i think a very important part of shane hollander is that he never talks things out out loud, he figures them out fully in his head and THEN he will share, in tampa shane only approaches ilya when he has fully thought out his side of things, at the cottage shane only wakes ilya up to tell him the plan when he has every detail straightened out, he’s a very “just right” kind of guy, and like every single detail!! he’s not like “okay maybe you could play here or here and maybe we start like a thing together” NO! “ottawa. charity.”
and he gets visibly upset and unsettled when somebody tries to coax problems out of him before he has already essentially solved them, like when ilya suggests they hook up in montreal, when hayden brings up lily, when ilya tries to get them acting like a couple in boston, and when rose basically talks him into coming out
he freaks out at the fact that he can’t control every piece in the interaction and he feels he can’t sufficiently discuss these things out loud when he doesn’t have a grip on them himself
he never takes his problems anywhere, or to anyone and he’s very secretive about his interiority (and this isn’t just an ilya thing, he doesn’t have anyone he does this with)
and thats why its so special when david walks in on them that for once shane is actually forced to plan out loud and have somebody elses input and support into how he’s going to approach a situation that he’s not actually ready for
(and i think this is very important to bear in mind going into the long game, shane is a fixer not a talker, he doesn’t want to talk about problems until he already has a solution to them)
(and and because it always comes down to the fucking im sorry its also why he likes submitting to ilya, its all about giving up not only the control he has to exact over his life and material reality but also the control he experiences in his mind literally all the time)
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