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will I ever love someone the way I loved my ex? probably not.

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living on your own becomes dangerous once you enjoy solitude a little too much. sharing my bed with someone? sharing my space with someone? omg

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I don‘t why emotionally unavailable men always end up in my dm‘s. Do I look like a therapist??? I got my own crap to deal with. where are the deceeeeeent men

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Ok but when you feel like something is off, it usually is. My boyfriend used to have this “friend” that texted him 24/7. i never thought anything of it until I actually witnessed her sending him a paragraph about how “amazing” he is. That’s when I told him that I’d feel more comfortable if he stopped talking to this girl because she clearly wasn’t just a friend. One day my boyfriend came up to me and told me that she told him to look for a boyfriend for her. The guy should be just like him, and most importantly look like him. My boyfriend stopped talking to her, but his cousin which is his best friend, is also her best friend. So one night my boyfriend told me he’d go to a bar where we all hung out. A friend of mine was there too and called me and said that this girl was there with them. She was sitting next to my boyfriend, taking pics with him. My boyfriend lied to me about it. This happened in January this year. I’m still not over it. This actually ruined a lot for me. I still can’t sleep sometimes because I have this picture in my head, how she’s sitting next to my boyfriend. 

Look, I don’t care if you’re a boy or a girl. But if you’re interested in someone that’s taken, LEAVE THAT PERSON ALONE. You don’t know the pain and stress you can cause by trying to get something that’s not meant to be yours. 

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uhm quick update: I broke up with that ex 2 years ago, currently hooking up with that girl‘s ex, he just spend the night at my place. weird how life works sometimes lol.

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Seeing my old posts truly hurts me. Man, I was depressed af. I was HURTING. I can‘t believe that I really lived like that for YEARS. My main trigger was definitely my relationship at that time. Never knew a human being could make me feel like I‘m the least likeable person on this planet. Oh god, it‘s been 6 months, and there are days where I miss your laugh, or the person that you used to be. But I wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the most horrible person I‘ve ever come across, because now I know what I deserve, now I know what I‘m worth, and I‘m SO GLAD you‘re GONE!!!! I‘ve been sooooo happy these past 6 months, I can finally say it: I MADE IT!

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I haven‘t been talking to people for months, it‘s so hard for me to look people in their eyes and have a conversation now it is so EXHAUSTING

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Art by SAU

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The Collectibles: Best of 2020

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Abbazia di San Galgano | by facibenifotografia

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Art by Maldha Mohamed

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The Collectibles: Best of 2020

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Hey to whoever is reading this.

2019 was the worst year of my life. Worst doesn‘t even describe how it really felt. Looking back now, I don‘t know how I SURVIVED it. Because all I truly CRAVED was to end my life. The thought of it kinda gave me a weird feeling of relieve. Because all my problems, all the pain I felt, would‘ve been gone. I fear death, I really do. But when I‘m in a depressive phase, when I get panic attacks, death seems to be my only friend. Which by the way scares the sh*t out of me that as soon as I‘m feeling down, start to view it as an option. I forgot how it felt to be happy. But now, after more than one year, I‘m happy. I‘m not constantly down, depressed and just not really being a part of humanity. A lot has changed, and I hateeeeeeee changes BUT these changes SAVED MY LIFE. So I just hope that you‘re doing well, that you‘re happy and that you know that you are the best and you are special. I want you to know that so many people love you and care about you!!!! Sending my love, support and hugs to all the people outthere struggling right now. 💜

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well that didn‘t age well. I tried to commit su*cide in July, I survived, been to a mental health clinic two times, still going to therapy and somehow I still feel like a piece of sh*t 💜

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I sometimes ask myself if I will actually be able to be able to experience what being happy means. My depression is taking over my life again lol.

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I just found an old note in my phone about a guy I was madly in love with and at the end it said: I don‘t think I‘ll be able to survive that.

LOL WE‘RE SO FUCKING DUMB WHEN WE‘RE IN LOVE IT‘S CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYY

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