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20s | queer | very normal

[livingmoldspore]

I never call — the phone goes both ways — you call only to complain

I drive home, you show me your plants in the garden and I admire your patience and how much joy the blooming flowers bring you and how happy you look amidst your green paradise.

You refuse to call him by his new name — what do you think? — I think your daughter is your son.

You tag along to my doctor's appointment, I tell you about my friends in the car, you're happy about my life in the big city

You're sad I'm leaving so soon again, I can't stay any longer

[livingmoldspore]

For the first time since I moved out I really miss being able to go everywhere by car. I am tired, it's cold and my head hurts like hell and I need to pee so bad.

You must imagine my situation as follows:

Take train A to stop 1 -> get off and leave, realise you could have stayed to get train B at stop 1

When you go back to stop 1, train B has left already so you wait another 20mins until train C arrives

You get off of train C one stop too late because it’s a short train (= doesn't stop at every single stop, sadly I didn't know it leaves out my stop because I JUST moved here)

Realise you're in the middle of nowhere in an outer skirt of an outer skirt so you walk 30mins to the nearest train stop that takes you back to the direction you came from

Train D is 5mins too late so you wait a total of 20mins at a train station with 5 drunk men who shout insults and slurs your way

Get off at stop 3 (the original one) and walk home for 20mins

It is 4 am. Welcome home

[livingmoldspore]

The sun is shining and I love you

[segamascott]

[livingmoldspore]

I genuinely need more hours in a day. How am I supposes to read my books, work on commissions, draw for fun, write my fanfictions, write original work, work on my visual novel video game, eat, cook, talk to my friends, call my family from time to time, sleep, clean and then I also need a job?

How do other people do it and why is it so hard for me

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

[livingmoldspore]

Inexplicable feeling of sadness making me check if I have taken my meds today (I have) now pondering in bed trying to shake the feeling as one does on a Sunday

[kosmogrl]

oooh I get it it’s always gonna be because of the environment I grew up in

[livingmoldspore]

This is why you read the tags on fanfiction smh

[pansybait-deactivated20260517]

the sexiest things for a boy to be are desperate and pathetic

[tetitasdelimon]

top 5 horror movies

-having a job

-not having a job

-applying for jobs

-the job market

-the concept of working my whole life

[tragicwaif]

Google search history

how to stop feeling like gross worm

how to be less wormlike

how to provoke less wormish disgust in others

leaflitter and fruit scraps near me

[livingmoldspore]

Someone evil (me) has imprisoned me (put a bandage over a wound) and now I can't do the things I love (pick at my skin over and over again)

[kosmogrl]

goodbye april let’s never go through something like this again

[livingmoldspore]

So thankful for the body tremors for reminding me to eat!!

Next time they could set in a little sooner so I don't actually faint because I didn't realize how late it was but thank you nontheless

[livingmoldspore]

I name this chapter of my life:

Going from one mad house to the other - or the weeks in which I lost my sense of reality

[livingmoldspore]

All these 'happy birthday' messages from days ago in my inbox, the 'how are you's and the 'whats up's all unanswered

I can't answer right now, I just can't

Drinking tea, staring off into the distance reminding myself that it's alright and it's normal what I'm feeling and I am alive and tomorrow the sun will shine again