Lostboy Seth

What? Do I look like the kind of girl that be happy to murder animals? Goooosh, Seth.

No, actually I do not know that.

I was just kidding Mads.

I guess I don't have many choice, since you're one of my only friends.

I’m not sure I killed it.

You sure? I would think you were the kind of girl that would be proud of her murders and make a picture of them and hang them on you wall. And at the end of your life you have this wall of little baby girls and cute animals.

You know I love you

It attacked me and my car…so I ran over it.

you just felt murderous?

I ran over a deer.

Seriously? Why?

Yeah, maybe. I think she was finding ice cream the other day.

#I think 4 charries is also a bit much.#I find 3 already a lot. Haha #That's possible; I've no idea. I only know we already had 2 different dia's. ):

I have no idea. It's possible I guess. I know I made a couple of racist comments and now she hates me.

Mhm.

Okay, I’m going to say this once…I think that you are a romantic, deep deep down. And that you actually believe in love, but you are just not letting yourself admit it. Period. Enough said.

Maybe I am. But I have enough reasons not to believe in love and I choose not too. That's the point. Okay.

I don’t think I know her but I might’ve seen her around.

#Well I can say you playing a girl isn't much different. :p

It's a long time ago I've seen her aroung but it's possible you have saw her. She's one of the only asians around her.

Well, who’s your partner anyway?

#This is the first time in ever I play a girl. (:

Dia Lee, the asian chick.

Good to know that.

No you wouldn’t be my friend. I was even more shy, I was dressing up pretty badly and frankly, I hated myself back then. No one noticed me when I was the old Madison, that’s why I like the new me, way more. Or at least I’m trying to convince myself I do. People think I’m shallow and maybe over all this time, I have become shallow…like a kiddies pool. You are the one that doesn’t believe in love, yet you are telling me that there are romantic people out there? Wow. Did you just ask me out on a date, Mr. Curtis? Not a drunk hook-up, but a real date? I have to check my schedule…I think I’m free in 2017. [Chuckles] I’d love to go out with you. And of course we won’t date, we are friends. It will be weird and…well, it will be weird. It will be a non-date. A date which is not really a date, but a friendly reminder that dates aren’t that scary. If your aunt becomes more than you can handle, my door is always open. You can come to my house, move my furniture of course, re-design my bedroom and then watch Star Wars with me…because let’s face it, I’m more manly than you and I shall pick the movie. I’m sorry for what have happened to you, I wished I knew how to make you feel better, or help you…but I simply can’t. There is a future for you and I’m sure it is bright, as the sunshine. You just have to have more faith in you. You’re a great person and if someone doesn’t see it, he or she is stupid.

Yeah it is.

Maybe you have changed but back then you couldn't be much different. Just quieter probably. I don't think you're shallow. You're able to have some real conversation and say what you feel. Believe me a few months ago I wasn't able to do any of it. Love and being romantic are two completely different things. You're romantic to leave a good impression and when you're convinced that you're in love with the other person. People are just very good at lying to themselves. No, no hook-up included. Just a reminder that dates can be fun. My aunt is always more than I can handle but I have the park, I will be fine. You're definently not more manly than me. But because I'm a gentleman I give you the choice of movies, it's a difference between being a man who just loves himself, so no one has to. Or being a gentleman. Thanks Mads I really appreciate all you're saying.

I am really confused.

#Yeah he is very innocent and cute.#I don't play any innocent charie and I love it. :D

Don't worry, I can understand that. I can be very confusing.

What?

Well you know every girl that comes close to being pretty you want to stick your dick in? No? Never had that feeling.

Haha no kid, I'm kidding. Course I know the feeling with friends you just can't think of them as more than friends.

#Poor Seb

Thought of her? What potential?

#He's kidding #And is his evil self.

Thought of her in a romantic way, a potential for kissing her. I don't think you see girls as a potential fuckbuddy but I know a lot of guys do.

A few people can, you should feel special or something.

The thing is that not only I wasn’t a queen, I was simply nobody. I wasn’t that pretty, and I was a loner. I didn’t have any friends, I had weight problems. It wasn’t a nice, perfect picture, you know? As for the date thing, I don’t really have a problem with boys not being romantic…Who is romantic these days, huh? Seth..I don’t know what to say…what you parents did is awful and you should never forgive them, because leaving your own damn child is just…terrible. But maybe they had their reasons, maybe they thought they weren’t good parents and didn’t want to ruin you, by being with you. You should believe in love, because love does exist. Somewhere, someone is waiting for you. And that someone is perfect for you and it will make you the happiest person on planet Earth. It’s good that you haven’t given up. That you study and even if you spend your time on the streets, at least you aren’t doing drugs or something even worse. You are a good person, that just needs to see the good things in life. Someone will show you how good life is and then you will understand that life isn’t that fucked up.