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22. lil' dumpling from NYC, obssesed with BLACK.She loves her Vixen Army & her PUSH fam.

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I miss you so much...

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Sueños

I had plenty last night & after I would wake up wishing they were real...they weren't. 😞 I miss you so much...

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7:37 am

I've noticed something strange last night I told myself I wasn't going to set an alarm because I wanted to sleep, I wanted to ignore the pain I had but I was unsure which one hurt more...my ankle or my heart. But this morning I woke up at exactly at 7:37am and so did I yesterday...I don't understand why though maybe he's thinking of me and missing me right when he's going to go into work. I feel so down and I wish I could just tell him how much he means to me...I hope I don't wake up at 7:37am tomorrow it breaks my heart and I don't know how much longer I can take it

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Can a sorry fix it all?

He apologized and made me understand he only had eyes for me but it hurt and I couldn't ignore the pain..I wanted to be happy with him again but I just couldn't...I never looked into his eyes again after that day of the conflict...my heart burned every time I did.

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I tried

All I was able to think of was the good times, like that time when I helped him with his shape up or that time I dropped the ice cream he had bought me after I said No,thank you. I remembered every single little memory I had with him. - that invite that changed our life. - walking around the piers talking about our heartbreaks. - counting windows because I was too nervous to admit I liked that kiss he gave me the day before. - thinking about every time he said he "really really liked me" - That time at Virginia when I randomly kissed his shoulder. - those nights at his house tickling me non stop. - those random car Rides to just talk about our feelings. - going to sleep at 3 in the morning because a few hours together wasn't enough - the first time he told me he loves me and I asked to repeat and blushing changed the conversation. I had remembered every single memory I'd made with him, I wanted to forget what I read but it was hard. He was my perfect guy, HE IS MY PERFECT GUY. If I could meet him again, I would. I...miss...you more than you could ever imagine.

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Last Sunday

Exactly this time last week 1:59 is read something on his phone that broke me apart...messages I wish I never read. Each word I read was burning me inside, destroying the little piece of trust I had left in me...it got destroyed.

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Tattooed...

Looked at my thighs today and I found those pinch marks you left me...I hope they stay there forever 😢...I miss you.

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My heart...

I wanna be as tough as my heart has been...he gets used and thrown into the garbage and it still finds a way to beat and keep me alive. 😢😢

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...saddest day

Madly in love but they're too stubborn to let each other know.

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You're the WORST thing that has happened to me.

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Confidence is the key to a happier you

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Here's the problem...

People constantly say to me " why you wanna be skinny when you're already skinny " I don't wanna be skinny at all ! I do this as a lifestyle, to grow muscle, to feel good & look good & if you think that's wanting to be skinny you're far from right. Don't try and bring me down, not now....not ever.

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...cracked smile

You know what hurts the most, when you have to show the world a happiness you don't feel at all

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Support

I wanna be with someone who questions why am I buying 5 cups of coffee & when I respond it's for the homeless he says; " let me get some donuts, too."

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