Lou Barnicol

Write to remember. Write to not forget.

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Sunset at the wheel

sometimes i feel echoes, faint reverberations at the tip of my fingers some tugging inside my guts i see reflections of who I used to be of who i could become the names i will forget the beauty i’ve already tucked back into oblivion the millions little deaths I carry within me sunset at the wheel can we take a short detour rewind the tape and plunge into our younger nights remember the…

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The hunger

Pierce holes in the bubblegum wallPush until in pops underYour fingernailsThey’ve all done it beforeAndYou’ve heard it beforeLike that satisfyingCrack in your weary jointsThey’ve all done it beforeSo take your cakeTake you cake andeat itThen smear it on my eyelidsPaint me blue like the skyTrust that it will come back in the morningTrust it will wash itselfFrom your filth and your shamePaint me…

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Une histoire d'amour

Amour, amour,Bats la mesureQuelques accordsEt mon cœur est saisiTe rappelles-tu du bleu du ciel si clair si durQu’il aura tranché le fil monotone de mes matinsPour écrire liberté sur mes deux oreillersJe cours à perdre haleineJe presse mes paupières à la surface du rêveQu’on a eu l’audace d’esquisser tous les deuxPas sans toiJamais sans toiQu’ils m’enterrent qu’ils m’oublientJ’hurlerai ton…

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The day after

To the pregnant girl bleeding out in the ERThe boy with long lashes in his mother’s boudoirClose the door softly on their rageThe fire will engulf them tooMy sorrow for you knows no other boundThan the joy of seeing you hereDid you hear it, as the mist came down?A bird sang, onceIn the creases of time

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Aftertaste

I lay my body on the pavementFelt the curve of the earth, its cosmic pullLike a fast trainBuried deep under the pebbles and the gentle weedsIt was easier to tell you my sorrows whilst looking at the starsThey felt smaller in the palm of your handsLooking backI spent years sowing threads of wonderPulling them from you, basking in their lightI rose the sun and cracked open your heartIt felt like…

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Bury Me

Bury me underSheets of celestial greysBury me underThe loud silence of the snowAnd walk away softlySo I barely notice you leavingSo my heart barely breaksLeave me behindThe thin veil of mistCovering me in frozen dropletsPowder me with all the thingsYou left unsaidWrap me in solitudeSo that time can Slide Over my skinCarve its untold storiesThe could’ve beensMy fingers running over their…

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The Queen

The wind hurled as you laidYour prosecution bare Call logs and fine china Constellations of circumstanceCarefully filed under evidenceTo nest your righteous bitterness And as you sipped the blood soaked wineTorrents of rain washed down your terrorAt my offensive shamelessness My laughs echoing in the back of your mind When the autumn leaves soared to black skiesMarital bliss sealed the…

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I booked a room

I booked a room

I booked a room with a view on the sea and immense windows from floor to ceiling I booked a room but I’m running late you got there in advance and you sat on the chair set your bag on your knees you sighed a little watching the waves crash on the shore I booked a room to remember you when I forget it all your paper thin skin and your laugh your bent fingers and your pearl white…

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The street is lava Folded around your body, unfolding Sheets and expectations I stretch my fingers to reach A tea cup, a curtain, your waist…

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Fiançailles Fragments de rêves Perlent sur ta peau, Temple de mes espoirs

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Japan 31/8

Do you hear the clouds Cracking open And the thunder Pounding against the mountains?

Do you fear lightning As you run through puddles?

I am drunk On the sound of cicadas Dying on my doorstep Rosegold jewels scattered on the asphalt Is that what it feels like to grow old?

The skies have turned turquoise And white It just started to rain I stop on the bridge and open my mouth Wide Towards the light,

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love thy neighbor

she eats a tomato salad in a white chair on freshly cut grass

she says she loves people like me but she believes this indulgence is a sin

she doesn’t take her sunglasses off

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Chasing Sunsets (2014, re-edited)

Chasing Sunsets (2014, re-edited)

Chasing sunsets For the dark to never fall around me Wrapping me in the sheets of all things left unsaid I am trying To touch the world in a new way But I can only speak in past tenses

I feel old, love

I used to think I recognized your voice But I know now I only heard my own And the lines of your face feel Drawn on Like a figment of my imagination

Chasing sunsets There’s no music to be faced I…

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Loss

It’s never the same story My cells hold count But my mind slips away

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Swipe away Click n’ Load My files are corrupted Dishonest technologies Do you dream sometimes? The skies were blue and it smelled…

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your colors

Blue you Grey you It’s never the same story Pink you Green you Kiss my ribcage away Swallow the memory of the Yellow you Red you Bruises fade My cells hold count But my mind slips away White you Black you Crawling under my sheets Whispering in my ear The darker you The darkest you I’m lost We’re lost Reality is lost

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The moon

The moon talked to me last night I couldn’t hear her voice well She spoke of a laundromat An empty street on a summer’s night I read Baldwin in a tiny Japanese house In a tiny bedroom I smoked minted cigarettes on the balcony And ate rice balls at 2 A.M. The moon talked to me every night Back then Now I law below a flowered ceiling The wine went to my head And the moon speaks to me again She…

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