carol.

trying to heal | 🇧🇷 | 16yo

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I created this blog to express my feelings, express myself and try to find what I've always been looking for: freedom.

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I'm sorry I'm just can't get through this

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Does ed end when you start eating normally or when your ghastly thoughts cease?

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I'm happy :)

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this feeling of being waiting for something really great.

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Feeling drained

[leonardospoetry]

this search for the essence of who I am

[so1987-deactivated20230102]

ppl that are in the kitchen and had their eating habits scrutinized and criticized you are lovely.

ppl that are socially anxious eating in front of others and can’t socially bond around food you are so worthy and incredible.

ppl that can only eat the same 3 foods every day are awesome take care of yourself.

ppl that have had issues with their body image and unhealthy mentality around ‘healthy’ eating you are so worthy and so loved.

[meanwhilepoetry]

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"she will stay until you learn how to use the knife which cuts your way out."

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I look prettier when I'm happy.

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I fucking love poetry omg.

[kindnotestoself]

I hope you find peace. I hope you stop overthinking. I hope you stop reliving bad memories. I hope you stop doubting yourself. I hope you feel happy again. I hope you start seeing the good in yourself. I hope you start to treat yourself as kindly as you treat others. I hope you’re able to realize you deserve good things.

[lookingforfr3edom]

we will be ok.

[samxcamargo]

Book: Night Drives

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thanks for saving me. I love you

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When I was 12 years old, my best friend at the time told me to get some rest because her aunt was short of breath when she ran because she was fat and, because I'm also fat, I should stay the same way. I can feel today the tightness in my chest and the immense desire to cry that I felt at that moment and in all the others that taxed me for the size of my body.

Over the years I developed anorexia. Comparisons of my weight to my sister's or anyone else's have caused me to feel inferior and worthless. I destroyed myself and the people around me. I keep destroying but for some reason all I want now is to heal. Not going back to being the same as before, but being a new version of all the other "I's" I've been.

I hope it's not a momentary thing and I hope I can achieve the happiness I'm looking for.

I DO NOT DESERVE TO PAY FOR WHAT OTHERS HAVE DONE TO ME.

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these days I had a mental breakdown, something I've been having for three years but that "intentioned" between tuesday and thursday. I don't know how to explain my feelings easily when I talk to someone, but when my mother called me to talk and I opened up to her (even if not completely) I felt relieved, as I hadn't felt in a long time. We don't have the best relationship in the world but I've always seen her as an amazing woman and hearing her tell me that I'm also someone amazing created something inside of me. I feel it.