Baby Is Coming

Nikki. 9.28.2018 👰🏼💍🤵🏻. 7.06.2019 🤰🏼

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So far behind in posting my progress pictures

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26 weeks and 4 days. Finally feeling him move now (thanks to my anterior placenta it took me a while before I felt a good amount of movement). I’m also feeling huge; I’ve been trying to stay active and exercise as much as I can but I feel like I’m as heavy as a bus lol.

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We have a name picked out and I’m so excited

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Dances

We actually got our two hour delay yay extra sleep!

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Every school

I’m the area is on a two hour delay but of course the one I work at isn’t -_-

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12 weeks 4 days no bump yet but almost out of the first trimester.... hopefully the morning sickness ends soon

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Last time the baby looked like a gummy bear. Now it actually looks like a baby. We also heard the heart beat today. 152 ❤️.

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Almost out of the first trimester

Which hopefully means less throwing up and maybe I’ll get some energy back. Working all day with a class of 18 4 year olds and constantly having to be energetic and hyper to keep their attention is exhausting... I used to be able to come home and take the dogs for a run. Now I’m lucky if I can come home and walk to the couch without wanting to cry from being so tiered.

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I’m so neasuas right now... I’m already going into work late...

I really don’t want to complain since last pregnancy ended in miscarriage but I’m in tears I haven’t stopped throwing up.

Also at work I almost knocked a kindergartner over as I ran to the bathroom so I didn’t throw up on said kindergartener

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So it’s been a while

It’s been a while since my last post. I’m not pregnant anymore. Same as last time.... started to cramp and bleed... don’t want to get into it... I’m not pregnant anymore and part of me feels like I’ll never be. I just wish I had someone to talk to. It feels like everyone around me is getting pregnant and I have to sit here and pretend I don’t know how they feel.

No one knows that I’ve been pregnant three times. No one knows that each time it has ended badly. No one knows how much I wish I was pregnant.

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So Im pregnant again.

We weren’t trying and had sex once unprotected while we were drunk. Like I know it can happen from just one time but I’m still surprised.

I told my self I wouldn’t test before a miss period again after what happened last time. Im scared its going to happen again…all I can think what if it wasn’t just something that happened? What if there is something wrong with me?

The doctor said early term miscarriages are common and I shoudn’t be worried but I am. I’m not even telling my fiancee until after the weekend atleast or maybe until I get an ultrasound or something.

He was so excited last time and it broke my heart to see his face last time.

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I started bleeding today

I know I found out early about the pregnancy amd if I hadn’t taken the pregnancy test I would think I was having a really bad period.

I’m pretty sure I’m having a miscarriage…I got blood work done today to check my levels. I’m going in on monday also to get them check again.

I can’t get the idea that maybe I won’t be able to have children…. I know one miscarriage especially this early on is relatively common but I can’t get that thought out of my head.

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