Can't be mad at this face for not posting in awhile. Life is busy, but once I'm 100% settled into the new house. I'll be back 😘
Dot point from last post.
♤ I brought a house
♤ I won apprentice of the year 2019
♤ I start 3rd year in 2 months
♤ I've lost people I loved
♤ I've gained new people to love
♤ I'm financially screwed but I'm working on it
♤ Being in a relationship has been hard, I'm feeling alone in my relationship and not wanted sexually which is a big struggle with being asexual and actually wanting sex with the person I'm with
♤ I have thought about fooling around or opening my relationship in nicer words, but I'm sticking to my guns
♤ I had my tonsils removed and no longer have a husky sexy voice #RIP
♤ I can almost sing 100% better than before
♤ My torn ligament in my knee has still kept me from the gym/running/looking after myself, I'm also working on that haha
♤ Waiting for routine to come back
I've thought about you daily, I hope you're healthy and happy and loved and smile through all your troubles knowing you are better than the downs and are worth any troubles. And know you are beautiful inside and out. Peace xx
I've been smashing hours at work sneaking cuddles in where I can with the gf aaaaaannnd dun dun duuuuun. Half way through the steps of buying a cute cottage timber 4 bedroom house!! I'm stoked, to not pay rent no more and to have my own place I can work on and do things to to make it feel like mine.
By the end of the month I'll be a house bitch, because I have officially asked my gf to move in. Yes we have only been dating 6 months and yes it was on official 2 months ago. And yes I have talked to many people about this, but we all agree we are mature enough to try this out. Aaaand all the paperwork and keys should be handed over and mine. I'm so excited.
I'm also excited to finally go to Sydney next month, the misses is going to introduce me to be besties as I've already met her mumsie 🥰. I have the cutest 6 month gift lined up for my girl next week that I've made. It looks amazing!! And my bosses are impressed with my metal skills.... yeah yeah.
I'm about to get dolled up and hit the night with the bunch for 20 yo basic bitches, so wish me luck lol.
P.S. monogamous relationships are weird and interesting, I have had doubts but I think I'm doing good haha.
I hope life is treating you well, I hope you haven't lost your smile or laughter. I hope you're loved or are open to being fully loved. I hope adventures are finding you and I really hope you're body, soul and heart are truly happy xx
So I totally miss typing my bullshit out but I just haven't had any time. I've convinced work to smash out my second year of tafe, last 2 weeks starting Monday. I'm also trying to get them on board with smashing out 3rd years tafe before I'm even in my third year 😈....
So between work and tafe. I recently got asked to be "K's" girlfriend officially.... which was super cute, she asked me on Easter holidays at my parents house in Bundy. I also came out to my mother (didn't go well) but I'll save that for another time. I technically came out to everyone with my first fb relationship status ever if I'm honest lol.... But we had great adventures over those 4 days haha. (Pic below 👌)
Cutie and I had a falling out because she went through a break up and a new boyfriend all within 3 weeks HAHAHAHAH. Which I think is the biggest joke ever, plus moving into his house before a month of being bf and gf. PLUS he works at our work.... she has been trying to talk to me more over the past week, but eh. When you mention it's your birthday in 8 days and ya "best friend" doesn't shout "bitch what we doing?" Afterwards.... means a lot.
Living an hr away from the gf kind of sucks, especially when I get all sad and depressed and I'm home a lone. She always offers to rush over and look after me but I don't want that to be the basis of our relationship.... we see each other at least every weekend and we go on more adventures with either just us or with her friends (her friends are such pure people 🥰). Also pic below of last weekends adventure, how many people can say they sat on top of a waterfall and watched the sun set.... I CAN 😍
FUCK WHODA THUNK
I'm excited to go to a food festival on Saturday and then take my girl out to a spontaneous surprised "titanic the movie, the play" date.... Just 🤞 hope she hasn't already seen it.... than it's a surprised Italian dinner after 🥰 one of her favs.... bitch deserves to be spoilt. She looked after me the past couple months when I tore my knee and had a tooth infection that needed to be pulled out.... She's a great human and so much appreciated (: it is also a pre birthday dinner before bowling next week eeeeeek!!
Today, I'm happy....
I ordered skinny jean overalls and this is something new for me also, buying clothes (in womans) and being excited by it.... I can not wait to flaunt my sexy ass all over the place in them for my girl 🥰....
Well I guess that's me out, I have hair to dye. Food to eat.... sleep to catch before going to see K tomorrow. So on that note....
I hope you're well, smiling, loving, being true to you and who you want to be. Laughing, learning, forgiving and opening yourself up to new things.
Literally have spent my time catching up on shows.... Spaming her with sexual snaps and sooking for cuddles.... Sleeping and working 😂. Being cripple for over a month has put me in the worst/laziest life style lately.... But 3 more work days including today and I'll finally be snugged up on Thursday night with cuddles 😍. Too keen haha.
Hope life is treating you well and you're healthy and smiling xx.
Three weekends of no social or physical interactions is probably going to drive me bonkers. But I hope she has fun in Sydney and Melbourne over the next two weeks. Maybe I can dedicate some time to drawing or updating my blog more 😂....
So I have decided that I don’t want to have 3 different blogs anymore and am going to try and merge them all into one as well as other things in my life so that I have more time for my social and romantic lifestyle. My URL and this page shall eventually change, it’s hard to find a theme I want and would like to try to design something but that just takes up even more time I do no have. If anyone follows, you shall be seeing more personal things like my drawings and songs and more of my personal life, I’ll be ditching the apprentice tile and link and will be merging to lonleygirl_d in time so please be patient during this cheers. xx
Beyond a full on mad house at work, to explain I've had a shit week at work and can't wait for tomorrow to be over. I have managed to bruise my legs up more, I have burnt my arms with welds, I have burnt the top of my god damn lip with a weld splatter and I have a giant blood blister on my finger. I know that tomorrow won't hold back, considering it looks like it's going to be a day of arranging materials, yay, not.
Besides that, the crush and I have had an exasperating week of sexual banter, tonight was the worst for her. I may have been a bit of a Snapchat slut, nah tease really.
And after work tomorrow the crush will be coming over, I am assuming to spend the night, but also wanting her too. We both have had a crazy week and company is going to be really nice. Not to mentiom cuddles 😍.
The one thing I have to refrain myself from is kissing with this damn burn 😢😅. But also, I've never sexually been with a girl and well the crush really finds me sexy and wants me and I feel confused cause I never get put this way but also I guess okay with it all. But like I'm not dying with excitment at the idea of sex with or without her. Being an A-Sexual is very difficult, I mean I enjoyed myself being a tease haha, but idek. I can't really assume anything until the moment is happening I guess.
Either way I'm very anxious about tomorrow night. I do plan on telling her and being 100% honest with her. I'm sure if she really likes me the way she says she does, than she would understand. She knows practically everything else I'm dealing with so this can't be that hard to talk through.
Speaking of talking. Talking with her has made me really appreciate words. There are some really great words or synonyms out there. She is super smart IMO and when she uses words like "ropeable" in the definition of being angry. It really gets my motors going and I to want to use smart alternative words that don't get used often. Hence my title, exasperating....
Since she has finally dozed off, I think I might try to sleep before midnight for once lol. I'm excited for Saturday with cutie and Monday with the girls and the bestie. I have a huge weekend starting tomorrow.
I hope you're going to enjoy the rest of January with loved ones and laughter. Even if you don't dream you seems to be enjoying my company xx ✌
I swear I'll clean it up soon and organise it better. For my sake really. Back tracking is hard on this theme haha.
Since work is slow.... Let's vent.
I had a really good D&M with my long life best friend, who's Birthday was on Tuesday 💜. So much love for this guy, would never do me wrong and is currently at a cross roads of working out what he want's or needs to do for the rest of his life as he is no longer in Retail.
I'm happy about this but I don't want him to get stuck in an unemployment rut like so many do. So I told him to set some goals for where he really want's to be in life. That it isn't too late to reach them dreams and I'll have his back the entire way. Which is true, I will.
I also got the chance to tell him a little about my depression and said point blank that he does need to check up on me, even if we can go months without talking and still be close as ever. Because I don't want him to wake up one day and regret not being that person that didn't check I was okay and it is now too late. He was shocked by it, but it is the hard truth and people in my life need to know how severe my depression is and what I really feel and deal with.
We also had a chat about my first official girl v girl up coming date and possible romance 🤞 lol.... Wise words, just be you and as honest as you can be. The girls back home are super hyped up about it and in awe at me going on a girl v girl date. Guess my friend's are over the fuckboys in my life haha. A week and a half till I get to see the girls as well so that's going to be exciting.
So mentally I am not prepared for this weekend at all. To go pick someone up and spend almost 6 hours in a car with them is insane for a first meet up. On paper and text we are perfection.... I'm so worried that in person it's not going to work out and to have to spend 6 hours together what if she hates me the first hour in hahahah. Sounds like an utter nightmare. What if I don't like her as much as I'm smitten right now. Oh dear! My brain has been going mental with these thoughts through the week.
One thing I have NEVER worried about is how I look and what I'll wear!! I need halp ASAP haha. Seriously though our date is going sunflower field farm hunting. Now this sounds amazing itself and I'm heaps excited to get heaps of pictures of giant sunflower fields. And I'm sure the adventure should keep things interesting between us two. But what does one wear to something like this haha. Literally thinking it's a flanny kind of day 😂.
Sunflower field farm hunting.... I told her it sounded like an Animal Crossing Event. She replied with.... Is that like Frogger 😂😍👌. Cute.
Jeepers, if she looks good in a sunflower field. I'm going to die.
I hope you're on a great path to your dream destiny. Peace xx
Bitch getting skinney.... Still so much I wanna change say like STRETCH MY LOBES BIGGER AND GET MY SECONDS PIERCED.... moooooore tattoos 😂 and reach my weight goal.
Speaking of, off to the gym ✌😘
Oh yeah, works been shit boring. Especially now that I have more jobs and responsibility, things just seem too easy as well with new upper strength lol. Still chatting away with my cute crush every day and night, we are trying to organise a date 🙈 but with both us working and living on opposites sides of the city this is yet to happen. She also has already experienced drunk Dana. So I mean if we are still talking after that, then 👌😍. Peace xx
