a reflection of self

i am not who i am

[lostandirredeemable]

god i hate him so much

[lostandirredeemable]

sometimes the end happens before it’s over

[weltenwellen]

Joy Sullivan, from “At the Airport”, Instructions for Traveling West

[lostandirredeemable]

hahahaahhaa my bf tattooed another women’s name on his knee i have to die

[lostandirredeemable]

if he breaks up with me wait till he sees who i pop out with….

[lostandirredeemable]

what is a girl without her muse?

probably mentally stable and loved but those are the sacrifices one must make

[lostandirredeemable]

everything hurts and then your friend asks you to watch their cats for 10 days, it can’t be bad the babies need me

[lostandirredeemable]

i hope you’re having fun, i’m in bed writing poems about you

[lostandirredeemable]

im on the pursuit of a hobby

[lostandirredeemable]

ghosted all my blogs, i missed you im sorry

[lostandirredeemable]

eating raspberries smoking weed

[lostandirredeemable]

normally i would run and hide but if you showed my your true colours i would paint myself with them, and in blood red ink i am staining myself to appease you

[lostandirredeemable]

i sold my stomachs lining for beer and regret

[lostandirredeemable]

sometimes people starve because they don’t know how to scream

they bleed because they don’t know how to leave

[lostandirredeemable]

i’ll swallow pills but not my pride because this ego was not built by me. it was built by the child i used to be. i will not bite my tongue or straighten my back, i will lift up my skirt, i will bare my teeth, i will be vulgar and ugly, i will bruise and bloody myself for her.

[lostandirredeemable]

if i bled to death on this pavement would you care

would you call my bluff

would you forgive all my faults

every regret not shown in words but in flesh

[lostandirredeemable]

i’m like if the scaredest girl was brave