Can i just say that im struggling. Like really hard. I quit smoking cigarettes over 2 years ago but i vape. I want a cigarette so fucking bad its crazy. So bad. I want to self harm and be self destructive. I cant though because im doing well. I mean except for the fact that my depression, anxiety, and eating disorder keep coming and going. Its getting hard to want to eat anymore. I want to constantly weigh myself. I know its not good but its okay. It usually lasts about a week with my eating disorder so ill just have to ride through it again. I did notice however that its been getting more consistant. Like it keeps coming back more often than usual. Oh well ill be fine, i always am. Despite the dizziness and not being able to sleep im still alive so its all good.
