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Firkle. I'm not psycho, I just like psychotic things. Ask box is open. Don't annoy me with your stupidity.

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Did you end up getting bottom surgery in April?

Yes, I got the first surgery in April, and I am getting the second part in January next year. The healing was intense, and I’ve been unable to use it for sex. BUT, I’m so fucking happy, and the euphoria is incredible. I have an actual penis. Like one that’s attached to me. The next few surgeries will hopefully allow me to have sex, but honestly, I’ve been perfectly content without it, which for me is really weird! I love sex.

I can have an orgasm though! That I can achieve.

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Wow! Henrietta? Isn’t there like a major age gap? Is she some sort of… you know? CM?

Ok, wow. So, I was 18 when we started dating, which makes me an adult. Also, there’s only a FOUR year difference! If it were the other way round no one would give a shit.

Don’t you ever accuse Henri as a CM again you fucking sicko.

I’m 20 now, and she’s 24. We are still together, and going strong. You can go fucking die.

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So are you gonna tell us who your girlfriend is yet?

It’s been a year now, and I asked her if she’s ok with it being public now and she said it was fine, so, I guess so?

Henrietta.

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Hey since you’re over 18, have you had your bottom surgery yet? And how do you like date when you say you’re straight? Like how to girls go about dating you? Do they have to be bisexual?

I was supposed to have the first surgery last year but covid fucked up those plans. I do have my first surgery booked for April this year and am hoping it doesn’t get cancelled again.

Dating is no more difficult than anyone else? I always tell them, and most of the time girls are pretty chill about it. As long as I use a prosthetic, they don’t really care or see a difference. I’ve been with a number of girls and most of them were straight. My current girlfriend is bisexual though.

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Are you a pilot yet?

Ah, no. It takes 3 to 4 years to become a commercial pilot.

Legally I can fly a small plane on my own. But I’m not a “pilot”.

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How’s covid treating you?

Eh, it’s fucked up a lot of my school plans. It’s been difficult studying aviation online, and a lot of my flight training has been postponed. But ah, apart from that it hasn’t been that bad. As said last year we are staying with my parents in South Park since Denver was way too risky. So being in a small town has been a lot safer. Michael and Pete have been out of work for a while now. Michael still does some marketing stuff online, and runs an Etsy store, so they have an income, and they also had a lot of savings, too. Oliver was already homeschooled anyway, so nothing’s really different for him. Henrietta is also out of work right now, and had to put a hold on her studies. Luckily my parents aren’t assholes and are letting them all stay with no cost, but Pete insists on cooking us all meals, which gets no complaints from anyone. I’m helping Henrietta out with any costs, like her phone bill, female shit, etc, and so are Michael and Pete. So she’s good and doesn’t have to stress too much either.

Basically we’re managing.

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So Michael and Pete don’t get on much anymore, neither does Henrietta. Are they ok?

They’re fine, they’re just not that much into it. Henrietta especially. Michael and Pete are just really busy a lot of the time now. Work, parenting and shit.

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When you went traitor, did you cut yourself like Henrietta? Lol 😂

My fucking god 🙄 I wish people would get over that.

No, I didn’t. I was 5. If I had, I think my parents would of freaked the hell out. Also, it’s not funny. Self harm isn’t a joke, so fuck you.

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Do you read the fanfictions about you guys?

Fuck no! Especially because most fanfictions “ship” me with Ike, and I hardly know him. Plus I’m straight. It’s too fucking weird. I have laughed at a couple written about the others, but that was mostly to make fun. Fanfics are stupid, and creepy.

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What’s your favorite food? Big fan btw 🥰

I don’t really have one. I guess Chinese food is probably close to being a favorite.

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What’s your favorite thing to do in your spare time?

Play drums. Or guitar. Hell, music in general.

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If your trans, how the fuck are you gonna have kids?

What makes you think I want kids? No thanks.

In saying that though, if I did want kids, some guys choose to stop hormone therapy and get pregnant. I wouldn’t do it, but it’s something that can be done. Or you know, adoption?

Like I said, I don’t want kids. I’m good.

What a fucking stupid question.

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How old are you now?

I turned 19 last month.

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Are you still active?

I guess? I haven’t completely abandoned this blog, but I don’t get on much because I have things to do outside the internet.

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Do you have a favourite song?

“Mommy Can I Go Out And Kill Tonight” by the band “Misfits”.

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What’s your favorite sex position? Lol

Oh god! There’s soooo many. Ah, I guess my absolute favorite is the “Gift Wrapped” position. I’ve only recently tried that position with my girlfriend and it’s incredible. I thought it looked boring, but nope.

Anything where I get to eat her out, too! And bondage. I’m a dom for sure, and love me some kinky shit.

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Your parents seem cool. What are they like?

They’re both really punk rock, and chilled out. They were never strict, but would discipline me in a kind of calm and relaxed sorta way. Like they never yelled at me, but they knew how to keep me from doing stupid shit.

They knew that I skipped classes, but didn’t care as long as my grades didn’t slip, which they didn’t. They’re also super chilled out about pot and drinking, but weren’t so keen on me smoking. My Grandad on my Moms side died of lung cancer, so my Mom is a bit weird with smoking, but doesn’t nag me. They didn’t know I smoked when I was young, and when they found out they were a bit disappointed, and worried, but eh.

Both of them have very good jobs, and make a lot of money, so I grew up extremely well off. I don’t like to call my family “rich”, but they kinda are. When I started showing signs of gender confusion, they were really supportive. They never pushed anything on me and let me discover myself on my own. When I decided to present as male at around 5, they were 100% on board. My legal name was Goergina, so they changed it legally to Goergie, which is still my legal name now, but I go by Firkle because it’s a nickname that I prefer. I always had the best, and although I was probably a little shit, I am very grateful to have them.

Richard and Carol Smith, thanks for being my Mom and Dad.