Spring could be described as a wonderful season where the flowers bloom with the weather feeling just right. The people living in the moment going to work, meeting with friends or going on adventures. We can be reminded of that natural earthy smell we sometimes forget how nice it is. Somehow I sit in silence feeling tired while my coffee goes cold, distracted by this fog that's not visible to anyone else. I’m lost in thought with this heavy weight on my chest. Am I really thinking of anything? I question myself but suddenly I realize I'm thinking about everything. Why did she get into a relationship a month after our break up or why did my friend take his life. What about how someone else got unfortunate and died in an accident. Why did my moms ex husband do those things to me or his son when I was five? Maybe I should talk to someone and tell them how I feel but I suddenly realize no one cares if a man has Hundred problems. Other People encourage guys to keep things to themselves because no one likes them if they show weakness. I suddenly feel more tired and start to listen to music. I feel so lost. I'm barely twentyseven but will I see thirty? I check my phone if anyone is checking on me since I have this mentality I shouldn’t text anyone because I'm afraid I’d just bother them. I’ll just lay down and fall asleep. Maybe I won’t be tired anymore or maybe I won't wake up again.
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