A Memoir Of My TC

Junior year, I fell hopelessly in love with my math teacher. Here, my thoughts and emotions are documented from the days I had him and the days I lost him.

[love-me-tc]

rip to the t r u e c r i m e community but the teacher crush community remains

[doozer-reporting-for-duty]

"You said if we had been closer in age

Maybe it would’ve been fine

And that made me want to die..."

IM DYING

[twohomessidebyside]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“Who could blame me for seeing only what I wanted to see? Who could accuse me of anything? I loved everything that didn’t love me back; it was the easiest thing in the world. Back then, I believed in change. I believed scaffolding was the same thing as structure. I thought I could build it.”

— Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I’m Someone Else: Essays; “I Didn’t Tell Anyone,”

[love-me-tc]

6.20.19

My heart’s been broken again, it’s been broken for over 2 months now. The boy I loved after you came and went, yet my mind still turns to you now. The pain is the same as when you left. The ache that came like a shock, and the constant waves of sadness pounding against my soul. It’s been a little less than 2 years since my heart broke for you, and was put back together by him. And now, again, my heart breaks. For a few moments I find solace in music, but just as quickly as I do, it vanished and every single thing makes me think of him.

Someone walked by me today, and I stopped dead in my tracks. It looked like you, I wanted it to be you. I almost called your name. I didn’t, though. I let you walk away, like you did two years ago. Like he did.

Why do I keep hoping he’ll come back to me? Why do I keep hoping you’ll come back to me? Why are two different loves identical in pain? I do not understand it. I’m not sure I ever will.

[teachercrushsuggestions-deactiv]

Your TC isn’t flirting with you. Your TC doesn’t have a crush on you. It is all in your head.

[quotemadness]

Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but this same necessity of loving serves to counteract their grief and heals them.

Leo Tolstoy (via quotemadness)

[love-me-tc]

so it’s been a while since I’ve posted since I’m done with my tc and dating someone, but one of my teachers shared a story about my tc and me that I want to share.

A few days ago my old history teacher came up to me and we started talking about my tc. He told me that after the first parent/teacher conference he had with my parents, my mom told my tc that he was boring and monotone and needed to be funnier. So my tc would go up to my old history every day asking him how to be funnier and such so I’d like him.

I miss my tc. But i could never have had a relationship with him. I miss him as a friend. But I have a boyfriend now. A boyfriend who makes me happier and more comfortable than my tc ever did. I was never actually with my tc.

I’d rather have what i have now.

[love-me-tc]

I’m dating someone now. Someone my age. He’s passionate and funny and physical and talented. Most of me has fully thrown myself into him, although there’s still a small part of me that misses my tc. Nevertheless, my tc is gone and Ive accepted that. I am allowed to move on. I’m allowed to like other people. I’m allowed to be happy.

[lovingherlosingher]

friendly reminder to stay chill and contain thyself! they’re teachers - keep things legal y'all

[nicethingsinuglyhandwriting]

Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but this same necessity of loving serves to counteract their grief and heals them // Leo Tolstoy.

[love-me-tc]

so I have a date with someone my age. someone I actually have a crush on !!!!!!

[igotcursed]

say something / a great big world & christina aguilera

[logicaldreamer]

I’m getting used to not seeing you everyday and that’s just as painful as not seeing you.

T. (via logicaldreamer)

[love-me-tc]

I learned something while loving you. I learned that merely waiting and hoping for you to love me was pointless. Maybe you’ll love me one day, but I can’t spend my time chasing after you.

I learned that if I can, I should let me feelings be known. It saves from a lot of suffering and wondering and waiting.

I can’t spend my life chasing after you or anyone for that matter, because if I do I could miss out on what is actually right for me.

[terrible-tcc-advice]

TCC Tip #8

Contrary to what you might’ve heard, the teacher crush community and the true crime community are actually the same thing. They all want to commit crimes, anyway.

[idktorn]

I fall into infatuation far too easily. Diving headfirst, I crave for constant attention. Every interaction is overanalyzed. One second I think, “He must hate me!” Next thing I know, “He clearly likes me!” My happiness begins to rely on him and it sucks.

this describes my life so accurately (via idktorn)