The rfa + v and saeran trying to help mc with her recovery from anorexia? (Sorry if it's too dark I'm just projecting atm. But I adore your blog and your headcannons rock! Thanks a bunch for your hard work :) )
Oh my goodness, never apologise for this! If it’s alright, I’d like to call you recovery anon? But you chose the right place to come to! That’s because I actually used to suffer from anorexia, so I know what you’re going through. I know how it feels to feel like there’s no point and no hope, so please don’t apologise for reaching out! If you ever need to talk about anything, we’re here to talk.- Krys
RFA Boys + V and Saeran Helping MC’s Recovery from Anorexia
He loved to cook dinner for the both of you, and you loved his cooking
But over time he noticed that when he washed the dishes you would leave bits of food untouched when you would always clean your plate in the past
At first, it was no big deal, he just figured you weren’t as hungry
Just a bit of food here and there
But over time, it grew to be more than half
The next day at dinner, he noticed that you would mindlessly push the food around on your plate, barely taking a bite
He didn’t want to confront you about it, but he just had to know
He was worried you might be sick or something
When he asked, you broke down in tears and confessed to everything
You felt like you had no control over this and just seemed to feel better to the alternative of gaining weight
He was shocked, but not by any means mad.
He promised to help you by any means he could
So, when you agreed to the recovery program, he was ecstatic
They gave you a meal plan, starting small and growing larger
So he cooked those meals for you and would sit with you while you ate
You were reluctant at first, but every time you finished your food, he would give you encouragement and lots of hugs and kisses
After a few months, you were finally back to your normal weight
He was so happy for you that he picked you up and spun you around
Your mood also drastically improved and your energy level was back to normal
He finally had his happy s/o back
Even so, he was still a little cautious and would invite you to his clinic on most days to have lunch with him
He wanted to make sure that something like this would never happen again
He had already lost one member of his family, and he didn’t want to lose another
One day, when he came home to find you mindlessly baking and singing and dancing to songs in your headphones, he knew that he didn’t have to worry anymore
He hugged you from behind and kissed your cheek
He was just happy that everything was finally back to the way it was
He first found out one night when he had wrapped his arms around you as you settled in for bed that night
For the first time ever, he could feel your ribcage just by simply brushing his hands over your small frame
much smaller than he remembered
You would always wear baggy clothes that would hide your figure, but he just thought that was what you preferred, so he never questioned it
At breakfast the next morning he noticed that he was the only one eating
He just had to know why you were doing this to yourself
So when you broke down in tears telling him, everything made sense
But he still didn’t know why you would do this to yourself
He didn’t understand why the most beautiful being in the world would starve themselves
When you told him that it was because you felt awkward and out of place next to him because of your weight he just took you into his arms and gave you a long kiss
He blamed himself for it, but he would never tell you that
He just assured you that you were wrong and that you would always be the most beautiful being on earth to him
When you said that you wanted to get help he was behind you 100%
He just didn’t want you to harm your body like this
He would celebrate every little milestone
When you cleaned your plate for the first time, when you went a week without missing a meal, two weeks, a month
All were calls for celebration
When you passed 110 pounds for the first time, he almost cried for you
He took you out to dinner the next day and watched in satisfaction as you triumphantly ate as much as you could
He was so happy to finally see the light back in your eyes after it having been gone for so long
When you asked for pizza for the first time in almost a year, he would’ve climbed mountains if that’s what it took to get it for you
He smiled in satisfaction when, for the first time in a long time, he couldn’t feel your ribs anymore
You were back to the person he knew and loved
And he knew that this trial that you had gone through had only made you stronger
It had made your relationship stronger, too
If you could get through this, you could both get through anything
He always had bought you clothes that were tailored to your exact measurements
But he had noticed that they had started to fit you slightly big
He figured that you had just lost a bit of weight
He didn’t understand why, you were absolutely beautiful to him
But everyone’s weight fluctuates so he didn’t think much of it
However, one day, he noticed when you were getting dressed that you had gone down entire sizes in a matter of months
He had no choice but to confront you about it
Something wrong was obviously happening here
At first, you didn’t want to tell him
He was going to be disappointed
But then you realised that you had married this man
He loved you for better or for worse, right?
That’s what your vows said, anyways
So you caved and let everything out
You had been avoiding your meals when he wasn’t here
Or taking them and throwing them out
Or just eating the bare minimum
You had gotten so caught up in explaining and stumbling over your words that you didn’t even notice that you had begun to cry
He didn’t yell at you or anything, though
He just took you in his arms and held you close until you calmed down
He covered your face in kisses and told you everything was going to be alright as he kissed your tears away
He promised that you would get better
He made his personal chef swear to secrecy and design a meal plan to help with your recovery
He didn’t want you to feel embarrassed about this, so he made sure that this wouldn’t get out
Any time you would relapse or try to put up a fight he would assure you that it was okay. He wouldn’t get mad at you and would tell you that you can just start again,
He always makes sure that you eat as much as you can, though
He just wants you to be healthy again
Eventually, when your old clothes fit again he made sure to compliment you every single day telling you how beautiful you were and that you were perfect no matter how you looked
He knew what it was like to be unhealthy
After all, he practically lived on a steady diet of Honey Buddha Chips and Doctor Pepper
But this was something that he had never expected
He wished that he had paid more attention; that he hadn’t been taken up by work so much of the time
Maybe then, he would’ve been able to see how skinny you’d gotten
He did a lot of research after you had come clean about it
He finally understood your obsession with being in the kitchen and why you liked to cook and bake so much for him and Saeran but never seemed to eat any of it
He blamed himself for it and kept swearing to you that he would help you and that he would so whatever it took to get you better
After a while, he had programmed Robo Cat to take care of you whenever he couldn’t
It reminded you to eat at nine, noon, and six
But it wasn’t often that he wasn’t around
After you told him he made sure to devote as much time to you as possible
He practically never let you out of his sight
Even joked with you about something happening to you in the shower and that he has to protect you
You just laughed it off and pushed him out saying that you would be fine
He liked to take you out to walk down the streets and to small cafes
He always knew that you had a weakness for coffee
On days when you got tired of fighting he would simply hold you close and not let go
He would tell you that it was okay that you felt weak but that you had to keep going
He would remind you of how far you had come and would give you encouragement
And one day, he didn’t have to do that anymore
You had reached and even slightly surpassed your highest weight
To say that he was proud of you would be an understatement
Honestly, he would’ve thrown you a party if you had let him
But he did get you a small cake
And watched in satisfaction as you dug in
He hated himself for not noticing
He loved you, so how could he just let himself gloss over this?
He couldn’t believe that even though you chided him on not missing meals and staying on top of his health, both physically and mentally
He couldn’t believe that this illness, this silent killer, had taken hold of you
He knew, for one thing, that he would not put you in a hospital
He knew what that was like, and he wasn’t going to do that to you
Of course, that was just common sense
He did the one thing he wouldn’t normally do
He asked the other members of the RFA for help
With your permission of course
He didn’t really know how to deal with this
But he was still with you every step of the way, no questions asked
He was there when you were at you best and at your worst
He was there when you would beat yourself up for the way that you were
And he always let you get all your feelings out
He learned the hard way that holding them all in wasn’t the right thing to do
He would ask you every day how you were feeling and made sure that you would tell him the truth
He didn’t want you to sugar coat how you were doing because then he wouldn’t be able to help you get through it
Usually, he had to wake you up to eat
But one day he woke up to find you already sitting at the table with breakfast set out in front of you
If he could pick out a moment where he knew things were looking up, it would’ve been that very one
Ordinarilly, he wasn’t one for initiating affection
But that didn’t stop him from giving you a kiss right then and there
He was just so happy that things were finally starting to smooth out again
He knew that, from here, maybe things would get better
But he was sure that, if they didn’t, he would do whatever he had to to get you better
Admittedly, he hadn’t noticed outright
Your weight changes had been so gradual that he might’ve never known
It wasn’t until he was editing some photos for his portfolio that he began to notice your drastic change in appearance
Your cheeks used to be much fuller and it was obvious that your frame was much smaller
Now, you seemed to be more sharp angles
He had already seen one person he was in love with deteriorate before eyes
He was determined to help you in any way he could so that it wouldn’t happen to you too
When you walked into his studio he asked you about the change
Calmly, so that it didn’t seem as if he were mad at you
He never liked confrontation
Of course, you denied everything
You couldn’t handle being found out
But a few days later, when you had fained from lack of nutrients, you had no choice but to accept help
You stayed in the hospital for somewhere around two months, tethered to an IV fluid drip, and eating at normal times
All throughout that, V never left your side
You thought that he would’ve left a long time ago
You didn’t want him to see you like this
You felt ugly in his eyes
But he assured you that it was impossible
It didn’t matter to him how you looked
All he wanted you to be was healthy
So you promised to take care of yourself better and he promised to look out for you as best he could
You often ate together after you left the hospital and you would bring him lunch on days he was working hard
He was so happy that you were finally back to eating regularly and on time
He admitted to you that every day you were in the hospital that he was terrified for you
You felt awful for making him feel like that
But you gave him a kiss and promised him that he would never have to worry for you like that again
Recovery Anon, I really hope you liked this and found comfort from it. If you ever need to talk, I’m here for you. I really tried my best to make this as good as I possibly could, and I poured my heart and soul into it.
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