... i want someone else to be the funny friend now

this is literally just thoughts i do not know how to tell the people i love this is for me idea of doing this is so unburdening i'm tired of hurting so i will now let go of all of the bottled up emotion till there is none left to hurt me anymore

[lostlambsandmisplacedbunnies]

i don't want the sun to shed light on the fact that all of the love and hope i had found in the darkness of the night was merely a dream

[lostlambsandmisplacedbunnies]

heart transplant

i want a heart transplant

a new heart

one not littered with lines and scars

one that isn't breaking

collapsing

imploding onto itself

i want a new heart

one with even beats

steady pressure

sure little rhythmic bumps

that remind me i'm alive.

Because no matter how much i search for that famous

thump thump thump

that should be in my pulse

the only sound i can hear now when i place

my palm to my chest

is the empty rib cage of death-still silence

~misplaced bunnies

[lostlambsandmisplacedbunnies]

broken

i want to smash the mirror

i want all the broken little peices

of my broken little face

to fall

crystal glass shock-still as they

shatter

till all that's left behind is

darkness

my true reflection

[lostlambsandmisplacedbunnies]

misplaced bunnies

i crave the feeling of having people open up because then i'm not the only one with their insides on show