First of all I'd just like to give a huge thank you all who reached out to me 💜
And secondly, I'd like to embellish a bit on what's going on. None of the following has anything to do with my prolapse. I'm still waiting for an operation for that, and I think it'll be some time yet before that happens because of the backlog due to covid. That's fine as there are folk out there who have life threatening conditions. So, some time ago now I developed a bad cough. I smoke and I have asthma. Stupid, right?! Anyhoo, about 4 weeks ago I got a bad ache between my shoulder blades and down my right hand side and started losing weight for no good reason. You can imagine what I'm thinking. I finally got to see a Dr today. She asked me many questions then took my oxygen levels & blood pressure. Both were excellent. She listened very carefully to my chest and said it sounded fine. By this time I'm starting to feel somewhat relieved. However, because of the weight loss and my smoking history she wants me to have bloods taken (that's next Friday) and have a chest x-ray (that's in the pipeline but I don't know when yet). At some point in June, when the results of the bloods & x-ray are in I'll be going to one of my local hospitals to see a chest specialist for an assessment. Now, all this sounds very serious and potentially it is. But! I feel the need to emphasise that it probably isn't! I actually feel incredibly guilty about all the care they're giving me because this is a self inflicted problem. However, I'm now going to try to stay positive about it unless I start going downhill fast, (I'm not some bloody automaton who can always spout positivity & I'm seriously not sorry about that. I'm a real person and if I get worse I will kick and scream until I calm down & accept that I'll be going to live with my Ancestors, who'll accept me as a worthy warrior because they alone know what I've dealt with through my life). But I'm not going to get worse, am I?! (I dare anyone to say so 🤨🧐~😉😁)
I prefer to view it as a huge kick up the arse
Possibly my last chance to make changes that will save my life & allow me to see my kids through some of their adult lives. With that in mind it's time to give up the ciggies. Yesterday (before seeing the Dr), I ordered this....
It was recommended to me by my beloved stepsister. She said I needed to read it 2 or 3 times before trying to give up, which I will. There are 3 routes I feel I can take. One is the medication, Champix. I'm really not sure about this one because I feel I very much need to replace the hand to mouth to lungs action. So that leaves the NRT inhaler or the vaping route. I really haven't decided yet. Whichever I choose I do have to say that I probably won't tell anyone when I start on the journey to becoming an ex smoker. I think it's too much pressure for me. Sorry for rambling on and very well done if you've got this far 👏👏👏
One last thing and this is for @mr-arcturus When did you become a publisher? 😁😂
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