LostInTheDunya

A traveler striving to find his way to his ultimate abode. Self contemplation.

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Without knowing what darkness is, you can’t know what the light is. 

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Hardships and Human Foolishness.

SubhanAllah. As i live in this world I am shown again and again how foolish we humans can be and this is regarding myself. I know for a fact that Allah tests you to bring him closer to you and that he does it for the better of you and for reasons that you cannot comprehend. 

On friday I was shown this once again. I instantly went into depression and forgot Allah the creator that has created life and death and depression and happiness and the one in control of my happiness! I always look back and feel like such a food for it subhanAllah. Looking back at what happened I ended up realizing that it actually helped me in a way that i couldn’t imagine.

My lesson to myself first is to always trust in Allah and never question the hardship I am going through because it not only makes you stronger but has other blessings that benefit you that you cannot comprehend because it is the ghayb (unseen)! sometimes something happens because it will save your life but we have no clue since we can’t see all of the possible scenarios that could have happened. 

Only Allah Azawajal knows and he knows whats best for us. All we have to do is put all of our trust into Allah Azawajal; the creator of all existence. 

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Starting Tumblr

Here we go. starting tumblr again after 3 years of what I found to be a tragedy in my life. The classic story where I thought a woman was the perfect women for me and we are meant to be soulmates. At that time I needed something to vent my anxiety. 

Fast forward to now it was a blessing from Allah because she was not about that deen and not what I want in a Woman.

This blog will be mainly text posts, nasheeds and some pictures if I find any interesting ones. Feel free to follow if you will benifit from my free thinking mind. I will post mostly what my mind is thinking so I can come back to it. 

I am still filled with imperfections and faults and I hope something like a tumblr here will help me go through my thoughts and change them just like how looking at my posts from 3 years ago makes me feel like a complete idiot and cringe on how stupid I was to actually think so foolishly when Allah was blessing me by taking away this woman from my life.

Jazakallah Khair and Assalam Alaikum.

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I feel like ur giving him a chance to stay What woukd even happen to me

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Wallahi I did not expect that from you. I had no clue at all that you would ever do this You of all people To do me this way I literally can't believe it Humans are all selfish. Every single human only cares about themselves. Only Allah cares about yoy at the end of the day.

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It's like everything i said about islam was all fake All you did was only because I was with you If you were doing this all for the sake of allah You would not do this. I know my path. I know allah did all this for a reason. I know allah takes people from you for the better Please Ya Allah give me patience And help me in these times I a trying so hard to not think I am trying my best

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This is so funny. You said It's me that didnt see you for 2 months Now i know its all excuses And its YOU who ended it for another guy and dated him 2 weeks later

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You ended it for another guy You lied You couldnt even respect a 3 year relationship and went with a guy 2 weeks later

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This whole time apparently it was my fault And now i find out the truth

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So Alone.

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"She is all I want" "But she doesn't want you"

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Even in my dreams i recall your voice

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If you meant what you said to me You can't be apart from me Because I meant every word Every single one

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you made me feel like im worth something You made me feel like I am something Now that your gone from me I feel like I am nothing Like I am worth nothing I gave you my full heart Now I have nothing

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Its weird How the person that is your everything Is also your biggest weakness

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Anyone else i wouldnt have cared nearly as much
Anyone else i woulda been over this
Anyone else i wouldnt have felt this deep pain in my heart
Anyone else 
But you

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My grandma "why are you always sighing like that, that means your sad from the heart"