You found me

Sophomore at Julliard. living my dream. Taken and never been happier.

[kristensource]

[sarark-deactivated20150726]

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

Okay? Okay.

I love you Okay?

His words rung throughout her head, she could close her eyes and picture him with her again and then everything was fine. But, when she opened her eyes she was alone again, in her room clutching his shirt. She sighed as she thought about him in New York and what he could possibly be doing. She wished she knew how long he could be gone so she could try and not be so sad but she was and she couldn't help that.

I'll be back soon Okay?

Those were the words he would say when they would talk on the phone. He'd tell her they'd be together again before she knew it. Loni didn't know if she believed him though. Maybe her mom was right, it could be good to go and see a therapist. They could get one of the best ones to help her get through it she told her. Her mother was right, it could help her try and move past all the crap she has been through.

You'll get through this Okay?

She could hear her mother saying that, which she did the last time they skyped.Loni laid back onto her bed clutching Aaron's shirt and she felt her eyes water a bit. She left herself start crying her eyes flooding with tears when she cleared her throat and just barely whispered.

"Okay."

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

It's impossible

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

I love you too, sweetness. 

I’m trying. 

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

I don't know if Troy told you but i'm gonna start seeing a therapist.

I think it's a good idea. Try and get over all the things bottled up inside.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

It's impossible

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

I love you Carter.

You're an amazing friend.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

It's impossible

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

It sucks. I don’t want the day to pass quickly, so I woke up early, now I’m drained. 

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

Yeah I know the feeling.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

It's impossible

to be this tired all the time. 

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

Nah, it's possible.

[kristenstewartdailys]

[stevcnroger]

[aaron-kentsworth]

-smiles lightly and places a kiss on her shoulder- I love you. Don’t forget that.

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

-nods gently- I won't. You know I love you too. With everything that I am.

[aaron-kentsworth]

I hope they’re alright too. I’m sorry for telling you on such a short notice. I found out not so long ago. I wish I could take you with me. -puts his head on her shoulder-

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

I wish you could too. I'll be okay. I'm used to being on my own. I'm keeping the clothes that are yours in my room. I need something to sleep in. -closes her eyes and runs her fingers through his hair-

[aaron-kentsworth]

-kisses her back and wraps his arms around her waist- I hate seeing you cry..

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

-wipes her eyes- I'll be fine. I'm crying because i'm gonna miss you so much. I hope your family is alright and i'm proud of you being so responsible for your family. it's good.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

Babe…we’re more worried about you. We’ll come back to the dorms. 

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

Enjoy the rest of your vacation. I'll be fine. I'm used to it being just me.

Have fun.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

I understand. 

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

I hope you and Troy are having a great time.

[carter-yonce-deactivated2014061]

-frowns taken aback by her tone, understanding that she’s upset, she nods taking a step back- Okay, hun.

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

I'm trying to not cry.

Because that's all I want to do right now. I'm proud of him, being responsible and taking care of his family. I just need him and it hurts because I don't know how long he'll be gone.

[aaron-kentsworth]

Of course. Don’t worry, everything will turn out fine. -smiles lightly-

[loni-is-wilde-blog]

-hugs him tightly, and kisses him gently- I'll try not too.