⛧°. ⋆༺𝕷𝖊𝖊༻⋆. °⛧

༒︎ ཐི❤︎ཋྀ ༒︎

[loneleeisthemuse]

maybe I’m dramatic

like you said

maybe I’m overreacting

it’s all in my head

but when I look at you

a mirror and a window

we both see right through

sometimes my vision tunnels

a target and a spiral

centered and focused on you

if someone asked me last year

would I do what I did

I think I would again

you draw me in

like a painting waiting to happen

and I fall after you

as you lead me to beautiful places I’ve never seen

one day I think we’ll go further

farther than in my dreams

pink skies and endless nights

maybe somewhere in Italy

if you keep me like a sad puppy

at a cost of your heart

would you regret letting me in

drenched from the clouds

crying more than I do

puddles on your floors

would you still open the door

I can be quiet

and that would be a lie

I beg that you don’t shut me up

for worse or for better

in sickness and in health

please never shut me out

don’t put me away

you can’t reach forever

and I can’t stay

I won’t sit still

I’ll be loud and aggrieved

a different path

not so far away from me

a turn and a circle

I’d be gone

to be haunted by you would be a blessed curse

hiding in the cracks in the floors of my old home

waiting to be torn apart by your memory

it hurts worse

when we’re on good terms

[loneleeisthemuse]

the fire won’t go out

it burns my skin

wearing me down

I ask you if you still mean that thing you said

I don’t believe your response

so it doesn’t matter anyway

I want to be free with you

away from the flames

I want to be far away

so far they can’t hunt me down and burn you too

[loneleeisthemuse]

every bout of silence just brings more pain

the tears never stop falling

I miss when I could hide them in the rain

when will all my past mistakes

stop following us everyday

you said you would change

I don’t hold enough space

maybe I’m empty

is that what this is

is every void never ending

I want to find a way

I want to marry you someday

so why can’t I stop crying

feeling like this is the end

I don’t want to leave

but I have no choice if you don’t want me

[loneleeisthemuse]

sometimes I wish we started out different

wish you had found me when I was free

instead you found a caged animal

And I found a man with the key

sometimes I wish I could go back

do it all differently

but would I still find you?

would you be with someone new?

I wonder how happy you would be with someone that isn’t me

does the fighting ever end

does the fire put itself out

are we ever gonna grow past what we’ve done

I like to think we’re not doomed

but every argument feels like a thorn in my side

and I can’t pull them out

[loneleeisthemuse]

when I sat next to you

I felt the weight on my shoulders

everything you said

spiraling in my head

I thought I could save you

I’m glad you saved yourself

I wish I hadn’t felt what I did

only four days

I was deep in it

I know she still hates me

But I wish she didn’t

A word of advice

Don’t introduce your friend to the guy you like

[loneleeisthemuse]

do you ever think about that night

It always seems to cross my mind

I told the truth about your lies

I thought it was supposed to be me

I admit it was childish

felt like I wanted you more

thought you deserved better

don’t worry I’ve paid my dues

every once n awhile I still think of you

I hope you’re doing better these days

and I hope you’re happy

That’s all I ever wanted

thought I did the right thing

but maybe not

I should’ve been more careful with your heart

but you shouldn’t have taken mine

it doesn’t mean anything

but you said you loved me

I should’ve learned my lesson then

but a few years later

the devil held me while I cried over you

[loneleeisthemuse]

locket tour💙

[loneleeisthemuse]

you’ll see me again, but I won’t see you

find me in every shade of blue

and every song I knew

I know it hurts too

[loneleeisthemuse]

too hot to handle

[loneleeisthemuse]

I love you

I want you to write it into my skin

match the way it spells inside my blood

over and again with every touch

I trust you

and everytime

I follow you out of the labyrinth

where every corner is a horrible memory

You’re a field of sunflowers

and sunset eyes

that glow at all the right times

completely perfect and all mine

[loneleeisthemuse]

need me? you don’t even know me.

need me want me miss me hate me love me hurt me leave me keep me

in the background, right?

are we smiling? are we fighting? do you tell me it’s my fault? are you still sure?

Are you still sure you want to keep living? Are you sure you want to try again?

Another lie for another “friend”

You claw at your neck

leaving red

raw from screaming, banging your head

You play a part

your admission, your shame

finding everyone else to blame

The lonely ache of being alone

wrapping you up mean and cold

Guilty

tighter and tighter around your throat

So tight you wish it would strangle you.

And so do I.

[loneleeisthe]

"do you still think you're a killer?"

-flower face, isobel

[loneleeisthe]

𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘳, 𝘷𝘰𝘭 1

(𝘓, '25)

[loneleeisthemuse]

new americana

[loneleeisthemuse]

you should be sad

this part was so cute I love her

[loneleeisthemuse]

hold me down

[loneleeisthemuse]

without me