all this time ive been despising myself for what i did to you. constantly believing that i am the monster others think i am. yes, i pushed you away. yes, it was horrible. yes, you begged for forgiveness and made pathetic apologies. but did you know that i almost died when i had to let you go? i used to cry everytime you came across my mind. everything was hard without you. my love, existing was hard without you. but i did. and ive never been more proud of myself because i survived. now im finally done and ready to really really let you go.















