aspiring patron saint of pasta

Anne // 30 // weirdly catholic // 24 tv series enthusiast // city planning goblin

[antaripirate]

my offering for adsomblr today

[antaripirate]

alucard in agos: hey lila, i’m sorry your past experiences have made you so afraid of affection and caring. i hope you know it’s ok to let people in :)

alucard in the first half of acol, seeing her kiss that guy he hates again: no fuck not like that

alucard on the ghost, sopping wet and wishing those cabins were sound-warded: i wish i’d never opened my fucking mouth

[kentodreaming]

characters have to be a little bit awful in ways that you cant defend. its good for the ecosystem. your honor he did do that. He did in fact do that

[cuntaloupes-deactivated20241215]

by tumblr standards i'm a well-adjusted normie. by normie standards i'm a nutjob. what is the truth

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

Murderbot, a character who is motivated beyond all else by the need to protect and preserve the life, peace, and safety of the people around it: and i shall dub myself...........................MURDERBOT

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

another relatable thing about Murderbot is it is obsessed with its favorite show (Sanctuary Moon). it has watched and re-watched it so many times, it uses its favorite episodes to self-soothe, it credits this show with being the first thing that "made it feel like a person." Murderbot's identity is as entwined with Sanctuary Moon as a preteen fandom blogger experiencing the drug that is self-discovery-through-media for the very first time. Murderbot is a FAN, okay.

and despite being the pov narrator for multiple novels and novellas, Murderbot never once, not even inside its own head, claims that Sanctuary Moon is a good show.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

the Murderbot Diaries opens from the point-of-view of a character who, from essentially the moment it gained (clawed its way to) free will, has made decisions based purely on two very specific motives:

to self-soothe and self-educate (through media consumption)

to protect the people around it

and this protagonist, who deescalates violence at every opportunity, who takes a thousand personal injustices in stride and only strives to do better, whose first-and-worst-and-most-brilliant act of self-reclamation—literally reclaiming its mind—was fuelled not by its need for freedom but by a desperation to never be forced to hurt anyone against its will ever again.

this person, when choosing a name for itself, a name it has full reason to believe no-one else will ever learn, a name it uses only in its thoughts, a name that serves solely as a personal reminder that it is a person—chooses MURDERBOT? i am thrashing writhing screaming into the palms of my bloodstained hands BABE

[catilinas]

i love shipping magazines and i especially love them when they sound like they were written by a mildly aggravated cargo ship

[llleeerrroooyyy]

hes my pal he’s my home boy my rotten soldier he’s my sweet cheese my good time boy

[antaripirate]

my beautiful notes app provides again

[antaripirate]

undeniably an interaction between alucard and lila

[summer-oil-inactive]

huge fan of ship dynamics where person a does not know how desired they are and person b is about to pop a blood vessel about it

[antaripirate]

came across this picture and i immediately thought of the maresh brothers

[omtai]

She literally does not give a damn what that old fool is yelling about

[unaloid]

the lion does not concern herself with papa

[phantomrose96]

putting in a hard day's work at the not actually getting anything done factory

[ofdarklands]

yeah

[noctourniquet-remade]

[lesson-ever-51]

aww piss