pretty girls, ugly world

Jess. 23. March 2022 Relapsing Again. Whoops

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I just feel obligated to say this...

… The things I post here are unhealthy. They are bad. If you ever sometimes look at them and think, “That’s crazy,” or “I don’t think I want to do this anymore,” then that’s awesome. And you should hold onto that feeling.

It isn’t weak. It’s strong.

Recovery isn’t fat, or weak. It’s choosing life over death. Because you either recover or die. Ana isn’t forever. 400 calories or less a day isn’t sustainable.

So yes. I am unhealthy. This blog is unhealthy. The mindset required to follow this blog is unhealthy.

You all already know that.

I just wanted to remind all of you that if you ever, ever feel like quitting, it’s okay to quit. Despite the meanspo and the sweetspo, it’s okay. You are not actually a lardass or a fat fucker for deciding to live a real life.

That’s all. 💖

[lost-little-dancer]

Caught my (ex) boyfriend cheating with the girl he swore up and down was just a friend but at least I’ve been too upset to eat at all 😌😌😌 free fasting motivation

[lost-little-dancer]

And yes it was directly related to his drinking problem that he swore up and down he didn’t have 😌😌😌 one of us was supportive but firm about him needing help leading to huge fights, and the other one was an enabler that would get shitfaced with him on the regular every time she came over, guess who was who 🤪🤪🤪

[lost-little-dancer]

Caught my (ex) boyfriend cheating with the girl he swore up and down was just a friend but at least I’ve been too upset to eat at all 😌😌😌 free fasting motivation

[lost-little-dancer]

Realizing that my boyfriend has a way more serious drinking problem than I thought and that I have no idea how to handle it

[lovescenehair]

kristenhancher

[lost-little-dancer]

High restricting is literally so fucked up like I lose MORE weight by eating MORE?! Stupid

[boilingonthechair-deactivated20]

it is literally so easy to not say "lol all ive eaten today is an iced coffee" and to not act like it makes u some kinda quirky god esp to ur friends with eds and yet so many people still fail...

[lost-little-dancer]

Literally every time I hit a significant GW milestone I use it as an excuse to eat like a nutjob for like an entire week thereby ruining all the progress

[i-said-it-once-deactivated20230]

Being praised for "healthy" weight loss while doing everything in your power to drag yourself out of a relapse is sickening. Society doesn't understand the impact that talk of weight, calories, food, and diets can have on people. We shame every body of every gender for every reason. Being fat isn't good enough, being skinny isn't good enough, none of it is good enough. We hold the heads of those struggling with an eating disorder under water and scold them for drowning. We tell people who have a good relationship with food that it's okay until they gain weight. We instil a fear of food into everyone who hears this shit. They tell you that you're never skinny enough, until suddenly you are- then, just as suddenly, you're not desirable for being thin, and they tell you to "fatten up" while telling heavier people to drop a pound or 30. They want you to hate yourself. And it is hard to do anything other than that when every option is terrifying.

[bork-woof]

Losing weight you gained back is so fucking painful

[lost-little-dancer]

Trying 2 high restrict so I don’t die or whatever, but I only know how to do 500 or 5000 calories, no in between

[rawrda]

This is your daily reminder to not be ashamed of making your life easy for yourself.

Cut your food into small pieces, make the font size 30 on your e book, use straws to drink, get a pen that’s comfortable to hold, take more naps, walk slowly, eat another cookie, buy velcro shoes, re-watch the part you couldn’t understand the first time, write things on your hands so you don’t forget it… whatever you want and/or need

Don’t let anyone tell you how you should be doing things. We don’t need to prove each other anything

[oughtnots]

when your mutual reblogs something with a full page of tags its like. girl (gender neutral) i am filling my mug with coffee and reading this like the morning paper. i am so interested in your thoughts on this post. i love you.

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past few months

[autodiscipline]

[aegissi]

I have to admit. I am not living la vida loca

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