"The nature of love is self-abandonment."
In the sense that we are all god and god is within us.
I recall a conversation in my young adult years a topic which hasn't been revisited in my lifetime as of yet. On the topics of ourselves and our nature, I had said I wanted to be a martyr of love. The friend asked me why go to such lengths as to be a martyr, noting that at the time, I did not understand what that word meant in its entirety. I do know the meaning of that today and the stance hasn't changed.
There's a lot of me that would love nothing more than to have a pure love that comes from the purest of intentions but after a few decades, I'm learning that those lengths may not be realized within most.
In the sense that you need to be able to see yourself and your flaws, that is how you move forward with healing and thus are able to love and let love in. In my shoes of having been so hungry to receive love, my nature is by being everything else that I didn't like. My chapters of lackings, absentness, void, I act in the manners to be something for someone else that I wish I had.
In my healing journey, I am understanding more that you [should] give the love to others to yourself. I try to acknowledge more how awful I am at taking care of myself so I desire for someone else to love me in a way as to also give me care. I understand that there are things I can do that will allow me to care for myself so that I can meet other's on a level that doesn't burden them.
[[But I wanted to write this because from the viewpoint that Watt's proposes, love has existed in me for a long time. Those things are what life's about. It wasn't until my second bout with depression that I questioned my ability and handling of love which was heavily twisted by social media opinions. I've come to realize my issue with it, that I'm now able to account for - opinions from social media come from ALL walks of life. We need to understand that having access to the internet means it's many different voices from many different places so when there is a popular opinion that you don't understand, you need to remember that they did not come from the same background is you.
This is to also mention cultural and social differences. Considering this, this means that how we approach and value life may also be fundamentally different.]]
I am grateful to get to know his words in my day and age.
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