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chew toy heart :: earth angel

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watching the good, the bad and the ugly.

love a good tongue-in-cheek flick with intense themes, especially when they’re reminiscent of oldie westerns. hachi seems to enjoy some of it too. :p

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wore my sunglasses today because while i was walking with my friend, he put his sunglasses on. my eyes were also getting irritated and that’s when i said ! hey !! i have sunglasses in my purse right now ! #duh !! they’re HUGE and i Love them.

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sometimes i feel guilty for like. basically just wanting to live and experience my twenties.

i hate calling out of work to have fun or just spend a day to myself because i feel irresponsible and anxious. idk. i rarely call out, though. it gives me so much anxiety. it’s probably because i’m a manager and i know people rely on me to be there… but like… i can’t Always be there. whether i have a family emergency, a sick day, or literally just a mental health day. it’s unrealistic.

i also think i’ve been struggling lately because i feel like i can’t dress like myself. all of my clothes have been fitting me weird, and i feel like nothing suits me. i wana dress cute and feel hot or sexy or Something. but i feel like. too cute or even too ugly to even be considered attractive at all. i feel icky for wanting to be outwardly myself. i dont want to be dressed so modestly all the time .. but i also feel like a pervert when i “show too much” .. idk.

im not very happy or confident in myself lately. i’m depressed and tired.

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if you want to be hot and the most interesting person you know, start taking public transportation and you will achieve your goals.

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i get so crazy emotional over lord of the rings but please don’t expect me to be able to explain it.

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made a gift basket for my best friend last night :”) tumblr is the only place i can post it rn because i have her on everything else

we have a basket with filling paper, lace doilies, a beautiful trivet, a silver little heart shaped box, a pin cushion, dragons blood incense, sandalwood cones in a little goodie bag, and a cutesy mug !

i hope she loves it.

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i think im allowed to be a Little Ugly

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trying to decide whether or not i wait to cut my bangs .. i am so tempted to do a baby bang .. but i must remain strong ……. i have to wait until after my vacation …….

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my life is perfect in the sense that i have a perfect, adoring wife, and a best friend that insists on treating us to dinner tomorrow night. not at a restaurant, but in our very own apartment. im excited to see her (per usual), and im excited to try the food she’s been aching for us to enjoy.

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maybe i will play solitaire

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wow! i still need to stretch and take care of my nails, but omg i just did my skin care and i feel so good ! i’ve been trying to get into taking care of myself a little more, and it feels so good. i wanted to work out but i am in so much pain, i’ll just stretch for the night. i wanted to go for a walk, but it is very cold… which is not a real issue, i also don’t want to be alone.

i also !! cut my bangs so short TT .. and i have vacation in like two weeks !!! absolute terrible fate, actual epic fail, so humiliating (not really; i love dramatics) .. i don’t know what to wear for the week we’re going. it’s actually only five days, so it should be cake. i don’t even know what type of vibe i want. no colors or anything .. it just hasn’t come to me yet. i’ll just throw some outfits on and see how i feel about them.

tomorrow is my thursday! i am so exhausted this week, and i know damn well that it’s because of my damn ass period approaching. i think i’ll do eyeliner tomorrow, but if i wake up too late it just isn’t happening hahaha. i can’t wait for my weekend, i am so beat.

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gona go home and hopefully CLEAN again </333

i will probably start a load of laundry, start cleaning my living room, and then the kitchen. i am so hungry, though. i may have a snack before the kitchen (teehee). i may go for a walk!! but i am unsure. i doooo have to grab a package out of the club house so i might just walk and grab it on the way back! maybe i’ll see if isa wants to walk with me.

hopefully! :)

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i want to wear cute outfits to the gym but i get mad insecure about how i am perceived. i think way too deeply about myself.

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my cleaning routine was somewhat scrapped, yesterday. not completely, i got my main objective done! huge w for everyone involved. thank you.

tonight, i plan on cleaning my living room and kitchen to the best of my ability! then, tomorrow, kat is coming over, and then the next day i’m gona go to the gym! only walking on the treadmill but i’m going to the gym !!! that’s the important part.

i get very shy when i am in public alone, the gym will be in my apartment complex club house, but it’s still a public setting. just .. a private .. public setting ….

anywho, i plan to do it every day i am able to, either hitting the treadmill or actually walking outside for about an hour. i may ask my roommate to walk with me if i go outside, but it shouldn’t be too bad.

daylight savings is coming up! we lose an hour of sleep but gain an hour of light !

i love the spring / summer seasons because of how sunny they are. i can’t wait to be warm, and happy.

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thinking too deeply about how the crows i saw on my way to the bus stop. i hope they like me.

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my brother has been working on a video game over the past year! check out his teaser trailer 🥲i’m so incredibly proud of him !

🧅🩶