I will be here until I figure it out

this is the club I go to when I am lonely so..

[lonelytimeandme]

may all the good things you do comes around to you, its when you least expect it that it come running for you, i pray every good people in my life get the happy endings they deserve.

[lonelytimeandme]

my longing closure.

this one doesn’t hurt as bad as I thought it would, the closure i got months ago finally hits.

[lonelytimeandme]

for the sake of us, i will forever hold my peace, forever keeping this to myself, forever holding myself back.

[thespilledquotes]

“I am not lucky. You know what I am? I am smart. I am talented. I take advantage of the opportunities that come my way, and I work really, really hard. Don’t call me lucky. Call me a badass.”

— Shonda Rimes

[winewithdann]

A gentle reminder.

[lonelytimeandme]

note to self mi jinggg

[lonelytimeandme]

another night of dreaming about you :) but still the dream is a reflection of reality where it show so clearly the truth that I dont want to accept in reality.. Just another dream to confirm and hold me back from my own expectations.

[lonelytimeandme]

I hope one day, someone finally understand what I go through and pat me on my shoulder and said good job, I dont know where I am going anymore because nowhere feel safe, I no longer found comfort in my skin and in my heart. I tried so hard, its hurt so much.

[cheshire-cat-lenalee2]

[lonelytimeandme]

ITS ENDS WITH US

- Colleen Hoover

Song that matches

Till Forever Falls Apart

I am here to digest my feeling a day after finishing this book.

Finished

August 31st 2021 at 2:32am

Many has said this song related so much to Atlas who were always there so lily but to me, As some would say I fell in love with Ryle too much, to be able to fall in love with his flaws as well. I think I am.

Ryle Kincaid

I haven't been so attached to a character from a book this much, His character was so real and so good but there were flaws, flaws that took him away from Lily and me. I feel like CoHo made us fall in love with him as bad as Lily did and watches him throw us off but never out. Ryle was also always there and that whats hurt me the most, Its a matter of a few minutes that could change an entire person. The little boy that killed his own brother is my excuse to never give him up but its also his excuse for his behavior. My breaking point with Ryle was when he told lily to come home, He wont be there. I dont know why but this part left the biggest hole in me, the hole I am seeking for a reason why I shouldn't have it because of his idiotic behavior but it was one of the many reason, I havent been able to enjoy Lily & Atlas at all. Because Ryle character is holding me back so hard, its hurt to see it end this way, when he agree to give up for lily & for his daughter. I wish it ended with Lily & Ryle, ended the abuse not the circle. As my heart aches along with this, I will be left empty for god know how long.

I would agree with we will never be the same after reading this book, It was so beautiful, I felt most of it under my own heartbreak.

This one is for me to look back, to look back at one of the most beautiful yet heart wrecking moments I have experienced.

To Lily, To Ryle, To Atlas and To Colleen Hoover.

[lonelytimeandme]

my happiness

I am graduating this month from a place I called home where memories and friendship are held. Its been 10 years ever since I met each and everyone of my favorite person, those that held a big place in my heart and soul, those that built and grow with me ever since 3rd grade. I only have a few friends but to me they really meant the world to me, I see them almost every single day and it has become a routine for us to see each others. From morning classes to lunch break and to after school rolls, it has finally hit me that my routine will be lifted and changed forever. I will never wake up to see them and no longer will spent everyday together. But for now, I hope this will lasted with us forever, I am wishing for everyone to be on the path they long to be and life will get them to beautiful endings.

Thank You for being my strength even if you don’t know it, you helped me out of my darkness but its coming to an end, I will have to fight alone again but please be happy for me. Happy graduation all my nop jit.

[lonelytimeandme]

I am really tired.

[markeu-lii]

young elites masterlist

when y/n lee breaks up with her longtime boyfriend lee taeyong, she resumes her life as a young elite at Seoul International School. life at the school means attending parties worth more than people’s wages and getting caught up in drama from the world’s most elite private schools. to make things more complicated, she finds herself caught up in love affairs and messy love triangles.

yuta nakamoto is y/n lee’s childhood best friend. yuta’s fuckboi behaviour and lustful escapades with y/n, makes him question whether the pounding of his heart around her is just a part of their dynamic or something more.

jung jaehyun’s life long ambition is to become the youngest president of South Korea. he finds himself straying further away from his dream when he decides to persue his long time crush, y/n lee.

trigger warnings:

mentions of cheating, mentions of sex, drug use

preview one two three four five

six seven eight nine ten

eleven twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen

sixteen seventeen eighteen nineteen twenty

twenty one twenty two twenty three

twenty four twenty five

twenty six twenty seven twenty eight

[end] [alt. ending]

epilogue:

one two three

sequel series:

young elites/lacuna timeline

lacuna masterlist

written ver. masterlist

kinship [mark]

whiplash [yuta]

easier [doyoung]

teenager ii [taeyong]

yuta smut drabble

taeyong yuta mark jaehyun jennie

🖤 lock screens

🥂 subjects

🖤 playlist

🥂 album

🖤 deleted

Special thanks to @uyujae !!

Also lowkey inspired by @kaepop-trash ‘s Ambition series. (A highly recommended read!)

[stormae-deactivated20210330]

masterlist

♡  means the story contains fluff

☾ means the story contains angst

✹ means the story contains mature content

❀  means the story is a personal favourite

all original stories on this blog are licensced under the Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License

Sicheng

↳ Automaton – robot!au ❀ ♡ ☾

↳ Splendour – college!au ♡

↳ Anticipate the Moss Rose – florist!au ♡

↳ Used to You – domestic boyfriend!au ♡

↳ A Secret – college frat!au ♡ ☾ ✹

↳ Silent is the Sea – mermaid!au ♡ ☾ 

Ten

↳ Holier Than Thou – tattoo artist!au ♡ 

↳ Hellion (m) – demon!au ☾ ✹

↳ Reditum – reluctant soulmate!au ♡ ☾ 

↳ Offended – neighbour!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Painted are the Living – art to life!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Order of the Diadem – royalty!au ♡ ☾ 

      ➙  one | two | three | finale

Jaehyun

↳ Comfort – domestic boyfriend!au ❀ ♡ 

↳ Punch Drunk – boxer!au ♡ ☾ 

↳ Gold Leaf – rich kid!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Juliet Alpha Echo – gang!au ♡ ☾

Taeyong

↳ Inked – tattoo artist!au ♡ 

↳ Standstill – commute!au ♡ 

↳ Pick Me Up – domestic boyfriend!au ♡ 

↳ Ghost – bodyguard!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Syndicate of Fallen Angels – mafia/spy!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Don’t Let Your Spirit Wane – domestic!au ♡ ☾ 

Yuta

↳ Archived – museum guard!au ♡ 

↳ Neighbourly – reluctant soulmate!au ♡ ☾ 

↳ Better – best friend!au ♡ ☾ 

↳ Charlie Bravo Sierra – gang!au ♡ ☾ ✹

     ➙ one | two | finale

Taeil

↳ The Virtuoso’s Sonata – pianist!au ♡ 

↳ Deep Space – tattoo artist!au ♡ 

Hansol

↳ Connection – college exchange!au ♡ 

↳ Virus – high school!au ♡ 

↳ Something Borrowed – library/college!au ♡

Johnny

↳ Lit – college!au ♡ 

↳ Caffeinated – neighbour!au ♡ 

↳ Lycanthropy – werewolf!au ♡ ☾ 

↳ You Brew On Me – barista!au ♡ 

↳ Shot – photographer/model!au ♡ ☾ 

Mark

↳ Access Granted – hacker!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Metallic Tenderness – robot!au ♡ ☾ 

Doyoung

↳ Streamline – swimming!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

Yukhei

↳ Sun Dust – rich kid!au / summer vacation!au ❀ ♡ ☾ 

↳ Some People Have Angels – college!au / friends to lovers!au ♡ ☾

↳ Chiaroscuro – musician!au / photographer!au ♡ ☾

Sehun

↳ Lookout – secret agent!au ♡ ☾ ✹

     ➙ one ❀ | two(m)

Taekwoon

↳ Madness – underworld!au ♡ ☾ 

     ➙ one ❀ | two

[shebloomedbutwontforgethepast]

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

[simondominic]

Guess the Gibberish with Simon Dominic

Thank you for the entertainment 😂

[kdramafeed]

(insp.)

[toeknee-ow]

就算我向世界飛奔千百里 又再輸 Even if I fly thousands of miles around the world and still lose again,

就算跌過百次 再尋下次 Even if I fall a hundred times, I’ll keep looking again.

心鎖從來沒有鎖匙 My heart’s lock has never had a key.

曾想象太好 歷太多失意 I thought too well of things in the past and made too much disappointment for myself.

孤單的滋味 天知我知 The taste of loneliness, the heavens and I know of it.

太幸福的事也許要變卦幾次 Things that are too good promise to change several times,

方悟到珍惜的意思 It makes you realize the real meaning of treasuring things.

[toeknee-ow]

鍾嘉欣 | 《最幸福的事》 [ 護花危情主題曲 ] Linda Chung | “The Most Blissful Thing” (Witness Insecurity Title Song)