Lothlorien Autumn

“And what do you wish,” he said at last.“That what should be shall be,” she answered.

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Am I afraid to be sad still? Do I feel guilty for feeling sad? Am I not letting myself experience sadness? Am I over stressed? Am I taking too much medication? Do I need to exercise more? Why do I feel disconnected from my surroundings and from people?

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A plant in bloom still needs care.

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And she was still ok

Her world fell apart, and she was still ok

She lost her best friend, and she was still ok

She lost peace, and she was still ok

She felt like she could not move forward, and she was still ok

The imperfections of life slapped her in the face, and she was still ok

She recognized the strength inside of herself, and she was still ok

She trusted herself, and she was still ok

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

— Daniell Koepke

[lothlorienautumn]

Affirmations:

I am able to let go of unhelpful thoughts

I am where I should be in this moment

I am strong

I am confident

I have been scared before, and I will be ok

My mind worries to try to help me, even though it goes overboard

Stress is ok

I am connected with the earth

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Standing

For a moment, I was standing

Surrounded in darkness.

But,

I was still standing.

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How freeing it must be

To be able to cry when you are sad.

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Magic

I feel it

Energy - life

Glittering through my skin

Pulsing in the palms of my hands.

Is this magic

I wonder.

Yes, my heart hums.

[lothlorienautumn]

“I worry about you in the light of day

'Cause you don't know who you are when all your demons go away

And you say you hate the way your mind makes you feel about

All the darker things in your life, I feel you now, I can feel you”

- Lily Kershaw, “Darker Things”

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Sometimes life can taste so sweet When you slow it down You start to see the world a little differently When you turn it upside down

Paloma Faith, “Upside Down”

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Reframing Thoughts:

I have tools to help me through panic attacks

I am aware of my thoughts and I am in control of my reaction to them

I am a brave, capable person

I have come so far

I am not who I used to be

It is ok to be strong

You are allowed to change as a person

There are people who will help as well as people who will not understand, and that’s ok.

It is ok to experience emotions

[lothlorienautumn]

Today was filled with emotions and vulnerability. This is what the process of growth feels like sometimes. It feels like a weight sitting on your chest, restricting your breath. It feels like a cloud wrapping around your head obscuring your vision. Like your brain is electrified and numb and tired and scared.

It’s feelings of nausea and uncertainty, of sadness and panic.

And this is ok. These feelings are ok. You won’t always feel like this, I won’t always feel like this, and we will grow.

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“You are a good person Meghan Fraser.”

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Reframing Thoughts:

I am so passionate about my job, I consistently try to do the best that I can.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I will breathe. I will think of solutions. I will not let my worry control me. I will not let my stress level control me. I will simply breath. And it will be OK. Because I don’t quit.”

— Shayne Mcclendon

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

— Daniell Koepke

[aspiritualwarrior]

“I was no longer needing to be special, because I was no longer so caught in my puny separateness that had to keep proving I was something. I was part of the universe, like a tree is, or like water is.”

— Ram Dass