you know whatâs so hot? feedees who havenât given up on their weight loss goals. feedees who know they have the kink, they know they love to indulge, yet they still believe that they can control it, manage it, and shed the weight⊠again. this isnât the first time theyâve lost the weight, nor the second- not even the third⊠but they will never learn their lesson.
when that stab of shame, disappointment and maybe even a bit of guilt comes along again, theyâve got a brand new wave of motivation that feels stronger than before. this will be the one, this is the last time, itâs gonna work this time.
theyâll deactivate their account, delete doordash and uber eats, they might even delete tumblr all together as well. theyâll go grocery shopping. theyâll pick out the greek yogurt and the diet coke spinach, and the egg whites: all with a smile in excitement to feel in control again.
and theyâll really do it!! they will stick to it, and the weight will melt right off. theyâll buy new jeans, and new crop tops that show off all their hard work and deviation. they did it!
but itâs a lifestyle. and all the poor thing really wants is a donut :( but theyâve already had their cheat day a few days back at a friends birthday dinner. but, then again, they were out with friends, so they couldnât really indulge in the way they wantedâŠ
also, itâs just a donut! who cares! theyâve been working so hard, they deserve an extra treat. besides, restricting their diet too hard is equally as unhealthy! and as they buckle their seatbelt and drive off to the closest bakery, they continue rattling off justifications for why theyâre allowed to cheat on their diet- just. one. more. time.
we all know where it goes. the donut just tastes soo good, and the seal has already been broken, so why not get another. as a matter of fact, they did an extra hour of cardio yesterday, how about they make it a half dozen? and itâs later in the day, so the donuts are a little dry- why not get some ice cream too? and theyâre gonna need some dinner before dessert but they wanna save all their healthy food for meal prep, so why not something quick and easy. Mcdonaldâs?? oh boy, itâs been sooo long since theyâve had mcdonaldâs. itâs their weakness. one meal wouldnât hurt? canât hurt to make the meal a large, and get an extra side of fries. itâs okay, this is their true cheat day.
and so, the endless barrage of excuses leads to a meal bigger than anything they ate before this go round with dieting. by the end of the night, they find themselves with their hand in their pants, tumblr, deviantart, twitter ect. all redownloaded to view all their favorite feedists once again, just to scratch that itch thatâs been bothering them so bad.
they feel shame, sure, but the need to have one of those all encompassing orgasms that they just canât get from cumming to literally anything else, blocks out all their other reservations.
finally, they cum. belly stretched tight and heavy for the first time in months. they know they just came, and the post nut clarity starts to rear its ugly head, and the shame begins to creep back in.
but they notice⊠theyâre still horny. and as they start humping their hand again, cheeks bright red, they bite their lip at themselves, as they redownload doordash and start filling up their cart. their heart races, they leak even harder, knowing whatâs happening. and it just so happens, that every time they do this, they gain all the weight back and more, and then some. theyâre just going to keep getting bigger, and they are completely powerless to stop it.
might as well enjoy it in the moment, right?
