Tell Me A Secret:

Words I'd Never Say

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One-Sided Love

You know what one-sided love is?

It’s like two people who have shared the most intimate moments together, whether it be conversations, experiences, or even intimacy.

It’s as if one moment you two used to walk past each other on a stairway and share a glimpse, smile, or even a quick kiss or hug.

It’s one day waking up and realizing that even after the countless meetings on that stairwell, that one day you wake up and something shifts. Love is released and everything is transformational.

It’s one day walking past each other on a stairwell, but only you catch yourself stealing a glimpse, expressing a smile, or even attempting or hoping for a kiss or hug. But the other person doesn’t do anything back.

One-sided love is one day walking down the stairs to see, stop, and realize that you’re the only person who pauses. It’s understanding that you are no longer people who share an affinity for each other; but rather, you are people who only wish to either hold or push memories into or out of your minds and hearts.

One-sided love is always, and never will be returned.

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There are two different types of breakups.

The easy one where you can leave because the person hurt you.

Then there’s the other.... the one where you both love each other but have to let each other go... the one that cuts the deepest. The one that lasts forever.

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Running.

I run away from my past.

I run away from the good people in my life.

I run from heartbreak after heartbreak.

I run from death.

I run for my health.

I run for my mind.

But what I cannot run away from, is time.

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Things I Could Never Say #786

I wish people would tell you when the reasons why they want to begin to ghost you. I wish that they had the courage to explain why distance was needed for this relationship, whether it be platonic or romantic, to work.

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You were the moon and the stars.

But my vision was blinded by clouds.

Now I see only rain.

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How Could You Know?

Last night I cried myself to sleep.

I stayed up as long as I could because I was afraid of my dreams.

This morning I didn’t want to get out of bed.

I had to force myself my anxiety was all in my head.

Today I was working and thought many times about what would happen if I died.

I didn’t think I was worth a second of someone’s time.

Today I answered a call like I do every other hour.

A gentle voice was on the other end and didn’t know it’s power.

We spoke of God and faith, even though I question Him some days.

We shared heartbreak of losing someone to dementia or Alzheimer’s - memories that fade.

We shared the need to want to be heard and not forgotten.

We spoke for what seemed to be days, something that’s not very common.

Did you know I wanted to die today? Did you know I had a plan?

Did you know that my depression began?

How could you know?

How could you know?

How could you know that today your simple conversation would save a life today?

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I’m sorry I haven’t posted much lately. I’ve been processing my feelings in a different format. I’ve recently moved and my heart is in separate locations. I feel numb and emotional at the same time.

Once I find my thoughts and the words to associate with them, I’ll get back to writing. Otherwise, thank you.

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Hi! I took some time to lose myself in my body and the growth I want to take to become healthier. I’ve made a little bit of progress and even if it’s not where I want to be, PROGRESS IS PROGRESS!

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You have a wonderful and blessed rest of your life and make sure to continue on spreading the love and I hope down the line you get everything you ever wished for and more. much love. Hope you and your family are all doing well during this worldwide crisis 🙏

Thank you very much for this very kind sentiment. This has been a release of emotions and therapeutic journey of letting go of the one who got away. It’s deeply painful and tragic which makes it all the more beautiful. Thank you! I hope you and your loved ones are doing well and I wish you nothing but the best in all facets of your life.

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“The ones that love us never really leave us. You can always find them, in here." . . . #harrypotter https://www.instagram.com/p/CIW_9Hrhwiq/?igshid=1mi66nox490se

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Happy Thanksgiving 🦃💚 https://www.instagram.com/p/CIEhJ7AB2FS/?igshid=2zh862o0fogv

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have you ever loved someone quietly? you’re making and breaking every minute. you’ve butterflies when you are with them and a knot when they tell you about someone else. you’re conflicted – you’re happy and sad. you’re not a coward if you never confess your love to them. you just know even if you did tell them, it wouldn’t change a damn thing, because sometimes, you love people more than they love you. and sometimes, they don’t love you at all. the world tells you to move on, to not love the person who doesn’t love you back. they tell you that you’re wasting your life, but here’s the thing – love doesn’t have a switch that you can turn on or off. everyone tells you to give someone else a chance, but how can you? you love hard and you love forever. whenever you see the one you love with someone else, it breaks your heart. you wish to have that love with them. and it hurts when you look at them with feelings while they look past you like you don’t exist. but it hurts even more when they call you a friend when they mean the world to you. you know you can’t force someone to love you or convince them to feel the same way, but you never stop hoping. you love them from a distance because that makes you happy. so you tell yourself, “if not James Potter, i’ll be Severus Snape for you.

moment by Omair for The Scribbled Stories

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Things I Could Never Say #44

The movie Her reminds me of the things we wish we could have experienced with the ones who got away. And before we know it, we fall in love with moments.

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I am obsessed with it! I’ve watched 3 times in the past two days. I love the depth of it and how honest it is. That people are just scrambling and hiding behind technology when it comes behind emitting human emotion and when it comes to the real thing, it is novel to meet someone who can match that same enthusiasm for reality. I love it. And of course it’s Joaquin Phoenix and Scar-Jo :) The music is absolutely triumphant in the movie as well. I loved it! Haha Very Indie, very approved!