Weight Loss Journey

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Feb 13th

I’ve had a lot happen since my last post. I am still enjoying my bullet journal. I have a puppy on my lap at the moment. I am setting up a house system to get all the tasks done. As my executive dysfunction often demands I am starting to be overwhelmed by my different projects I have started so I am going to go room by room and refocus. I am going to set up the extra room as my “Ready Room” because I don’t like the sound of Dressing room. I’ve no idea why. I prefer Ready Room so my Ready Room or RR it will be. 😊

I am down a lot and I am happy. Which is the focus of this blog I know, but I don’t want to get into those specifics right now. I’m hungry and avoiding my food which is a Boo! I will eat when I’m done with this post. I’m enjoying the things that make me happy. I’m audiobooking, set up a DND group, talking to friends, playing games, organizing my spaces, and just enjoying life as it is.

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October 23rd

I ordered salad and it was made wrong so I ordered another and reported the issue so hopefully I will get a refund on the salad.

My nails are gone other than my thumbs and pinkies since those are the harder ones to grow out. My pinkie is the length I want to keep it at but my thumbs are still too short. I ordered some Fox and Lily nail stickers which are one their way.

Watching Legacies S2 so there is that. I lost my StepBet because I kept forgetting. Although I have been moving more and I am -3 lbs so I will be close to where I was last christmas, which is what I want! The thing about my weight in the last year is that I’ve kept it at around the same and haven’t gained a ton.

I’ve been using Zinnia for my bujo and I’m loving it. I’ve been using it since July. I like the templates and the fact that I can print out the pages and have multiple notebooks for different topics which is perfect. I have one for me, work, my hubby, pet sitting and information, knitting, and pen pals.

I “made” a game based off of one I was playing - 1 deck of cards. Pick 1 at a time and match them. If you get all 4 Kings you lose but if you get all 4 J and Qs you reshuffle the Ks into the deck. If you get a set, one K goes back into the deck. Simple and also nothing that requires a lot of brain power.

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October 18th

I’m finding that when I take time for myself in the morning I have better days. My bullet journal has been amazing. I went digital in July and I’m finding that it’s easier to set up whenever I have spare time vs squeezing it in at night when I’m exhausted and don’t want to use a ruler etc. I was having weeks of blank pages. And now I have one occasionally but not too often. And I’ve taken on a fill in approach where I look at what I got done and add it to the spread. It means I don’t have to have a super planned out day to be productive. I also haven’t really designed spreads which makes it easier. I’ve adjusted the ones from studio but I haven’t made my own yet. I’ve been finding what I want. My latest one is scanning coloring pages and coloring them digitally so I can save my pages and color them.

My nails are growing! I’ve had the want to bite them but I’ve been choosing not to. I grow them out occasionally and in the past, it’s been about 2 months that I keep them before I have anxiety and they’re gone…. So I’ve been going to the nail salon to keep them from being ingrown and I’ve a small but growing collection of nail polishes started. Yes they’re all blue and purple. Because I’m boring. But also because I don’t want colors I’m using once a year. I have Halloween stickers that glow in the dark I’m going to bring them this weekend when I get my nails done. I’ve never really been “girly” so this is to keep my nails out. I’m enjoying going! It’s not nearly as “girly” as people make it out to be. There’s this cute old couple that goes together. The guy gets his feet done and his wife gets a mani-pedi. And then there was a Grandpa taking his granddaughter. She was so excited to go with him! It was adorable.

I’ve to get ready for work - have a good day all!

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Cat loves touching the revolving door

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October 7th

I’ve been getting on the scale every morning. I’m not sure if it’s helpful yet. That balance between being helpful and harmful is very thin but I’m very aware if it so I’ll decide soon.

It’s Fall so I immediately have allergy issues. But I found a trail I like and I’ve been on two walks this week. Joined a step bet and getting myself active again is something to focus on.

Building my bow today so that should help me be more active. Get in some arm strength as well! I get to make my arrows too.

I picked my next project- clean the bathroom closet. I never go into it! So I’m going to minimize. Bring up my supplies and have it be more functional instead of just a junk storage spot. I’m trying to get into a more minimalist style around the house. Not fully because I’m me, but getting rid of a lot of stuff makes the weight of the house lighter.

Binge eating and hoarding are known to go together so I’m working on that.

I’m also working on having a better morning routine so I can be awake and more attuned to my day.

6:20-6:45am Awake but resting

7:00-7:35 Shower or Free time

7:35-7:45 Pack for the day + Do hair

7:45-8:05 Journaling + Breakfast/Make tea

8:05-8:10 Feed cat + Shoes + Water

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October 2nd 2021

TW- Medical:

I am back down to 95.2 which is very close to where I was (94.8) last December so I am going to start from here and keep going. I had my oral surgery.

We did a skin graft from the top of my mouth to my gums because I had a muscle that was pulling them down causing decrease there. The top of my mouth seems to be healing well and I will know about the front on Monday when the Periodontist takes the plaster out. My Mom said she noticed that I was speaking better. I’ve always had pronunciation issues, partly because of my teeth, partly because I lived in Europe and picked up some of the language variations there. If I decided to speak in my British accent it may go away but in my American accent - not so much. I tend to speak as I hear. My family didn’t pick this up and sometimes people think I’m mocking them. I’m not, I just pick up that way. I’ve been on soft food diet and I’m okay with what I’ve been having although it’s not the best for my stomach. Having some upset sometimes and when I have pancakes, the scale doesn’t seem to move. I’ve been having a lot of applesauce, some jello, pancakes (I need to switch to the GF instead of ordering in) and pot pies. I think if I reduce my gluten intake to just the pot pie at lunch I should do a bit better. Working with my nutritionist has been one of the best things I’ve ever done. I tried some nutritionists when I was younger and they were terrible and boring. It was about the food and not the behavior. Now we work on both. Even when I’m on soft food diet she helps me stay on course. I am down 25 lbs from when we started last October.

I am loving the fact that my nails are growing again but I have to get used to the idea that I will have to go to a salon to help me with my pinkies. The nails curve a bit and it hurts. I wonder if I see my foot Dr if he can help me the way he did before. There is a chemical you can use to help the nails grow properly. Since I rarely have nails, I have no idea how to shape them to decrease the pain from the ingrown. I’m not sure how to ask for help with the curve in my pinkies without being harassed that my nails are really short. I mean, that’s where nails start isn’t it? So let me alone. <- Social anxiety at it’s finest. Any ideas? Something specific to ask for? Ingrown nails are really painful!

Knitting:

I made my first cowl - which is too big length wise so I’ll say it’s a short scarf vs a cowl. I need to block it which I’ve been procrastinating learning the process for 2 years, this will be unavoidable. I’m now making a baby scarf which is adorable. I was gifted a baby knitting book and I am looking forward to doing the patterns inside of it. I joined a knitting guild that comes together weekly - either on Zoom or Social Distance knitting outside. It’s been a good outlet. I’m not a fan of the “YouTube” outlook - oh just go to YouTube and you’ll learn. No. It is a resource. Not a one size fits all learning technique. I learn hands-on and that’s something we haven’t been able to have for almost 2 years. I’ve been knitting that long, a bit longer.

Archery:

I will be picking up my bow today when we go to drop off packages this PM. I am very excited since next week (October 10th-16th) I will be with the ladies group. I have to finish my sign up so I can get my pieces. I am having lag on name specifics right now but I think as I get into the sport more, I will get better with that. I am hoping that my mouth will be healed enough and Doctor will clear me for classes! Because you have to rest your hand under your jaw, I need to be medically cleared to shoot.

Work:

I am working with a beautiful baby girl! She is 3.5 months and we are getting along wonderfully. Officially sleep training. It’s an addiction the baby snuggles! But it’s time to let her sleep in the crib as much as possible. So that will be all-consuming on duty but also fun! I love that I can relax while I am at work. I love and miss my Squirrels but time moves forward and so must I. 🥰

Bujo:

I’ve started digital bullet journaling with Zinnia. I’m liking the template spreads and starting to make them into what works for me. I would like to add some more on the creative side but that is all extra. I am enjoying my pen as well - just a basic one; nothing fancy.

Be Well!

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July 15th or something

I went swimming today and walked down the dock to the river. Hoping to get in another swim later and then throw my shorts and tanks in the wash and dryer and repeat.

I bought myself a bikini 👙 and I feel like - yep there it goes. IT WAS AN ITSY BUTSY TEENY WEENY YELLOW POLKA DOT BIKINI THAT SHE WORE FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY

I’ve never worn a bikini before so I’m thinking once it fits in maybe 10 lbs which I think I can lose on this trip, that I will go swimming. In my bikini.

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June 27th

I’m pretty sure my rats nest weighs 5 lbs at this point. I’ve been trying to get it out and it’s just so painful I can’t on my own again. I will have to ask my SIL later today which is fine with me. I like having my hair played with and she likes playing with hair so it’s a match. I’m sure I’m not the only one who has hair tangled this badly.

I was getting some of it out the other day but my goodness I am very tempted to pull out my scissors and just cut it alllll off and deal with it that way. In a I’m tired of my head hurting because of my hair way.

People refer to Britney Spears shaving her head as a mental breakdown and yet now it’s all the rage to just shave your head anyway - put some heart beat or pattern in it and no one blinks twice. Why are we still only referring to hers as a breakdown about her hair? That wasn’t the actual breakdown. That was tabloids being sexist about the length of a woman’s hair to “determine her sanity.” Yep I am hoping she wins this court battle. I mean her stuff has been about being controlled for years. We all know it. Anyway - hair cut connection and my brain this morning.

I don’t want to weigh in but I was supposed to yesterday and I didn’t 😅 so with my rats nest hair I shall …. In a few minutes.

My archery bruise is almost gone - just in time for me to have another lesson and produce another one 😂 I haven’t don’t anything mention worthy this week. In fact I’ve been overly lazy.

It was our anniversary so there’s that. 🥰

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June 17th

My 3rd archery lesson has produced this. And it’s my issue right because my arms are a bit thicker than most at the moment so not many arm guards will fit. It reminds me when I am in the wrong position. Reminds me harshly I must add. Because um. Ouch. I am wondering if the weird circular project (my first circular one) will end up being an arm band to help the bruises. It’s a bit darker than the photo. Haha. Raised and painful. It’s part of the stance that is important to give my time and focus to. It sounds weird but I want the calluses on my bow fingers so that I can work the bow the way I need to without the finger guard. It’s weird and I don’t like not feeling the actual bow.

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June 16th

I have been taking some archery lessons - I am on lesson #3 tomorrow. I had 2 this week because of scheduling. I am really enjoying it. I think I am very bland compared to other people who take the lessons. I don’t really ask questions…. I am a do hands on and practice kind of learner. I can’t say I wasn’t disappointed that my Coach doesn’t use the targets. I get his reasoning but I am disappointed. LOL

I love that I can feel the muscles working after. It is definitely a new sport for me and I love it. I can feel it today much more than the first lesson. The first lesson I was probably a bit overwhelmed. I don’t relax very often. I was shocked because my friend is buying me a bow! And they are an investment to say the least! However the bow is made for me and the arrows will also be made for my bow.

As of the nutrition I’m working hard with my nutritionist. We are working through a lot and I have made a lot of progress.

I am very excited to continue archery because it keeps me standing straighter, builds my muscles and makes me sweat. I know a lot of people don’t like sweating but that means I am burning my calories - also I am adding to my step count by going to get the arrows in the range. I am using a recurve. I am adjusting to the hold - I think I might be a bit slower than most adults maybe but there is a lot to remember and I am only on lesson #2 today so I don’t know if I’m slower than usual or if I’m just learning. I’m going with I am learning.

I am also adding to my day trips - zoo and the Villiage as well as weekend trips with friends (with masks and distancing; we are both vaccinated). I am specifically asking to do things outside so that we are walking more and more active. I have to make a plan for food honestly. I’m thinking -

Egg whites 4x

Mini luna bar

carrots and hummus with 2 turkey slices

Mini luna bar

Salad

Evening snack

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Three days later 🤦🏼‍♀️

The results of my subway test is that basically the protein bowl has very little lettuce in it but still enough to say it’s a salad.

Our subway does the really annoying thing where they dump in a ton of Mayo. Dude why. No one. NO. ONE wants it packed like that!

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I want to know what the difference between a salad bowl and a protein bowl at Subway is so let’s see if they accept my order be then I will post photos of both. So far my theory has uncovered price difference- protein bowl extras are 2x more than salad…. I should’ve done both and seen what they did for the extra cost but I’m being cheap 😂

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Setting up my movement trackers for the summer. Hoping to get back into my tracking and moving more. Took my first archery class today! Woot. I am right handed but left eyed…. It sounds weird I know but I think I did much better than when I tried right handed in the past. I know why I had HUGE bruises on my arms in HS. This is why they took away archery in schools. Because the teachers don’t care enough to teach it AND the kids don’t care to be responsible for it. Waving arrows everywhere and walking on the range to get arrows.

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April 13th

Haven’t written in a while - as usual I’ve been focused on a lot of things. Life is like that right. Anyway, today is nutorious for being hard for me since it’s my brother’s birthday. He would’ve been 32 today. Since I don’t really talk about it often - especially on here. He passed away in 2006. It was sudden. Some years are better than others. What I wanted to say was that it’s okay to mourn even so many years later, because that loss is what makes their life. If I didn’t have sad days anymore I’d feel like he was truly gone. Some years I have a wonderful day. I celebrate with my family and kids and just have fun. And other years it’s tough for me to get through. I don’t know which today will be but I am going to be good to my body.

I added 64 oz of tea to my routine. I’m not doing so well with the food part but I’m working on it. Shark week doesn’t help. I got a trampoline for when I reach my next long term goal -65 because it was a good price and I wanted to have a fun prize to tempt me to it.

I’ve to get ready for work now but I am very very excited to get to my goal so I can jump on the trampoline!! I’ve been looking up videos for trampoline workouts. It’s hard to contain my inner Tigger. He’s my favorite.

Off to pack my lunch for work - carrots. Hummus. 4 Eggs. P3 and 2 apples with PB

Be well - I want today to be awesome. I might order cupcakes for me and the Squirrels. 🥰 Or we might have a celebratory apple and PB party.

Note before I pop off - I am -30 lbs from October. I’ve been a bit stuck but I’m working with a nutritionist to get through.

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March 10th

I admit it - I’ve been drinking caprisun pouches. And after the 20th time Miss G2 asked me when I was drinking that? I drank it 😂 I know it’s not water. I know they’re jot the best for you but essentially it’s watered down juice. 15 whatever of sodium and 60 calories, I’m taking it at the moment. I NEED to have something that’s not specifically water. It’s helping me stay hydrated. And then I will move into water zones. I build.

And then I stare at the poor dog who is farting so hard she’s shaking 😳 and love the laughter I’m hearing from the girls outside. It’s beautiful.

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Feb 20th 2021

I broke my tailbone the other week and I’m just in a lot of pain today. Hips, butt. Can’t sit can’t lay down. Can’t stand. Pain. Just lots of pain. Not doing well with my dieting. Headaches. Bad habits. 😞 I’ll get through this and I’ll talk more about it later. Wanted to do a short update.

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Feb 9th

Been a while since I was on so I’m down 35 lbs. 🎉🎉

Last night I was super stressed and I ate more than I should. I felt horrible last night and then I took a breath and said Okay, tomorrow is a new day.

This isn’t to say I am excusing the behavior but rather that I understood the reasoning and next time I will prep to do better. Finding alternatives to binging is the answer. My body will give me whatever natural consequences it needs to for me to keep going. My stomach hasn’t been too bad today! Might change, might be okay until later but if it gets upset then that’s what’s what.

We had an appointment super early this morning which of course I forgot my lunch 🤦🏼‍♀️ So I found what I could and had 2 apples and 2 PB to go cups this morning and then 3 ham/cheese roll ups with mayo (no bread). I’m hitting a good range and I have salads at home.

On track to be back on track. Forgiving yourself for bad or stressing days comes with the loss! I also didn’t weigh in this morning but that was a middle between needing to head out and not wanting to know the damage of my overeating.

I can feel the anxiety from it but I’m doing alright so far. Easy AM so far and hoping the PM will be the same.

Be well!