Diario Electronico

I’m just a 26 year old girl trying to get her shit together

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I’m so awkward and antisocial, I wish I was talkative and charismatic. I just want to have friends and go out and have fun and not feel so lonely.

I feel like such a loser in my adult life…

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I’m broke because I keep paying people to do stuff for me 😩

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Self - listen up!!

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Okay 😮‍💨

I got a raise at work and i registered for my final semester. I’m happy to be busy again, doing something to avoid the overthinking.

Now I need to manage to get more hours and be consistent with working out. And let’s not forget my medication too, my hair has been falling off like there ain’t no tomorrow so.

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Whhhhyyy is he alll I want, why does my chest feel uneasy with just a few hours ?

Am I not happy with myself ? Am I not satisfied with my own life ?

Yeah most definitely not… letting these feelings of desperate love for him blossom further is probably not the right thing to do but I’m afraid it is too late already.

I need his love, I need him. He says your goals must reach success in me but really my goal is him. I want nothing more than his endless love.

Universe help a girl love herself 😩

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She crossed a line I never thought she would. For years that line has stayed solid and as intimate as we got it never blurred.. until recently you threw in that offer and it didn’t surprise me or hurt but it did drag me deep into the mud leaving me in darkness and stuck for awhile.

We were so beautifully platonic and you ruined it…

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The beauty of reading books like actual physical books, the smell, the texture of the pages. Its an immersive experience in and of itself.

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Anyone ever watch a movie and think “this would be a good book”

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Why do I feel jealousy ? Is it because I’m insecure with myself ?

I’m scared of being left, I need them to need me and when I see that they could live without me it stings.

I don’t want to be like this

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Lately I’ve been alittle obsessed with bikers and furries ??

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Seems I only return to tumblr when I am depressed

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I'm on my phone so much lately, I fucken hate it.

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Distracting myself from my feelings has always been a challenge for me.

I wish I was a vampire so I could turn off my humanity lol

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Someone once told me that I like everything - that’s how I found out I was pansexual

I do like everything or it’s not that I like everything it’s more like I don’t care. What I like is not able to be observed.

I love my sexuality honestly, I love the meaning behind it.

It just made so much sense, it just clicked.

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- Star Girl on agenda

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I don’t know what to do, I feel so out of energy and dead everyday. I hate it.

I don’t clean, I don’t do my homework on time, I’m not working out, I’m not doing anything productive at all. I just don’t feel like it, I feel so lazy everyday. I have to chug an energy drink just to get to work and even at work I feel so out of life.

Everyone tells me I just have to push myself but fuck I can’t this feeling of death is stronger than any want I have.

Also I might know what the problem is: vaping

It has to be this because that’s how it starts, I get home from school or work and that’s the first thing I do is hit my vape, then I just lay in bed and rot all night.

I want to stop , I think about throwing them away every day and I never do. The craving for that head change always wins me over. I don’t even like the feeling, idk why I’m so addicted to it.