning and I snag some runs on rest days. 

Im just happy.

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Beautiful, glorious, magnificent creature.