my idea for gfin zombie stage au
guys walk with me here, and prepare bcs its probably gonna be a long ass walk
i am a yapper at heart
ok so im thinking very generally along the lines of mizisuas story in zombst, but mostly bcs thats the only framework i can build off of rn
but only in the friends in highschool, one of them wants to become an idol kinda way, amongts a few more minor things
but its also based on already existing canon in gfin and the OFFICIAL IDOL AU THEY HAVE HAHAA
hirose decides he wants to be an idol, hes been told hed be great at it, and it seems fun ! so he works super hard to train and audition and eventually gets his debut !!
his training was made a lot more difficult with his distaste for authority judging his every move, but he pushed through, and it ultimately worked out, right? sure a few teachers dropped him, but that hardly matters now
on nakamuras end, he knows the idol life isnt for him, but thats ok !! he'll support his friend from the sidelines
he listened while his friend ranted about the highs and the lows of all of it, and celebrates with him when his audition went successfully
id imagine bcs of how they are in the canon, hirose tells nakamura but doesnt *really* tell anyone else about his whole idol thing
he doesnt wanna be judged for it or anything
and he knows nakamura wouldnt judge
theyve been friends since their first year in highschool, and are very close :)
nakamura, ofc, loves hirose, as he does in canon
on hirose's end, it remains unclear, also as it is in canon (to me)
hirose is not a huge hit on his debut, but he already has a little following of fans
unfortunately, his reputation starts souring a little while into his career
it all starts with his manager? (is there another word for it?) dropping him for "his blatant disrespect"
which was just him disagreeing with them over a pr thing that hirose wouldnt sway on
but then it happens again
and again
different situations but all of them had the same reason: "disrespect"
rumours spread in the industry, and starts leaking into the fan bases
about how inconsiderate and rude he actually is off stage, even though thats not the case at all
hes gained a bigger fanbase because of this, but the ones that joined after the "manager hopping" debacle, they didnt like him for his music
its more like they were waiting for him to show his "true colours"
hirose pretends it doesnt bother him, but nakamura knows somethings up whenever they hang out
its the little things, like asking to hang out at home, and kind of avoiding job talk, when he used to talk about it all the time
he doesnt even know *why* hiroses been down recently
the spark is gone and nakamura wants so badly to speak up but he cant
how can he? he has no idea what hirose is going through
partially because he doesnt know whats actually going on, hirose wont tell him and hes not deep enough in jpop idol fandoms to be in the know about this, and he would look into it but it feels invasive
but also because hes never been in this situation before, hes never been in the spotlight like hirose has been
the best he can do is try to be there for him
but unfortunately things only get worse
hirose gets confessed to by another smaller-ish idol, and she seemed kind, and she was pretty, so he said yes
things started out fine at first, but the ever present elephant in the room of their careers and the constant eyes on them grew to be too much for hirose, so he started becoming more distant
eventually they broke up, it wasnt super messy but it wasnt a clean one either
the news spread way further than he could possibly imagine
now, hirose is generally not one to let things like this affect him very much, but theres only so much he can handle
it feels like every other day hes seeing a new nasty thing being said about him somewhere
it feels like everyone everywhere is looking at him with the wrong impression
not to mention this so called "fanbase" is either defending him with so much verocity and violence, or speculating over things they have no proof on
hes only been an idol for a little under a year at this point, not to mention hes only 18, how could he possibly grapple with all this (he became an idol at 17)
so he doesnt, he just tries let the currents of his career take the lead, hoping that things die down
they do somewhat, for a time
however, he found at that the reason why the news of his relatively reserved break up became such a hot topic was because his current manager made it into a pr stunt
safe to say that hirose didnt take this lightly
and once again, another manager scared off by him
hiroses at the point where all the joy he had in this job was gone
and nakamura finally decides that he needs to look into it
he needs to say something
this whole time hes slowly watched the love of his life spiral, then grow distant
they barely even talk anymore, and when they do, he can tell hirose only does it out of obligation
it takes a bit of digging, but he eventually finds all the articles and blog posts about this and that hirose allegedly did, and the terrible things people are saying
nakamura is horrified, hirose would never be like this !
but, would he not? he feels like in a lot of ways, he doesnt really know his friend anymore
he snaps up, no, believe in hirose, talk to him
so he finally asks hirose whats wrong the next time they meet, that he can talk to him whenever about anything, he'll always listen
hirose tries to deny it but nakamura tells him that he knows about whats going on, he knows about the rumours and the manager hopping and the ex, and hes noticed, he has watched hiroses light dim right in front of him
nakamura tries to say that whether its true or not, its ok, theyll figure out something together
even he doesnt understand exactly what hiroses going through, he'll try and offer any support he can
they go quiet, and for a moment, nakamura lets himself hope that his words got to him
but in hiroses head, he zeroes in on one thing
nakamura knows
he didnt before, so he had to have looked into it
the one person he thought he could hide it all from knows and the worst thing about it is it seems like nakamura believes what people are saying about him
he is so overwhelmed all the time now
he used to be so easy going and carefree
sure he had his worries but they were all so miniscule looking back now
the pressure has built up too much and hirose bursts
he never thought hed find himself saying something so cruel to his friend, let alone snap at him that he broke his trust, and that he shouldve just gotten the hint and left it be
accuses him of thinking what people are saying about him is true, and of being a terrible friend
that he shouldve never talked to him in that first year of highschool
that he wishes nakamura would just get out his life
how far has he fallen, to have gotten so scared of honesty around the one he always trusted with truth, that he says such terrible things? as if it would make the ugly feeling in his gut go away
once he processes what he says, he is about to take it back, but the look on nakamuras face makes him realise he cant
nakamuras fears have been realised in the worst possible way, and he has nothing to say for it
so hirose runs away
hes done it plenty of times already, with everything, whats one more time?
but what is on the other side is not freedom, or peace, far from it
he doesnt even know how much time has passed, but nakamura hears about the zombie outbreak after the fight they had, and the list of the current infected victims that have been put into solitary confinement
hirose aiki is one of them
nakamura doesnt even give himself a moment to breathe before running out the door
nakamura runs and runs, all while looking for the directions of the facility theyre keeping hirose
sneaking in was weirdly easy, he was barely even hiding but he faced no pushback
even the guard at the front was asleep
did they even care about what was happening?
he snuck around the facility, slipping past the many infected people, and trying not to look at the gruesomeness this entire place overflows with
after some searching he spots a head of chestnut hair, and nakamura almost cries out of relief, but that relief is quickly overrun with horror seeing the state hirose was in
his eyes were covered with tape, and underneath he could see the rot from the infection reaching his nose and forehead
his arms and legs are marred with dark red marks, eating away at his skin
nakamura felt sick, but he had to persevere
he tried shaking hirose "awake"? was he even asleep?
whether he was asleep or not he didnt respond, just stuttered out breaths and letting out puffs of pain
nakamura realises now more than ever that needs to carry out this plan
to get hirose out and figure out a cure together, because clearly this facility is doing nothing to help
he takes the tape off the pole keeping hirose to the wall behind him, but keeps it on his face and gently eases him up
he feels so light, and the pit in nakamuras stomach grows heavier
he slumps hirose over his shoulder, and starts walking
its ok, they can get through this, once they get out of this whole mess they can finally talk and make up-
hirose stirs, and nakamura looks over at him
his eyes widen as hirose lunges at him
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in the most twisted way possible, nakamura had his wishes of staying by hiroses side forever come true
but the cost? just about everything nakamura ever cared about
he doesnt even have the capacity to care about it that much now, his mind has rotted to the point where hes not even himself anymore
but even thats better off than hirose, whos barely even aware of his surroundings anymore
in a way, its evened out by his inevitable loss in this contest that theyre in
even if he actually had the skills of dancing and singing that hirose did, he would still lose
forever he will lose to the rotted charm that the zombie idol hirose has
and that is so much better than the alternative
damn atp i basically wrote a fanfic drabble thing
anyway thats my idea :3 i looped candy scar while jotting this all down, i am the most normal about everything yeppp
also please be nice to me or i will cry i am just a scared little creature crawling out their little hidey hole to woefully hand u this
