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Don't know what I want but I know who I am.

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Hey, tsup? Its 2015.

So your 22 year was good. You know what man, I’m just going to get into it because alot of things change and you/I’ve changed ALOT. I think if I met you(21 year old me) I’d be really surprised. Like if I wore someone else’s skin I won’t recognized the outgoing/social person that would be me. I wish I could go back in time meet the younger me and tell him “you’re doing great man, you’re growing in ways you can’t even imagine. So don’t fret over the future. Everything is going to turn out amazing.” Because I really did grow in ways I never even imagined. And there’s still alot of growing and learning to do. And to the future me...idk, I ofcourse still have small worries and doubts but I’m hoping that your reading this and thinking “man, you just wait, you’ve got an amazingly beautiful storm coming. You can’t imagine how much more you’ve grow.”  

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Monica Bellucci in La Riffa (1991)

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love | via Tumblr auf We Heart It - http://weheartit.com/entry/124326338

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2 years later. Hi young man.

I'm reading what you wrote and you seem slightly more happy than me and alot more self centered but this IS your fucking Tumblr. I guess what I'm saying is where are the other people on here? Like it's 100% you. Lets get some others other than us, deal? Reblog some, post some of your unfiltered stuff and maybe message some other users, deal? Okay, deal.

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Went for my second run today

I haven't ran in so long and I'm suprised the level I'm at, I can run half a mile before I begin to even think of slowing down. Nowhere near as good as I was when I was running about 3 miles a day but I'll get there.

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...And intelligence is not defined as somebody having a brain that can think and think and consider all the possibilities and come up with the best solution. Oh no no! Intelligence is saying the exact same things as everyone else. You read the same newspaper articles. You watched the same news shows. You read the same books. And now you can say exactly the same things about how the world works. So you all know you're in a group. It's almost like a religion. And we're all the same. And we're intelligent because I say it and you say it. And you're intelligent so I'm intelligent. And we never really have a real good way of measuring 'are you really thinking?' and putting it together and coming up with your own solutions. No. We don't define that as intelligent. We often define it as dumb.

Steve Wozniak

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Back!

So I haven't done this in a hell of a long time....since before the semester started. OH! which reminds me I'm back in college *cue the dubstep montage of me buying books, and talking to counselors.

SO I'm in school and working and it's finally starting to balance out. I'm seeing where I can study and I'm even becoming a much better student. I'm trying to be the gunner(no, i'm not in law or med school) for every class I'm in. Which is probably more difficult than I thought because not only do I have to read everything, I have to remember everything. -_-

But anyway I'm taking 4 classes, psych, algebra, philosophy and national government. I still feel like I'm taking general education courses but I am still unsure of what degree I want to pursue.

My main issue now is choosing my degree based on emotion or rational thinking. On one hand I do want to go into a job that will pay me a good amount in the future but I also am thinking I may regret not going into something I'm passionate about.

So maybe if I can fin a way too satisfy both of those....like get my B.S in some well paying area then go back to school later in life and do something I'm passionate about. Idk. But that sounds like a good plan.

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Real World TONIGHT

Bout to pop in this Digornio Pizza and watch the muthafuckin Real World!

My boy Rob is bout to get French'ed toniiiiiite! Pat yourself on the back if you understood that Jake and Amir reference. 

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Window Shopping

I am an advid fan of window shopping. Now before I go on I think you all should know I do get money *Cue the balla music, strippers and money rain*

So I don't window shop because I can't pay I just would rather not. Wait, let me explain! Also stop giving me the raised eyebrow, it ages us both. 

When I spend money on anything I feel really guilty and regret my purchase instantly. Even when the purchase is totally feasible. I spent $12 at Yogurt Vi the other day and even though it's a really healthy purchase that cleared my G.I tract for days, I still felt really guilty about it. Run on sentence, RUN!

So my solution is to window shop. So I go into stores and move around all the DVD's, try on 50 outfits and ask a billion questions just to walk out empty handed. I feel a power surge when I walk out the door with all my money still intact because I know I can go to the nest shop and by whatever I want. Maybe that is what makes it feel so great, the freedom given from all the choices I have.

7 am right now....

Think I'm going to go to Target and let the employees follow me around the store for 2 hours. Bye, yall!

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Expecting company...better clean up my Tumblr.

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dark places in my mind

filter light to there is none

here there is only numbness, loneliness and yet tranquility 

to forever be wrapped init

is just wistful thinking

just thinking 

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50 Shades of Grey

Just started reading....noooot soooo baaad. I will surely finish this and show that I am lord of all I survey. Wink, wink, nudge, nudge.

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Haven't Posted in Awhile

Okay going to just bullet point what's been happening

Unreasonable shit happening at work

My network is spreading

Possible car purchase in the near near future.

Procrastinating signing up for college classes.

Getting a second job. Don't know where.

That is all.

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00:11:49 07-04

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I quit...

Yesterday coming home from work I thought to myself "Wait, nobody CLEARLY stated I had to come in tomorrow....I shouldn't show up and see what happens". While that isn't exactly what I thought it's close enough to convey that I seriously considered quitting a job I only started last month! I don't know why I do that. I get a job and wish I was unemployed and when I'm unemployed I wish I had  job. Brain Y U NO MAKES SENSE!? Anyway I'm going to work today. :)