The drug in me is you

I blab a lot of words and sentences that even to myself, didn’t make much sense. •A random girl living in a messed up world with her fucked up mind•

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It’s been a while since I last posted here…

I can’t sleep, it’s almost 4am.

But, I just wanna say that I’m so lucky to have finally found my soulmate. I can’t express how much I love that guy. It feels surreal.

Suddenly, i’m not so lost anymore…

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"i'm always free for you" is a top tier love language

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onti onting nabubura ang mga sinusulat na pangarap para sa ating dalawa.

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Reblog ko. For real na kase this time. 💔

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Yup, this is the reason why I won’t ever change my username. I got lost again.

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Depressed nanaman si tanga kaya si Tumblr nanaman ang takbuhan.

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Why is my downfall not going up? lol. I thought downfalls has an ending. 🥲

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Dealing with so much stress lately...

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2 years later and still the same. This is just sad.

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Dealing with so much stress lately...

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SLAMBOOK

Funny enough, I have this same exact slambook back then🤣❤️ Here are my answers po. Took it seriously and to the next level. lol

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I got lucky ✨

So for the longest time, in my everyday life, I am rewatching FRIENDS or HIMYM (the whole series). This is a way for me to entertain myself or just something to watch while I'm eating or doing chores or even when I'm in the bathroom for god's sake! This was not a problem back then, my partner just thought that I am just a big fan of those two sitcoms. Not until he noticed that I am literally NON-STOP watching those shows over and over again, he said that it is not healthy anymore. To be completely honest, this has something to do with my mental health. It is NOT stable. Let's just say I have mental health problems. He knew this.

One day, he just had this idea that we should watch movies together as our bonding time. Even if we're apart. We use discord to communicate and shared the other one's screen for us to watch the movie together. He said that we should watch movies that we haven't already seen, so this way, I could try and get out of my comfort zone. He said that; my thing about rewatching sitcoms over and over again is not healthy. "It's not about being a fan anymore, it's about NOT getting out of your comfort zone. So afraid to try new things." he said. I actually knew this. He's right. I am afraid. I like watching shows over and over again because I know what will be the ending of it, and I like the feeling of being safe from a heartbreak or disappointment of an ending that I don't want. That is my problem and I love and appreciate how he is trying to fix me. I got lucky. I have someone who is willing to help me get through my shits.

Now, I am also learning to help myself. Like, instead of rereading my favorite books, I am reading something that I haven't read before. I know it ain't much of a change but my partner really opened my mind. He made me see what I am missing. I was blind, lost... (hence, my URL here in tumblr. lol) But now, little by little, it is becoming clear to me, that I am capable of more things, more possibilities, more room to change; for the better of course. I am grateful to have a wonderful, kind-hearted and loving partner like him. I thought I would be lost forever...

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"We all want everything to be okay. We don't even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough."

-David Levithan / Everyday

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Tumblr is my safe space whenever I feel alone (specially during my sleepless nights). I love reading stranger's thoughts thru their posts, I feel like they're my friends. Sometimes I feel like I know them personally but in reality I don't. I feel like I have someone to talk to, but really, they are only in my mind.

So, for those people who will see this post and we follow each other here, I wanna say thank you. Thank you for being there whenever I feel alone, even when you don't even know who I am, even when we don't have any interactions, even when you don't really see my posts (well that's just because I don't post much lol). but still, thank you. I hope you have a nice day ahead! (or) I hope you have a good night's sleep! You're the best.

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My life lately...

Colorful or dark, happy or sad, but there's only one thing that is certain; I love wearing black🖤. It goes with my every mood. 😊 Charing, umarte lang.

This is me, showing people how I have different personalities. lol 🤣 and gusto ko lang kayo i update! Hi! I'm still here 😁.

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I've been in Geek mode lately. 🤣 binge watching Harry Potter then getting a copy of the books. hehehe

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feelin' kinda girly... 🌼

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I want to feel the confidence that left me years ago.