Letting It All Go

I write and reblog what I wish I had the strength to say

[danger]

[hplyrikz]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[decision]

[twerpo-deactivated20150610]

[saying]

[livelearnprosper]

you just might be my kryptonite

*The following post definitely won’t make sense, but I need to write down my thoughts before I go insane*

How is it that it has been five years, with relationships in between, and me ending nights regretting being in your presence and I STILL get upset over you. You’ve had this new girl around for over a year now... how? She lives on the opposite coast and I don’t even know how you two even met since she’s not even from where you’re from and she doesn’t work at the same company as you. PLUS she’s 3 years older than us... WHAT does she see in you?! Or maybe I really rather know what you see in her... What do you see in her that you didn’t see in me? Does she know what you’re like when you’re out drunk on your own? Does she know your friends like I do? WELL NOW SHE DOES since you went on a fucking trip with her and your fraternity pledge class. I AM PISSED. I can’t even hold it back any more. Who the fuck is this girl? Why am I so insane about all of this right now. Why do I even care? I should pity her and feel bad for her for being dumb enough to stick around long enough with a guy like you. Plus SHES OLDER, is she thinking she’s going to marry you? YOU? Getting married... yeah ok. I swear if you marry her.... that will be it. I don’t think I will be able to handle any social media posts NOTHING. What the fuck is wrong with me holy shit. You are literally THE WORST. and here I am giving you my energy? My time? FUCK THAT. I actually don’t know if I am more mad at myself for wasting time on all of this or mad at myself for still feeling something for you. I don’t know what that feeling even is and that’s what confuses me the most... I fucking professed my love for you in December and it felt so wrong and you were.. LOL... you were just you about it. Wow, I have wasted so much time on you holy fuck. Literally this is how you make me feel.. like a disorganized fucking psychopath. Do I love you? Do I hate you? Do I want you to hurt? I don’t know. UGHHhhHhHhhH. This is what frustrating looks like. I hate it. I am in a different fucking state than you and I STILL LET YOU AFFECT ME. If someone has advice for getting over a stupid ass guy please help me. This is absolute torture.

[timbllr]

[lonur]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[bluerainjacket]

love yourself first. it’s okay to put your needs first. it’s okay to prioritize your happiness. don’t let others call you selfish for merely taking care of yourself.

2018 (via bluerainjacket)

[your-recoveryispossible-deactiv]

Love yourself the way you’d want someone to love you.

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Never waste your time trying to explain who you are to people who are committed to misunderstanding you.

Dream Hampton (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[riffatmatinpoetry]

No more settling. I deserve to be treated better than this.

Affirmation of the day. (via riffatmatinpoetry)

[thegoodvybe]

[mamabeezhoetips]

[sixwordssayitall]

Some days it will be hard to love yourself, but you must find a way.

@sixwordssayitall (via sixwordssayitall)

[purplebuddhaquotes]

You need to associate with people who inspire you, people who challenge you to rise higher, people who make you better. Don’t waste your valuable time with people who are not adding to your growth. Your destiny is too important.

Joel Osteen (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[unbotheredmuse]

remove anything toxic from your life, don’t let anybody fuck with your inner peace. focus on things that contribute to your growth. flourish.