Looking for a muse

Dante Falcone | 20 | Multiple Lives | Retrocognition

[faye-clearwater-deactivated2014]

Oh I have nothing to ‘let off.’ I drink for fun.. Pleasure. It’s not a getaway.

[lookingforaxmuse]

Wow, I think you're actually a pretty lucky person if you have no problems. 

[mandyelliot-blog]

"I am. Despite the coffee I am a tad sleepy. I think it is just because it is late. Do you wanna go back to my room and watch movies or something?" She asked, sitting up as she picked at her nails, biting on her lips slightly. She didn’t know what this meant for them, but she didn’t want them to part just yet tonight. 

[lookingforaxmuse]

She was inviting him into her room and mentally he was freaking out. Visint each other's room was a big step right? He didn't know! He wasn't used to this kind of stuff! He tried to keep his panic mental though. "Movies sound great!" He exclaimed in what he hoped was a calm, confident and happy voice. 

[mandyelliot-blog]

"I am full of good ideas. Just stick around and you will see this." She giggled softly and scooted closer to him, grabbing her coffee she took a few last sips before kissing his cheek quickly, letting out a little yawn. Mandy decided that this was her happy place right then and there. 

[lookingforaxmuse]

"I'm not going anywhere any time soon," he chuckled, squeezing her tighter. While she drank her coffee, he finished his own one off before letting out a happy sigh. He didn't remember being this happy in a long time. "You sound tired," he stated noticing her yawn. 

[faye-clearwater-deactivated2014]

Are you implying it’s a bad thing to do?

[lookingforaxmuse]

Not at all. Drinking can hardly be considered bad. Everyone needs to let off right? 

[faye-clearwater-deactivated2014]

Well yeah. Doesn’t everyone?

[lookingforaxmuse]

Well I don't but I guess there are people that do...

[senhoradalluarch]

Don’t worry, I’m in no position to judge, so go ahead, tell me.

[lookingforaxmuse]

Uh no, no...I don't think it would be a good idea for me to say anything.... 

[senhoradalluarch]

Fine, you want to help? Answer me this, when we first met why did you asked if we had seen each other before?

[lookingforaxmuse]

Oh...that. If I told you then you would either think I was a creep or you wouldn't believe me.

[senhoradalluarch]

No, it’s not that simple, sadly. I think it’s better if we don’t talk about it.

[lookingforaxmuse]

What's so complicated about it? Come on, tell me. I can help! 

[senhoradalluarch]

I try to be honest, always, I hate lies. But I haven’t been honest about certain things, with certain people.

[lookingforaxmuse]

If you hate lies then don't lie. It's just that simple right? Well that's ambiguous...

[senhoradalluarch]

I try to be. But I’m not sure if it’s working anymore. I.. I’m sorry.

[lookingforaxmuse]

What do you mean you're not sure it's working anymore? This is entire thing is making very little sense. 

[senhoradalluarch]

No, it’s not. The truth comes out soon or later, and once you tried to hide it, it’s more painful. No it’s not you, I mean it is you, but also not, it’s me, and I know that people always say it’s not you, it’s me, but it’s really me. And I ‘m sorry I can’t explain, it’s just… better this way.

[lookingforaxmuse]

I guess I can't argue with you there. You're really adamant about this whole one hundred percent honesty thing huh? Wow, I think this is the first time that a girl who I wasn't going out with broke up with me. 

[senhoradalluarch]

What? I don’t, no, I mean, I don’t know, I guess not? I just, I don’t know. It doesn’t matter what the reasons are, a lie is a lie. It’s unfair and dishonest….And that’s not who I want to be. Because I can’t stand the people by my side being that way. You just…I think you can help by, keeping your distance, Dante. I’m sorry.

[lookingforaxmuse]

But ignorance is bliss. Trust me, there are somethings that no one should know. Wow...girls don't usually want me to stay away till until I do something weird. I guess my awkward powers are growing. 

[mandyelliot-blog]

Mandy let out a loud giggle when he spoke up, looking at him for a moment. He looked so cute, sitting there chewing his lip looking all nervous. She wasn’t sure why. They had gotten the nerve wracking part over with. Scooting her chair next to his, she leaned against him, her head tucking in against the crook of his neck. “Yes, coffee for sure.” 

[lookingforaxmuse]

A confused look plastered itself onto Dante's face when he saw Mandy move her chair beside his but that was soon replaced with a content smile as he felt her head rest on the crook of his neck. "Coffee was definitely a good idea," he said with a smile. He wrapped one arm around her and sighed happily. 

[mandyelliot-blog]

After a second she pulled away, her eyes wide once again at what she just did. Yeah boys have kissed her before, but on stupid dares when she was younger — situations like that. Nothing like this though had ever happened to her. It felt like she was literally floating, like a spark had left a tingling sensation upon her lips. Biting down on her lower one she pulled it in and looked down at the table with a little giggle, her cheek bright pink. 

[lookingforaxmuse]

When she pulled back, his eyes fluttered and he was lost in thought. It wasn't his first kiss or anything but this was so...different. He couldn't explain it properly, it just felt.....not the same. He stared at his coffee cup for a long while before he shyly looked up at her while he nervously chewed his bottom lip. "So uh....coffee." 

[senhoradalluarch]

That’s just the thing, I guess, I don’t know what it is? I just, I feel like everyone is hiding things? But I don’t know, maybe I’m paranoid, that’s probably just it, right? Yes, that’s it. You want to help? Of course you want to help, sounds like you, I mean, what? I don’t know, I don’t know where that came from, because I wouldn’t know? Know what sounds like you, that is. And I don’t make sense, I’m sorry, I’ll just, I’ll be quiet now.

[lookingforaxmuse]

Well...is that what I sound like when I try to talk to people? Well people just hide things from other people, usually it's because they don't want to expose them to harmful things. I don't know where all those extra words came from but yes, I do want to help in anyway that I can.

[senhoradalluarch]

It’s just crazy stuff with my family, and crazy stuff with my fiance, and just more crazy stuff with…me. God, craziness everywhere, I’m sorry.

[lookingforaxmuse]

Don't apologize but uh having an explanation to all this crazy stuff might be beneficial. Can't help without knowing the details y'know?

[mandyelliot-blog]

Mandy didn’t even realize she was being kissed until about a second in, and she felt like her heart literally skipped a beat. It was a second later that he pulled away, not even giving her a chance to respond. She let out a little breathe she didn’t know she held in, looking at him for a moment her eyes slightly wide. When he was brave, she was brave. So she leaned back towards him and pressed her lips to his. 

[lookingforaxmuse]

Internally he was screaming. Why did he do that!? That was probably the stupidest thing he'd ever done! Why would he ruin a great evening with a beautiful girl who seemed to actually enjoy spending time with him even though he was an awkward weirdo?! He kept thinknig stupid thoughts towards himself until he felt a par of lips meet his. When he realized who's they were, he felt all the tension go away. 'Tonight was a good night' he thought to himself as he kissed back.