Struggling to be free

23 year old girl from Perth. Battling Anorexia and Borderline Personality Disorder.

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Afternoon tea is a apple. #Apple #afternoontea #intake

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Sneaky pic of dinner feel like a 🐘 #inpatient #intake #dinner

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An amazing book by @herfreedomtree love you to the moon and back sweet Ash 😘 #books #inpatient #distractions #friends

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Looking so pale and tired. It's not even been a week of severe restriction. I'm trying so hard to try and eat.m, and my dr is being so patient with me. My body is getting weaker and I find it so ridiculous when I'm still a healthy bmi

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Not even a week of restriction and I already look dead. In trying so hard to build myself up to quarters but I'm just so terrified. My dr is lovely she's being so patient with me, and she's doing her best to help. One day at a time 😰 #sad #hollywoodclinic #psychiatrist #anorexia

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how did your doc go from not needing to see you till feb, to admitting you? did something happen? hope you're ok :)

I was in emergency on Saturday night, and then they transferred me to the clinic on the eating disorders program. But I'm under a different doctor now :) im struggling really badly but I'll be ok.

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Managed a few bites of carrot at dinner, and the bitch in my head is going crazy. I can't do this. I just want them to Let me starve. As soon as I took those bites I felt like I'd failed. My head is scaring me I've never been able to fast for two and a half days. What's happening to me? #intake #inpatient

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Back in prison 😰 haven't managed any intake at all, and I'm sure the others think I'm stupid because I'm a 🐷. Struggling, and suicidal 😰 #inpatient #eatingdisorder

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Katie Perry VIP pre-show #prismaticvip #katieperry

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A big THANKYOU to this amazing girl @ajourneytoawesome. She really is a life saver, tommorow I am getting a refferal to a new psych. Wish me luck 😄 #psychiatrist #appointment #shoutout #thankyou

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Trying quorn meatballs today 😊 with a side of maple veggies 🙊 #quorn #veggies #maplesyrup #dinner #intake

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Kind of random but veggies with salt and maple syrup is amazing 😍😍 #lunch #intake #veggies #maplesyrup

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Lunch is slim pasta with lots of cheese 😄. #lunch #intake #slimpasta

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My baby is ready for bed. #cats #bedtime #mybaby

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Lunch today is quorn, corn and water chestnuts 👌 #intake #lunch #quorn