My weight loss journey

I'm just another insecure girl blogging about her attempts at killing fat.

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Before and after military diet. Official weight loss logged: 3.6lbs I weighed in this morning at 181.6lbs despite being in the 170s the other day. Weird. Butttt I am so proud of myself because I stuck to this diet perfectly and didn't slip up even once! Might do it again soon :)

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Day 2 of the Military Diet was a success!

Didn’t break my diet even once for the last two days and I am so proud of myself! I didn’t work out at all, which is bumming me out, both mentally and physically, but I’m really scared that if I do, my cravings will go into overdrive. Because normally, when I workout, I feel so hungry afterwards that even if I eat proteins or post workout food, I’ll still risk breaking my diet, and I really don't want to do that, especially since I am so close to successfully finishing it.

Tomorrow is the last day of the diet, and I think it should get easier, because I’m kind of used to this diet now, and I’ll be pretty busy most of the day tomorrow running errands and whatnot. Day 4 in the morning, I’ll weigh in and see my official results. My official starting weight before this diet was 185.2lbs, and this morning, I weighed in at 178.8lbs but I feel like that’s too good to be true. Even if I don’t lose anymore, I’m pretty happy with the weight-loss so far.

I’m planning for a week of maintenance of whatever weight I reach for my final weigh-in, followed by a cheat day. I don’t plan on going overboard, but I plan on eating everything I want so long as I stay under 1800 calories, which I feel is pretty reasonable for a cheat day. Then I’m planning on 5 days of the Japanese diet. It’s actually meant to be 2 weeks long, but I’ve been on it before, and it’s pretty repetitive and boring, and I’ll risk breaking it and gaining back more weight than I’ve lost.

for the 2 week Japanese diet, you;re expected to lose around 20lbs, but considering that a lot of it is water weight, and that I will have lost most of that weight on the military diet, I should lose anywhere between 3-5lbs. 7 at most. I honestly don’t expect to lose more than 3-5 though, depending on how my body responds.

I honestly am looking forward to getting down below 170, because I know it will really start to show around that weight, that i have been losing. The thing I am looking forward to the most, is having people who haven’t seen me in a long time finally see me and reacting. 

I have huge issues with my mother, one of them being her always making me feel insecure about myself and always boasting about her great figure and weight. She’s currently 174 at 5′8′’ (I know this because she makes sure that I know this) and she’s a mother of 4 (a terrible one at that, but not the point). Her BMI is 26.5, and for me to be at that BMI I have to be 169lbs. For me, the sweetest victory will be to weigh 169lbs or less and to stop rubbing her weight in my face after asking for mine, and without her saying “yeah but I’m taller, so even though you weigh less, I’m still skinnier.” Fucking cunt.

Another thing I’m looking forward to is wearing a lot for the clothes I have with more ease, confidence, and better fit. I’ve been thinking of getting rid of a lot of them because they no longer fit properly, but if I get down to 160, it will no longer be an issue.

Also, I’m taking a semester off of school to focus on my music more intensively. One of the things I am REALLY excited for, is the performances and the pretty dresses, especially around Christmas. Playing a one of Chopin’s nocturnes or one of Tchaikovsky's pieces from the nutcracker or swan lake, in some pretty lace or crushed velvet dress. It’s always been one of my mini dreams.

Anyway, tomorrow I will post a progress report along with my morning weight. Thursday, I will do the same, but with after photos. I hope there is a difference.

Goodnight, Tumblr! <3 :*

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184.4LBS!!!!!

I have no idea how I lost 0.8lbs since this morning, because a lot of the things on this diet are supposed to be high in sugar and sodium, and should make me retain water, so I know what was lost isn’t entirely water weight.

0.8lbs is the equivalent of 2800 calories, and I consumed approximately 1400 calories. With my metabolism, to maintain my weight I need to eat approximately 2000 calories a day. Cutting only 600, I technically should have lost 0.17lbs. Especially since I weighed myself this morning AFTER going to the bathroom if you catch my drift, so it was actual weight-loss, I suspect.

 Whatever this diet is meant to do, it’s working. I don’t know if I will in fact lose 10lbs in 3 days on this diet, but I’m definitely losing more than I technically should be, so that’s a big win for me already. 

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Successful first day

I didn’t work out like a planned, but I stuck to my diet to the T perfectly.

I also didn’t take photos of my food like I would have liked, but it slipped my mind.

So far so good. I had to push through certain cravings, but it’s not as bad as I expected it to be. I know the calorie intake is going to increase for the next two days, so I expect it will get harder. But, tomorrow, I’m keeping pretty busy, so It should be a little easier to handle.

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Military diet

So there is this diet, where I am supposed to lose 10 pounds in 3 days. I have no clue if it works, but I’m sure as hell am going to give it a try. A lot of people online swear by it, and others thing it’s complete bullshit. I just weighed in at 188.8, and then I wont weigh in again until the 4th day, which is the morning after it’s all over, and i’ll see my results.

I bought everything I need for the diet today, and I’m going to stick to it precisely.

I will be posting meal photos for the next three days for external perspective. 

Wish me luck! :)

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187.4 yesterday, but 185.2 today

So I weighed myself in yesterday, and I weighed in at 187.4lbs. I weighed in today after at least 2 significantly sized bowel movements, a low key workout, and a decent night's sleep and weighed 185.2lbs. I also ate clean as hell for the last 2 days. I could have eaten cleaner, but I'm definitely making progress with my habits. I still need to work on my water consumption, but I'm eating a LOT of water based foods.

Portion control is the least of my worries right now. I've been eating a lot, but mainly tomatoes, spinach, fresh pineapple, cucumbers, and apples.

Some other foods I've eaten  (and these are the foods I forced myself to control my portions): 3 ounces of pasta, chicken broth, cereal (honey bunches of oats) with whole milk, oatmeal banana protein pancakes with honey (recipe below), I had chicken thai noodle salad yesterday at a restaurant, which was amazing, but I only finished half, including all the grilled chicken. I also had 3 handfuls of sunflower seeds, which is obviously a lot less than 3 handfuls after you crack the shells open. I am well aware of the high calorie content in them, so I tread lightly. I indulged myself, and let myself have a piece of caramel chocolate from a box of chocolates from valentines day, but just one. 

Flour-less protein pancakes (The most amazing thing you will ever taste):

Ingredients:

1 banana (this is sort of optional. It makes the pancakes moist, but if you really hate bananas, opt. for butter, but they wont be as healthy)

half a cup - 3/4 of a cup of rolled oats (depending on the size of the banana, consistency may vary, but shouldn't be greatly affected)

3 eggs (I used jumbo)

cinnamon (I put in a lot usually, but this part is optional)

Brown sugar (optional. It changes the flavor a bit, and a little goes a long way)

Toppings: 

Honey

fruit

Tools:

a blender (I use a hand held blender with the special cup it comes with)

Pan

Spatula

Instructions: 

break the banana into quarters with your hands

add the rest of the ingredients

blend together until even and smooth

heat a pan to medium heat on a stove

spray with nonstick cooking oil 

pour about a third of the mixture into the pan 

DO NOT SPREAD THE MIXTURE OVER THE PAN, THIS WILL MAKE IT DIFFICULT TO FLIP THE PANCAKE

wait about a minute, then test the pancake with your spatula by gently trying to get it under the pancake. If this process is anything but smooth, it's not ready to flip yet. If your spatula gets under without a problem, it is time to gently flip. 

Do the same for the other side before taking it off the stove. 

be careful not to burn them in this process. There is no set time, because heat varies per stove, and per burner.

repeat until you have used all of the mixture.

Now they are ready to eat! They're not too sweet, but have a hint of sweetness and lot of flavor, without being overwhelming.

I always add a little bit of honey on top, which is a great alternative to maple syrup, which is a lot less consistent with the same amount of calories. I find I use less honey than maple syrup always, and it tastes a lot better with these pancakes than maple syrup does.

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Restarting

I desperately want to get down to 150lbs. So much has changed, and I just want to make myself happy and move on with my life. I lost weight once before, and I can do it again.

Quick recap of my life since I last blogged my health/weight loss:

I moved due to my parents' separation and started at a new community college, and am currently looking to transfer to a four year school. I gained about 10 pounds back since august and I am currently 185 pounds, despite the fact that I promised myself I would never get to weight in my life ever again. I don't work out at all anymore, so even though I gained 10 pounds, I suspect I gained a lot more in fat since I definitely lost muscle.

I recently met someone and I have been dating him for almost 6 weeks now. He's extremely fit, and I have no clue what he sees in me, but I want to lose weight and look nice for him, and feel confident and sexy around him. More importantly, I want to feel confident for myself.

I want to address some issues I've been facing. I've been extremely stressed the last few months because of school and my parents. Also my dad is a diabetic with hormone problems so his mood swings are unpredictable and mentally damaging to me. I physically cannot handle living with my dad and my brother anymore. I can't handle feeling like shit all the time. I can't wait to move out because when I do, I will live by myself in an apartment close to campus, most likely with my cat, with my biggest worries being whether I remembered to buy cat food and my grades.

The only person who will be buying my food is ME. The only person who will be around me is ME. I will get an adequate amount of sleep and all of my time spent at home will be me  time. My stress levels will go down significantly, and I suspect my weight will too, as my health increases.

However, I cannot rely on that, and I can't let myself go while waiting for that day to come,  and I especially need to learn to deal with my self earlier on, because life will always have obstacles, and if I let them dominate my choices in distressed times, I will never be happy.

My first goal is to get my digestive system back on track. Let's be real here, when you don't eat the right food, whether you like it or not, you become constipated. Biggest problem it may cause is the sight and feel of a bloated tummy. Depending on how severe it is, the size of your tummy may vary. 

Ways to get rid of bloating and constipation:

-drinking lots and LOTS of water throughout the day (sometimes, you're just to damn busy to drink your goddamn H2O). Doing so helps prevent and avoid water retention, and helps your bowel movement, which reduces the appearance of a belly.

-Eating fruits and vegetables (when you're too busy, you grab what you can get, and sometimes, more often than not, it's crap)

-Reduce salt intake in order to reduce water retention

-reduce carbs and sugar. Note I said reduce, not avoid. It is nearly impossible to go cold turkey without shortly falling off the wagon. It's not possible, but incredibly difficult. It takes time to train the mind and the body to be less dependent on these substances, alas, we will always require at least a small amount; it is unavoidable. 

Hydration has been an issue for me, and has affected not only my digestion and bowel movements, but my skin as well. I don't doubt that lack of hydration played into cravings which helped those 10 pounds creep back on me. I am trying my best to drink as much as I possibly can, when I can. 

My short term goal right now, it to clear my irrigation system. Tomorrow will be spent drinking lots of fluids and eating lots of water and fiber based foods, like tomatoes, cucumbers, apples, etc. I am also considering doing a baking soda colon cleanse to help speed up the process. I heard it's as effective as the salt water flush, but not as disgusting going down. 

My next short term goal will be to get to 179lbs as my weight. To get and to stay under 180. 

My biggest goal at this point is to lose a little weight in the next two months in time for my friend's 21st birthday party. I really want to wear a nice dress, preferably form-fitting. I have already accepted the fact that I will have to wear shape-wear more likely than not, depending on the dress. Nothing to be ashamed of, and it gives me more variety when it comes to choosing dresses. 

I guess in short, these are my goals:

-Drink more water; 1-2 gallons a day.

-Work out at least once a week for a start

-have half of what I eat be fruits and vegetables

-Get down to 179lbs

-Clear my digestive system

Fairly simple goals. Once I reach them and become accustomed to my new habits (in about a month or so), I will make more changes, depending on how well I adapt. Slow and steady wins the race :)

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