VOX NIHILI

“What a treacherous thing to believe that a person is more than a person.” ― John Green

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here’s come another phase of losing someone i love..

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the pain

its too much, how can you handle it…

the urge to gave up everytime is on my head

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the regrets

if i know it’ll end like this…

i wouldnt do it.

all i want its a fight with you, where hold me tight and not let me go…

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there’s a lot of ‘why’ i want to ask you

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 I really thought he was my new beginning to my end...

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its missing.

the look on your face isn’t the same as it use to. wondering why.... maybe...just a maybe please comeback i miss it. -190106

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294.

the feeling inside just indescribable. i know its temporary, but why do it feels like forever?

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awarding night.

there we met again small talk and staring the clap, smile and the proud speech

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cups of milk.

the unexpected meeting made me turning back for awhile awkward eye contact the talks and cups of milk in front of us

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the meeting.

library will be my favourite place now the first real ‘hi’ and the handshake the 30 mins chitchat i thank rain for coming that day

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the messages.

it was a jittery feeling when i received it the first ever conversation we had its funny and weird at the same time cause i did some check before about you

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that night.

it was pretty late that day i got a phone call and there i saw you, just  sit and talking you got me turn two times to see clearly

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time passed.

its been two years now i know everything is just temporarily because i found what i find now.

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10.10 PM

“ if you think, i’m going to change my mind to you after this. then, you wrong. bc i’m not. “

thank you for keeping your words.

180113

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171212 3.56PM

We said our goodbye last night.

And it hurts. a little. No but…

Why would it hurts tho?

Its not even a month since we’ve known each other?

weird.

How could you mean so much to me in such a short time?

hm.

There’s many things goin’ on in my head.

Cries.

[lookintothejar]

October, 27th 2017

its 23:28 pm and i miss you.

and its give me a goosebumps.

it was crazy after all this time that we’re not together i start to miss you.

i blame my friend for their story, cz its somehow reminds me about you.

i know my limit, i know.

i’ll just let it way.

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and yap we just met. i see that you look happier, ofc.

just don’t let other bring that sorrow to you again like mine.

live well and be happy, mr. good-guy.

[thelovejournals]

See, we were never about butterflies. We’ve always been about burning stars. All about us is unearthly and radiant.

Anna Akhmatova, Anna Of All The Russias: A Life Of Anna Akhmatova (via wordsnquotes)