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“연예인과 팬은 친구나 가족처럼 매일 보고 쌍방으로 교류하는 건 아니지만 초등학생 때부터 종현한테 영향을 많이 받았어요. 그 친구가 얘기하는 작가나 시를 이해하려고 책을 읽어 보기도 하고, 어떤 노래를 듣고 무슨 느낌이 들었다 하면 노래를 이해하려고 그 가수에 대해 찾아보기도 하고요. 그러면서 다양한 문화생활을 할 수 있었던 거 같아요. 종현의 인터뷰를 보면서 제가 생각하지 못했던 점을 배우기도 했어요. ‘사람을 이해한다’고 하잖아요. 근데 그 친구는 ‘이해’보다는 ‘인정’이라는 말을 좋아해요. 포기한다는 의미로 ‘그래. 너 인정해’ 이러는 게 아니라 상대방을 있는 그대로 받아들인다는 뜻에서 인정이라는 말을 쓴 거죠. ‘아, 저렇게도 생각할 수 있구나.’ ‘저런 생각은 배우면 좋을 거 같다’ 그 친구를 보며 느낀 이런 사소한 것들이 모여서 지금의 제가 만들어진 것 같아요.”

“The relationship between a celebrity and a fan is different from a relationship between friends or family, where you see each other every day and interact with each other. But since I was in elementary school, I was influenced a lot by Jonghyun. If he talked about a certain author or poem, I would read books to try to understand, and if he said he felt some way while listening to a certain song, I’d research that artist to try to understand the song more. While doing that, I was able to learn about a lot of different topics. Through watching his interviews I was also able to learn about things I had never even thought about. You know how people say you should try to ‘understand others.’ But he liked the word ‘accept’ rather than ‘understand.’ Not like, ‘Fine, I accept you,’ like you’re giving up, but ‘accept’ as in you are fully accepting the other person as they are. ‘Oh, I didn’t realize I could think like that too.’ ‘I think it’d be good to learn about that type of thinking.’ I think all the little things I felt while watching him made me into the person I am today.”

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“내가 스물한 살에 한글을 처음 배웠어요. 글을 늦게 배웠지만 내가 뭘 잘 썼냐하면, 연애편지를 기가 막히게 잘 썼어요. 물론 지금 옛날 식으로 연애편지 쓰면 ‘아이고 너무 고리타분하다’ 그럴 거예요. 옛날에는 유식해보이게 사자성어를 많이 썼거든요. 예를 들면 해로동혈. 백년을 같이 살다가 한 무덤에 들어간다는 뜻이에요. 연애편지에 이런 걸 양념삼아 쓰면 껌뻑 죽어요. 내가 스물 서너살쯤이었나. 같이 브로치 장사 했던 이홍섭이라는 애가 있었는데 당시 홍섭이가 조선방직이라는 큰 회사 다니는 아가씨를 꼬시려고 하는 거야. 결혼할 때까지 내가 연애편지를 대신 써줬어요. 그 이후로 세월이 많이 지났죠. 어느날 부모님 모셔놓은 합천 산소를 다녀오는데 친구한테 전화가 온 거예요. 홍섭이가 암으로 죽었다고. 나는 부산에 있는 친구가 죽었다 하면 지금이라도 내려가는 사람이에요. 그래서 바로 장례식에 갔죠. 영정 앞에서 ‘야 친구야, 어떻게 이렇게 허무하게 가냐’ 하고 넋두리를 하다가, 바람 쐬려고 밖에 나갔어요. 근데 홍섭이 마누라가 따라 나와 이렇게 말하대요. ‘아저씨 참 고맙습니다, 서울에서 여기까지 와주시고. 근데 내가 아저씨한테 딱 한가지 물어볼 게 있어요. 옛날에 우리 애기 아버지하고 연애할 때 그 편지 아저씨가 썼었죠?’ 어유…나는 놀랐죠. 모를 줄 알았는데. 자긴 다 알고 있었대요, 처음부터. 기분이 좀 이상하대.”

“I learned Hangul for the first time when I was 21 years old. Though I learned late, I wrote quite well, especially love letters. Of course if I try to write a love letter like that today people would say, "Wow, how old fashioned.” Back then, we’d write with four-character idioms to try and seem educated. For example, ‘Hae Ro Dong Hyul.’ It means being buried together in one grave after being together for your whole lives. Spicing up a love letter with something like this was sure to be a killer. When I was 23 or 24, I worked with this kid Hong-seob Lee in the brooch business. Back then, Hong-seob was trying to date this girl who worked at a big company called Joseon Textile Manufacturing. I wrote love letters for him until they married. It’s been a long time since then. One day, after coming back from visiting the Hapcheon graveyard, where my parents are buried, a friend called me. Said Hong-seob had passed away from cancer. If any of my Busan friends pass away, I’m the kind of person who still goes all the way to see them off. So I went straight to the funeral. I talked a bit in front of his memorial picture, saying, ‘Ah, friend, how could you go like this?’ and such. Then I went outside to get some air. Hong-seob’s wife followed me out, and said, “Thank you for coming all the way from Seoul. I just have one question for you. Back then when Hong-seob and I were dating, you wrote those letters, right?” Whew, was I surprised. I thought she’d never know. She said she had known all along, from the very beginning. That felt a little strange.“

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SEEK MAGAZINE VOL.15

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some jaehyun for @nctyuno; happy birthday allie!! ♡

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a SHInee night at Kibum’s house

#key #keyho #minho

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Happy Birthday Jonghyun 💖 Beautiful soul and sweetest pup you’re loved always and forever 💖

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”…But I had some wine that day too.” | © trans

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Missing you

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jonghyun’s laugh(ing face) → for @shineetho ♡

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our celestial jonghyun, shining on. (source)

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The French called this time of day “l’heure bleue.” To the English it was “the gloaming.” The very word “gloaming” reverberates, echoes—the gloaming, the glimmer, the glitter, the glisten, the glamour—carrying in its consonants the images of houses shuttering, gardens darkening, grass-lined rivers slipping through the shadows. During the blue nights you think the end of day will never come. As the blue nights draw to a close (and they will, and they do) you experience an actual chill, an apprehension of illness, at the moment you first notice: the blue light is going, the days are already shortening, the summer is gone.

Joan Didion, Blue Nights (via alighthouseofwords)

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