have you met my bestie? her name is ana

relapsinggg

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so im not happy, ive never been happy.

thought id give recovery a go one last time 5mos ago, and im more miserable than ever...

ive basically already relapsed, so im back.

i encourage you to try recovery if your curious, you can do it!

i support yall either way. each one of you deserves happiness

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Flip me upside down 🙃

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Oh the need to be a beautiful corpse

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Cant even go 24h cal free without passing out, and my ßm¡ is normal. Gotta figure this out...

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Im flirting w disaster, and I just want it to flirt back...

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Finally a day right around 900c

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Back on the app!!!

Sooo Ive been doing that thing again and wasnt necessarily going to come back til I found what is probs gonna be my new obsession...

STOREBRAND ORGANIC CARAMEL RICE CAKES!!!

Theyre full size and only 50c per cake. Im so happy

I love you all, and Im happy to be home!

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bringing back my love

why did i ever switch out?

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1230p here, and i pulled an allnighter. but get this, last time i ate was 3a

quite the feat id say :)

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yall. i might actually pull this "f4st" thing off today

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the erge to try and perge one last time...

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had yogurt today for the first time in a couple weeks and while i used to love it, todays cup of my favorite flavor gave me no joy... at all

i dont know if i should be happy or sad because that means i lost a food i like, and it also means i cant waste my cals on it and can simply not like it instead of having to pretend im not in the mood

hi ana i see what you did there!!!

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back at it day after tmrw unless i can swing it on this damn day trip i have. ive been doing barely okay, just have to fake it one more day.

locking in as they say

(i am excited to get out of town btw...)

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im so close to snapping my cold streak...

lunch with the rents, and im hoping to make this my last hoorah.

gonna get what i want to close out this horrendous string of weeks

and i should end up right around my bmr

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(in all honesty) im craving one of my favorite dishes in the world of cuisine, but it has a fear food in it (its a main ingredient)... this just does not make sense and my head is spinning as a result.

fmfl

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well... now that im at my fucking bmr ima just call today a metad bay and pray i can scramble around my plate at dads bday dinner so i dont have to fast for a whole week to compensate

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yall. i can actually make this 900c max thing a reality today!!!